#daugher
“No,” she said “just no.”
I wilted,
watching her detachment
as if I was an insect crossing her plate
to be brushed aside.
Embarrassed, shutting down
where hope to share myself had sprung
but met her disdain.
*But I’m your mom,
and they don’t care,
these strangers without a single string to your heart
or mine.*
And yet she yanks on mine
as if my thoughts will hurt them.
*What can I do
to get through to you?*
It’s not my life but yours,
and someone else who loves you
that may fight
then move away.
I pray it’s not ahead for you.
I don’t have the luxury.
You demand my heart
the way you did my womb.
The hope of all our years
placed in my arms and at my breast
after sweat and tears had left my body.
My baby,
my everlasting love,
my singular weakness.
The one I could never turn away.
Dismissing a part of me with “No”
as if I need permission to be tender
and reveal myself.
Where did I go wrong?
I don’t allow this from anyone.
I walk.
But no one else has my soul by a cord,
through my heart,
taking nourishment for life
and sending back a sense of purpose.
Nothing greater in joy or pain,
than mother.
And this, I know,
is ahead of me for life.
Oct 11, 2017
Oct 11, 2017 at 1:48 AM UTC
I fed you, clothed you
Kept you warm
I kept you safe from
The day you were born
I tried to protect you
The best that I could
I love you in every way
Just like a mother should
The world is a bad place
I want to wrap you up in cotton wool
Keep you away frm the bad things in life
And everything else that is cruel
I cant wrap you up or
Protect you forever
I want you to make mistakes
And learn its better to be a giver
I want you to be happy
With confidence in all you do
I want you to believe in yourself
The way that I believe in you
I want you to grow up
Be popular and be yourself
I want you to follow your dreams
And live in perfect health
I want your knight in shining armour
To knock you off your feet
To love you faithfully forever
And be what makes his heart beat
I want you to know that
No matter what life throws your way
Unconditionally I'll always love you
Even after my dying day
Even then I will be your angel
Try to guard you from the bad
For now I'll be your best friend
Your confidiant your mum and dad
Copyright Julie Murphy 2013
Jun 16, 2018
Jun 16, 2018 at 1:43 AM UTC