#darkest
I've been full of desires,
something that anyone hardly admires,
I aim for the best,
but it takes a lot of tests!
I'm frightened of the best, wonderful,
and that sure makes me pitiful,
There is this darkness behind me,
waiting to swallow me up,
clobber me down.
I'm jealous, I hate it,
I'm anguished, I hate it,
I'm stressed, I hate it,
I'm rude, I hate it,
but it's the darkness, not me,
it's the madness, not me.
Aug 13, 2025
Aug 13, 2025 at 10:32 AM UTC
And he loves me for the beast
that I am
Just sitting with me
Loving me there
through my darkest nights
Keeping me company at my worst
Tenderly gazing while I heal
Holding my hand without looking away
Dec 4, 2022
Dec 4, 2022 at 7:38 AM UTC
though we're in theses darkest days
let's not lose the morrow's light
when it arrives we will see
a bright horizon
Jun 25, 2020
Jun 25, 2020 at 7:42 PM UTC
Secrets are there to keep
We hold them very tight,
As we go in the darkest nights
I always kept all the secrets,
The secrets that were for the good and the bad
Some are easy to keep
Some are heavy that I can't sleep
But I kept them for you,
And that is what I always will do
I trust you
So I hold them tight,
As I go in the darkest nights
May 31, 2020
May 31, 2020 at 12:13 PM UTC
Every member of our family
is a spark that keeps
the flame of hope alive..
Never blow out the chance
to know those far away.
Because they could be the spark
that keeps us lit on our darkest night..
Family is all that keeps the obscurity at bay..
even though we don't realise it
there the little spark,
that keeps us from sinking into the darkest of places..
Mar 21, 2020
Mar 21, 2020 at 7:29 PM UTC
You own every single piece of me
Every part
The only one with all of my heart
I have given everything I have to you within my core
I still feel as if I should have given so much more
Because you deserve sun to never set or say goodbye
Deserve not the moon or stars but the whole entire sky
The love you have shown since the day we met
An unrecipricable gift for which i will forever be in debt
There are no words to express depth of my gratitude
Sure you have no clue cause of my constantly bad mood
As hard as I try being someone worthy of your caress
Each tense day that passes you like me less and less
I cannot blame you for dwindling adoration
Hard cherishing a girl who voices no appreciation
I have noticed the difference in behavior for awhile
Remain unable to coax out your smile
I lost the ability to conjure your laughter
It's vanished along with happy-ever-after
The years spent making love feel like a dream
Unsure if I am remembering wrong
Was it as amazing as to me it seems?
Gone are moments we were free from fear and cares
Happy as long as the other was there
Now all we do
Argue and fight
Pretty sure you're starting to get sick of my sight
I leave marks on surface of your magnificent skin
Drawing blood out
You won't let me in
Scratching hopes I'll somehow break through
If I dig my nails deep enough I'll get to the real you
I do not want to hurt you but I can't seem to stop
The things you say leave my head spinning like a top
I have explained before you have nothing from me to hide
The sole element I need is for you to let me inside
You have never given me a full chance to be understanding
In the past I was strict and demanding
But that was back before I knew what forever was like
Sweat and shake when those withdrawals strike
You have seen me change so drastically
Over time
I'm not even the same me
And even when I would express aggravation
Forgave each mistake without hesitation
For I had known certainly you were "The One"
Locked eyes and right there my search was done
Our romance has survived lots of ups and downs
Used to wear mostly smiles but they've switched to frowns
I am the reason why it's difficult to get along
Finally realized it's me who's in the wrong
For so long pride has rendered me blind
Justifying words no matter how unkind
For every hurtful action came up with an excuse
Truly believed you deserved the abuse
For damage you did and the lies you told
That doesn't give me the right to act cold
You have served your sentence:
A year spent on your own
A prison I built and left you in alone
As punishment for tears you made me cry
Slowly breaking my heart
Not telling me why
For the fraction of life I wasted in chains
I washed different parts of myself down the drain
But wasn't you drowning my sorrows
Hand pouring remorse on not just today but all tomorrows
Haunted unforgettable pain
Memory of what no longer remained
I attempted to seal sadness within
No one got a glimpse of the agony within
I was sure would eventually go away
I ignored the ache and pushed through it each day
But the longer I pretended was just fine
Crazier it drove me knowing you weren't mine
Tortured by the fact was the one who chose to leave
To deceieve myself thinking you would change was plain naive
But truly believed you were ready to be done
It came as a surprise when after me you didnt run
I assume it is because i acted like I moved on
Too wounded to let witness my distress with you gone
Determined to never go through same ordeal twice
Trusting nature i was forced to ultimately sacrifice
I put up walls
Blocked ricocheting echoes of your voice
That's not all I barricaded out with my choice
In order to be unshackled from terrible fear
Hope and happiness also had to disappear
Solitude was total freedom at first
That relief quickly turned into a curse
I noticed resolve diminishing bit by bit
Something missing from my world and you were it
I yearned for moments of comfort and bliss
Magic contained in your enchanting kiss
Irresistible drawn to despite what you lacked
Caved and despite my instinct took you back
No one else could possibly make me feel the way you do
I accepted a relationship where my heart stays torn in two
But problem is we've had too much room to grow
Into people hardly recognize but know
I am still Amanda and you are still Paul
Infatuation has not wavered at all
But I have grown bitter
Full of anger
Who is responsible for morphing me into a stranger?
