#day2
It had to be stopped around the time
I felt the yellow messenger of rot
on my teeth as my breath was
slowly beginning to smell like
corpses in piles at the bottom
of a ***** brown lung pushing
the nicotine sedative all across
my thickened bloodstream.
Months later when my nails were not
tinted yellow all the way
to the end just like my teeth were
nearly clean again like the sheets
in which I was able to get better rest reversing all that was broken
begun to get easier just a little bit.
But I suppose that very few things
are so broken they can't be regrown.
Apr 2, 2020
Apr 2, 2020 at 4:43 PM UTC
Wash me clean of this feeling,
left over from a frost, half thawed.
I am slow and clunky
tension and heavy
my head is empty, but
there’s so much pressure.
Building up, holding itself up.
Let the pressure break,
water me into serenity.
Apr 4, 2019
Apr 4, 2019 at 5:12 PM UTC
I'm ready for the rain,
ready for the pain it brings,
ready for the cleansing,
the healing,
the arrival of feelings I've been inviting for months...
I've been avoiding for months...
I've been fighting for months.
Because I believed that numb was better but now I crave the harsher weather.
Now I need the hurricanes,
need them so desperately I can hardly separate me from the want.
The savage desire to light a fire I'm unwilling to put out engulfs me.
I want to set myself aflame, but blazes lead to blame and body counts.
So instead, I'll await the rain.
Best to just let it wash away.
Apr 2, 2019
Apr 2, 2019 at 6:31 PM UTC
I've decided to keep a sort of journal....
Telling you all about what happens in my life as a Middle-Schooler.
I call it...The Apocalypse
Follow me to stay up-to-date on when i post these.
Can you help me survive...The Apocalypse?
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Day 2
Monday, February 4
We have school again!!!
Normally i wouldn't be happy about this...
but i finally get to see my friends after a week
Today i am practicing for the musical.
Today should be a good day, nonetheless
please...send help
(and someone to do my homework)
~Pandora
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 6:23 AM UTC
My freshman year is a reclamation. a reclamation of how I can't play both patient and doctor. My freshman year was supposed to be the second chance that I thought my dad wanted, my freshman year was where the excuses were not accepted anymore by professors nor by me. All of freshman year I lived with my dad. I tell people, its to save money, it's convenient, it's bonding, while in all honesty living with my dad has been the time I feel the farthest from him, maybe cause we started with a crash start, maybe I just happened just like childhood just like my life. my freshman year was a reclamation, a reclamation that if I'm 5 or 50 miles away from home, my mom has me like gravity. when I come back home it may take some time for her gravitational pull to set in but doesn't take a semester, a school year, a high school, a life, for her to be there, to stay there and to be my foundation, my reclamation.
Apr 3, 2018
Apr 3, 2018 at 3:01 PM UTC
“Okay,” said she,
“If you promise you will
always, always let me be free,
I will let you
kiss me.”
“Promise,” said he,
“Never, never shall I
use love to hopple you to me.
Now, pucker up
baby.”
Apr 2, 2018
Apr 2, 2018 at 10:09 AM UTC
I don’t like writing this.
I have no desire to recant the red dress
The storm, the torrid blend of passion, anger and shame
Yet it haunts me at ungodly hours.
Let me sleep *****
I can tick the bucket list.
Check the Facebook quiz
“One point for if you’ve ever loved”
Have you tasted ashes?
It’s ******* awful.
Feb 11, 2018
Feb 11, 2018 at 12:25 AM UTC
Ingredients:
suitcases
photo albums
quick wit
a new space that is comfortable to breathe in, raise other beings in, and nurture pets and your spirit in.
Sprinklings of humor to shake on it all when it gets to be too much. Mason jars of self-appreciation and worth to open in an emergency, if these qualities are forgotten and old patterns resurrected.
Preparation:
First, sit quietly with yourself.
Breathe deeply, as many times as you need.
Fill as many soul cups as you can with confidence,
and pour them on yourself, until they sink into the
soapstone of your pores.
If needed, tip back your head and open your mouth,
in order to have a more direct inflow.
After that, take just as many cups of calm
and pour them in, slowly and with generosity.
It is okay if you overflow; you may need extra serenity
later, when you are in the midst of action.
Let the two ingredients mix, slowly, until colors as yet unnamed
are formed in your solar plexus, spilling
throughout the entirety
of your body.
Take a break and blow bubbles, for lightness.
Yes, you may laugh like a loon.
Marinade:
After the laughter has subsided, take a big dose of self- love and rub it all over yourself, drizzled like fine coconut-scented oil. Do not miss a spot, even on the parts that you have a problem with. In fact, give those extra love.
And now, for the rub: This has been simmering for a while. It is time to push it all into the oven and bake it. The heat is rising, so be quick.
Take all precious memories and sew them into the pockets of your coat. The ugly ones, burn, quickly and thoroughly. Scatter the ashes into the wind.
Hang new pictures on the wall. Splashes of nature you have photographed. Mandalas created by a precious daughter. A platypus wishing you goodnight by your little flower imp. A cheeky photo of your boy, to remind you of inner sauciness.
All of these strengthen with love.
Finally, rest your head upon the new pillow and inhale the scent of freshly laundered springtime. For now, the ordeal of your winter has ended.
Time for a long, languid, luxurious dessert.
A new life!
Bon appetite!
Apr 5, 2017
Apr 5, 2017 at 4:36 PM UTC
If there are days that you feel that the power of my love
may be too much to handle, I apologize for the discomfort
it is bringing. For the heart my higher being so graciously
gave to me was meant to be experienced by you.
I was born to express my passion in the most intimate of
ways, and my presence is meant to be felt whether or not
we are in the same space. So it is expected that you embrace
my form of being.
If your spirit is not rattled by the depletion of my energy,
and if your mind is not frazzled by the idea of this love
no longer existing, you do not deserve to experience the
positive vibrations I am giving.
Apr 3, 2015
Apr 3, 2015 at 4:37 AM UTC
if fingers could touch the points of light
if a finger could stretch and have a slight
chance of brushing when a sun becomes a star.
would there be music.
if breath breathed with lips, pressed
to the heavens could carry, stars on
new currents making galaxies harm-
lessly spin, in empty space.
would it be a kaleidoscope.
if we looked into each others eyes
seeing what stars we first saw, in awe
fingers touching fingers, brushing
until interlocked, lips so close as to
not touch but catch each others
soft shared breath.
would it again, be love.
Apr 2, 2015
Apr 2, 2015 at 9:29 PM UTC
On the second day of Reggae Christmas
My boombastic love gave to me:
2 boombastic bongs
and a brand new marijuana tree.
Dec 2, 2014
Dec 2, 2014 at 8:20 PM UTC