#deathofachild
Why did you stop breathing,
When I wanted you to have so many more breaths?
Why did you leave this world,
When there was so much experience within it that you had left?
Why do I have to live without you now,
When we got no time at all?
Why does it have to be so unfair?
Why can’t you come back once, or a thousand hundred times more?
Why did you die first,
When I am so much older?
Why couldn’t anyone do anything enough to save you?
Why did no one’s efforts work?
Why did you go from being healthy,
To unresuscitationable?
Why am I stuck here now,
Without ever being able to see you again?
What do you think about and do in heaven?
Do you think about me at all?
I’m sorry I wasn’t good enough.
If I could have had a second chance,
I’d do it all so much better.
I miss you more than you could know,
I love you and I never wanted to let you go.
Jun 16, 2023
Jun 16, 2023 at 2:48 PM UTC
I never knew him to do wrong.
He left me here last Saturday week;
I never saw him again.
A terrible shock.
God was cruel to me.
Words cannot express... my heart is torn.
I have the others.
God spare them to me.
He was the loveliest of all.
My heart breaks day in and day out;
I am just now living for when...
He took a pain,
In the head;
He went to the hospital.
We don't know
What happened -
They didn't,
Until they got the blood test back,
From Dublin.
The next day the baby was born.
At twelve o'clock there was a crowd,
Neighbours waiting on the news.
They did all in their power.
He was dying.
Words that will ring in my ears...
It was the saddest... most respected
Funeral,
The teachers and children formed
A Guard;
A hundred met him at the Creamery Cross;
Carried the little coffin up the steps
And into the chapel.
Six school pals carried him,
From the chapel,
And left him to rest.
He'll never go off this earth
Without first coming to see me
(*Mary, at two o'clock in the morning he came up the hall,
And rapped on the room door*)
I do hope and pray
I'm not keeping him
From Heaven.
I wanted to write you to give you a surprise...
It was little thought it would be this sad news.
The baby... is the image of him.
My heart is torn.
I could be washed in tears.
Aug 23, 2019
Aug 23, 2019 at 9:24 AM UTC
I thought about what he would say
I was grown and you raised me right
We had our time together as a family
And it is your love that gives me light
I thought about what I might say to him
It’s hard to live in this world without you
As I got older you gave my life new meaning
Now I know why my Dad loved me like I love you
There is still time for hope
I can find it in my love for you
There is so much for me to question
I don’t understand God’s will this time
But I once prayed that it be done
I thought about what we would both say
Would we talk about the day you were born
Or the day you left to become your own man
I was proud but still my heart was torn
Maybe it would be best
to let our eyes talk
to let our hearts talk
to let our tears talk
it’s time for words to rest
There is still time for hope
I can find it in my love for you
There is so much for me to question
I don’t understand God’s will this time
But still I pray that it be done
Jun 8, 2016
Jun 8, 2016 at 11:01 PM UTC