#darktimes
T-rust lost.
I-ronically hopeful.
R-espectfully alone.
E-ndlessly worried.
***** promises.
Sep 8, 2024
Sep 8, 2024 at 10:24 AM UTC
(PHASE -1)
"Into the chaos I pummel, as the time gets tough,
The responsibilities I bore now bigger than my ego,
And I getting crushed under both.
Trying to breathe in,
Big gasps coming back empty,
No support or help...
Support being a fantasy as everyone's in the same boat.
"My flaws", mock me as it pushes me deeper,
Cutting me off from everyone I hold dear.
The more I try to fix things, the worse it gets,
Like a devil toying with my helplessness..."
(PHASE-2)
"No salvation, no outlet,
Like bubbles filled with intensely compressed agony...
I try to blow them away before they cloud my judgement,
Alas a bit too late, for the damage has been done,
The words that slipped down my tongue
have already struck like lightening,
Now there's no one remaining..."
(PHASE-3)
"Now that the bubbles have left,
I see them shine in reflection of the devil's eyes,
Oh, have Mercy! I have nothing left,
Just guilt, remorse, increasing ever so severely.
But like a child, the devil pops these bubbles
compressed with agony,
While I watch from a distance,
The chaos whispers: "It's only the beginning"... ~
May 21, 2021
May 21, 2021 at 2:40 AM UTC
In these dark times, remember that you will feel sunlight on your skin once more. You will smell the heat and life of summer, you will feel grass underfoot. This will pass, you will love and live on.
Nov 20, 2020
Nov 20, 2020 at 1:32 PM UTC
It has taken a few weeks
to perfect your recipe
A few more to taste it. The sadness on you
has become your scent,
lingering on your sheets,
just like you. And its the same everyday, routine, until you’ve become a stereotype. You spend the whole day
watching phone calls
rise and fall like empires
or forgotten cities. Like this, you want to be left alone
To wonder why you’re alone. And so you seem to think
about everything, yet nothing at all. And you like how it feels
how the darkness is flirtatious. So you go another night,
just another night. Manuel
Nov 12, 2019
Nov 12, 2019 at 12:22 AM UTC
will all spill alike
One seeping into the other
A symphony of chaos and darkness_ An order from prophecy; of disorder
and a raised structure of destruction
For the skies will be as earth_ Dusty and dead
The earth, just as dead
That everything in between
Would be buried
That everyone in between
Would be buried alive
in blood, fear and fumes
Nov 11, 2019
Nov 11, 2019 at 2:40 PM UTC
I’m a bystander
In my own life
I should’ve known better
Then to think that I’ve changed
That I can grown in my skin
And be truly happy
At the end of the day
It all comes back
To one definite conclusion
That I am a passerby,a fading memory
shoved into the back of the minds of others
Rotting ,smothered and suffocated by the dust of ignorance and the bliss I don’t experience
I watch
All I can do is watch
I was born to be a helping hand and it’s all I can amount to
My poor parents
They didn’t deserve
What did they do to deserve
A child who would not amount to anything more ?
A child who’s importance is limited to
‘et al’ and not the proud glorious name that overshadows it in front, sitting like a trophy on pieces of paper
that
control
And hold power
Over judgement calls and hierarchy
The subtle hierarchy we pretend to shun but really
We adore
And we praise
Because it keeps the inferior in place
So the confident exceed
the socks shoved underneath your bed
The very ones which offered warmth
In the darkest chapters of your book
Sob silently
As they stay still
Alone
Unnoticed
Confused and left feeling used
and *****
As they realise
That you
You’re perfectly fine
Without them
You never needed them
That they were a mere stepping stone into the future you contemplated ending
Of course you didn’t spare a thought
To them
It was wrong of me to think
That I could ever amount to anything
That I could build a name for myself and be happy
Feel what it means to be alive
Smile like a Cheshire Cat
As I lay in euphoria
Happy relationships and having friends who know so much about me
I realise I don’t have to suffer alone
But it’s a facade
Behind the scenes
They all draw lines
You’re just another figure to add the picture
You make their social life look stellar
You’re just someone who helps them grow
But what do you get in return?