A glance in the mirror shows a twisted reflection
I can't pinpoint the exact imperfection
I feel ugly and unworthy of love
Far away from my image I forcefully shove
Why do you tolerate violence and greif?
Patient when in return offer no relief
If you saw the picture I've become you'd depart
Before once again I leave pits on your heart
You hold me in devoted embrace
Piercing with the fearful expression on your face
You love me (at least promise you do)
I cannot fully trust though I try to
I cannot comprehend a single trait you see
I am a screaming mess and you stick around me
You are a miracle that through darkest hours shone
Truthfully very best guy I have ever known
Dec 24, 2019
Dec 24, 2019 at 4:34 AM UTC
In the middle of the desert lost and hopeless
I found my North star at my darkest moment
It gave me hope and showed me the way
I fell in love with a shining star
She was bright but faraway
Jun 12, 2019
Jun 12, 2019 at 9:23 AM UTC
Rain ............ Freezing rain yet again
One of those days where the morning never ends.and tomorrow can't wait to begin . I think of myself as my own friend . I see myself often enough to pretend . I can't even kid around no matter how many letters I send . I keep dreaming a life like a tree where I climb to the top to see the end . Then it's on repeat where I fall back down again . I sit here and there in silence to mend . Before I stand back up an climb once more like I meant. On sunny days I put up my tent , because sometimes that energy , I don't get . I Kindle a fire so farfetched. That I would just love to forget. I'm not quite okay yet . Just me , my friend , and I , we've all met . and everytime the **** gets heavy , we jet. We run through forests and hills till we fall into a unforgettable pit . And we sit , in silence , and wait for how dark it can get .
Apr 14, 2019
Apr 14, 2019 at 8:47 AM UTC
Sweetest darkest darkness
Kindest loving shadow less
no light in the way of your weaving control
nothing to get in the way of us all,
Stumbling along where we can't see,
Continuing to blind us till we don't know where we're supposed to be.
Jan 29, 2019
Jan 29, 2019 at 1:21 PM UTC
So sweet,
I continue to eat
I get so sugar high
I want to fly
I rise to my feet
dance to the beat
of roses dying
and children crying
Through the tears of the weak i find my meaning
And i just keep singing and i just keep eating
Jan 17, 2019
Jan 17, 2019 at 12:12 PM UTC
I am always losing friends,
my love never meets their ends,
i never amount to what they wish,
i never serve them the right dish,
of care and love,
now i am just a dead dove,
i am suffocated in dying peace,
drowning in it as if it were grease,
please don't leave me in this despair,
i will lose my mind but they won't care,
the always leave,
i never receive,
the love i know i deserve,
to think they have enough nerve,
to take my everything,
and not one gift of love they bring,
i am done with friends for life,
they are nothing but sickness and strife.
Jan 11, 2019
Jan 11, 2019 at 2:50 PM UTC
The darkest place in the world is not a cave,
not a room with no windows,
nor even a real place.
The darkest place is my mind.
The darkest place sounds like a place with nothing,
no people,
no sound,
Nothing.
But there is always something going on.
Someone, something, a beast, a villain.
Talking to me.
Most don’t believe me that they’re real.
The ones that do believe don’t hear them.
Constantly in pain from the thoughts and never ending sounds.
The voices started off with just one,
then another one came, then more, and more.
Now everyday more come, more leave.
The ones that leave never come back.
The ones that come never stay.
They always leave.
Except the first one.
They say, not to name something you don’t want to get attached to but,
that’s what I did.
he’s loud, mean, annoying, but somehow I have come to like him.
Funny, helpful, reason and logic.
No one hears our conversations, only me and him.
The arguing and fighting with him brings me happiness.
The darkest place is not a real place, but our own minds.
Jan 8, 2019
Jan 8, 2019 at 8:52 AM UTC
Sometimes, you have to look back at your darkest past
to realize how bright your present is.
May 29, 2018
May 29, 2018 at 5:16 AM UTC
He'd come in your
darkest hour.
Pull you out to
the light.
Cleaned you up.
Teach you who to
never fall again.
And by then, He
will release you
of your sorrows.
-HIY
May 4, 2018
May 4, 2018 at 11:10 AM UTC
Whisper it, don't let them hear.
Be careful; it's them you should fear.
Follow them, do what they say,
And for your sake, don't run away.
Their hearts are as black as black can be.
Their souls chill you to the bone, don't you see?
They'll lure you into their arms and tear you apart.
Then they'll **** the blood out of your heart,
Leave you gasping for air that surrounds you.
I know it sounds unreal, like it's not true,
But don't look at them, don't ask who they are.
Their darkness surrounds us from afar.
Don't provoke them, don't make them mad,
For if you do, the outcome could be bad.
The demons will rise through the land.
The darkness will clasp your cold, icy hand.
You'll remember all your darkened power,
And the demons will rise in the night's darkest hour.
They'll lead you to a darker path,
And you'll be the one to unleash the demon's wrath.
Apr 6, 2018
Apr 6, 2018 at 3:23 PM UTC