You’re recycled, battered and tired
You have twisted and turned
And sobbed uncontrollably to yourself
At night
Contemplating to end it all
But no
You wake up
And manage to smile
And lead them to victory
As you burn into ashes
the ignorant flame thrower who
who forgot who helped ignite the flame
who bathed in glory
ran off
as you
a simple bystander
never got the chance
who could only dream of being happy
withered
and burnt
to crisp
Dec 31, 2018
Dec 31, 2018 at 11:05 AM UTC
I want to leave
It's better than being here
No one will grieve
Because they were never near
Sometimes I want to let go
You won't miss me either way
Your a beautiful glow
But I'm turning you into gray
That is why I should leave
Because I don't want you to turn into me
Jan 15, 2018
Jan 15, 2018 at 8:36 PM UTC
My world is a ride, so strap yourself in.
Theres no place to hide, you knew how it'd end.
Say you've been here before, thats no suprise.
The way them eyes look at me, have I met my demise?
Your halo's not what it seems, what is this feeling?
Your halo's not what it seems, why isn't it gleaming?
I see it now, didn't notice it before.
What i've already been through, you have and more.
If I seem a bit weary, don't runaway.
This is just the first time, I've met someone like me.
Your halo's not what it seems, what is this feeling?
Your halo's not what it seems, why isn't it gleaming?
We'll face our demons tonight.
We'll face our demons tonight.
We'll face our demons tonight.(x2)
How did it feel? To live in a place so cold.
To have nowhere to call home.
How did it feel? Are you free?
As for me they haven't broke me yet
As for you don't let them break you.
As for me...
I've been here before. My lifes a cold war.
I've been placed in limbo, so i know whats in store.
My guards always up, so i'll always be prepared.
For I see the future ahead is nothing but despair.
I tried to end it all but they didn't let me do it.
I tried to end it all but I ******* think I blew it.
I tried to end it all, tried to end it all, tried to end it all.
We'll face our demons tonight...
Nov 9, 2017
Nov 9, 2017 at 1:34 PM UTC
The nightmare will not cease
The nightmare will not relent
The nightmare feasts
On fear and regret
May 11, 2017
May 11, 2017 at 2:14 PM UTC
We don't do no sticky we don't drink no colt's we higher than planes yet we don't do no smoke, these demons are twisted they know that we're gifted my bible its on me and my tongue goes ballistic, the truth is just stabbing but we don't stop clapping so many scriptures they think that we're stacking, born again so I gotta keep it holy, everyday I'm praising like a ceremony,
In my dark days I'm praising, cause gods just amazing, demons just glazing, while my Angles just waiting, no time to be basic, sins have no traces, the lord is the greatest,
Mar 3, 2017
Mar 3, 2017 at 2:17 PM UTC
It's in our darkest times;
Trapped inside the labyrinth
Of our minds
With the waves of sorrow
Clawing out
And flowing freely
Down the engraved canyons
Of our tired eyes
That we discover
The most beautiful
Hidden corners
Of our souls.
l.v.s
May 14, 2016
May 14, 2016 at 2:32 AM UTC
My friend is known by many names,
some may love and some may hate.
To see him you cannot sleep he's with
me night and day and speaks when he
wants,some may praise and some may boo.
But he's my friend and together we may not lose
One.
Two.
Three.
Hear he comes nine on the dot and he greets
all with open arms especially I who greets him
as well, if you must know who he is, his name
is very close to me and will be told to you.
His name is...
Darkness.
Mar 18, 2016
Mar 18, 2016 at 2:54 PM UTC
I went deep down in the hole,
not physically but mentally,
i just wanted to be alone.
I couldnt find my words,
to show people where i’d go,
deep down in my emotions,
where darkness was all there was to show.
I searched frantically for guidance,
to try and figure out if this is as far as i should go.
I couldnt find the right time to let everybody know
i could no longer reach my goals.
I was tired and exhausted and i had nothing left,
it’s sad i know.
When you have these pent up feelings
that you never learned to let go,
they start eating at your insides
until you say **** this, its time for me to go.
life's better off without me,
no one will ever even know,
all the **** i had to go through,
to pop this bottle and take it straight to the dome,
pills that faded my vision,
tears that flooded my throat.
my eyes started to close,
left with nothing but remorse.
surprised to see light sneeking in through my eye lids,
hours later, i was blessed i didnt go.
Jan 27, 2016
Jan 27, 2016 at 1:56 AM UTC
Come to me come, wherever you are,
When life is saddest, I'm never far,
Where things are hard, and you have to choose,
In the sing-songy home of the blues.
Come to me come, whenever you hate,
Yourself or others, it's not to late,
I'll help you and listen, when you need it most,
I'll hold you and bless you, and give you the most.
Mar 3, 2015
Mar 3, 2015 at 8:35 AM UTC