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Dear The Boy Who Is Wasting My Time and Emotion, I can do so much better than you. no you can't You are hurting me, every time you speak to me, you break me a little more. Get over it Princess. You deserve it. God, you're pathetic. Stop texting me when you have a girlfriend but you want him to, secretly I am going to find someone someday who is so much better than you. Someone who will treat me right instead of treating me like I'm his Plan B. I'm going to find someone who doesn't drink and get high to work out his problems when he can't even legally drive yet. That's not called "being complicated and deep" as you seem to think, it's called "being an alcoholic and a druggie". I'm going to find someone who reads, who likes the same books I do and won't make fun of the series I love that saved me from myself when I wanted to **** myself. I'm going to find someone with a good heart, who CARES about me, who will not be Broken but will be okay with me being Broken. Who will fix me. Not someone who just wants an ego boost like you do. **you will never find anyone like that. You will never do better than him.** You really aren't who you used to be **So? You should take what you can get, stupid girl. No boy has ever liked you, and no boy ever will. No boy has even called you pretty besides him.** You're bad for me. **You are not worth anything better** You say you are sorry and regret hurting me, but I don't believe you believe him I want to believe you. So badly so then just believe him! but I can't **you stupid ugly worthless ***** And even if I did believe you, you don’t even like me. You haven’t even spoken to me for a month. A MONTH you ******* **You’re not worth noticing or speaking to. Why would he care? Just take it. Take how he treats you and deal with it. It’s what you deserve. Get used to it, ***** Even if we talked for a while, for a long while and you managed to deceive me enough into getting close with you again, then if you asked me out and we went back down the path we were on before you dropped me so easily, I could never trust you. You text me flirty texts while you’re WITH HER! You HAVE a girlfriend and NO girl deserves to be treated like that. No girl deserves to have an unfaithful boy who is in her life, but is not committed to her when he claims he is. **You deserve that.** Not even me. Yes you do. So I don’t deserve to be treated the way you treat me. I get a mini heart attack every time you text me and I’d like you out of my life. **Don’t do that. You’ll regret it. You are so, so alone you stupid ***** What are you thinking?** I can do better than you. I can find someone who likes me. Someone who’s idea of a good time doesn’t involve ecstasy. Someone who doesn’t need to be drunk to say something nice to me. Oh please. You will never ever find anyone. Please just stop now. I have bigger problems than a boy like you. Your problems could be solved with a  boy like him though! I told you that you didn’t hurt me. I am lying. I’m not going to let you keep hurting me however. **But the pain is so addictive. Let him keep hurting you. It makes you feel like maybe you’re worth something, if you have his approval. If he tells you you’re pretty, it makes you wonder for a second if the mirror is wrong. You will never be convinced, but it makes you wonder, for just a split second. It hurts, but it’s a lovely split second. Listen to me!** I’m NOT YOUR F!CKING CONSILATION PRIZE okay? **Yeah. You’re right about that, at least. What kind of ****** consolation prize would you be? Who would want you? You’re not a consolation prize to him, you’re just a another girl for when he’s bored. That’s all you deserve to be. Take it, worthless. You’re ugly. Take what you can get.** Usually, this is where I’d say: I’m sorry. Goodbye. But I am not sorry and I’ve apologized to you far too many times so far and I shouldn’t have. I had nothing to be sorry about. **You always have something to be sorry about. Apologize that he has to look at you and your ugly face. That you exist. That you are wasting space on his phone with your picture and your contact and your texts. Apologize for being so difficult and annoying and desperate and pathetic and self-centered and self-deprecating and say you’re sorry that you ever offended him by being so pompous as to believe for even just half a second (or half a summer, as it were) that you could be worthy of his interest. Because you are worth nothing. You are not enough. You are inferior. You are a failure. A waste.** So goodbye. -Ember. **You’ll regret it later. You will never find a boy as good as him. Ever. You will never even find another guy. You don’t deserve him, let alone anyone else. It was a fluke that he ever ended up with the misfortune of knowing you. You will never do better than him.** Yes I will. **No you won’t, you stupid ugly worthless ***** Yes. I will.
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Jan 27, 2015
Jan 27, 2015 at 12:11 AM UTC
ember-evanescent
Collaboration with Myself. Ember's brighter side of her mind, and Ember's darker side of her mind.
Dear The Boy Who Is Wasting My Time and Emotion, I can do so much better than you. no you can't You are hurting me, every time you speak to me, you break me a little more. Get over it Princess. You deserve it. God, you're pathetic. Stop texting me when you have a girlfriend but you want him to, secretly I am going to find someone someday who is so much better than you. Someone who will treat me right instead of treating me like I'm his Plan B. I'm going to find someone who doesn't drink and get high to work out his problems when he can't even legally drive yet. That's not called "being complicated and deep" as you seem to think, it's called "being an alcoholic and a druggie". I'm going to find someone who reads, who likes the same books I do and won't make fun of the series I love that saved me from myself when I wanted to **** myself. I'm going to find someone with a good heart, who CARES about me, who will not be Broken but will be okay with me being Broken. Who will fix me. Not someone who just wants an ego boost like you do. **you will never find anyone like that. You will never do better than him.** You really aren't who you used to be **So? You should take what you can get, stupid girl. No boy has ever liked you, and no boy ever will. No boy has even called you pretty besides him.** You're bad for me. **You are not worth anything better** You say you are sorry and regret hurting me, but I don't believe you believe him I want to believe you. So badly so then just believe him! but I can't **you stupid ugly worthless ***** And even if I did believe you, you don’t even like me. You haven’t even spoken to me for a month. A MONTH you ******* **You’re not worth noticing or speaking to. Why would he care? Just take it. Take how he treats you and deal with it. It’s what you deserve. Get used to it, ***** Even if we talked for a while, for a long while and you managed to deceive me enough into getting close with you again, then if you asked me out and we went back down the path we were on before you dropped me so easily, I could never trust you. You text me flirty texts while you’re WITH HER! You HAVE a girlfriend and NO girl deserves to be treated like that. No girl deserves to have an unfaithful boy who is in her life, but is not committed to her when he claims he is. **You deserve that.** Not even me. Yes you do. So I don’t deserve to be treated the way you treat me. I get a mini heart attack every time you text me and I’d like you out of my life. **Don’t do that. You’ll regret it. You are so, so alone you stupid ***** What are you thinking?** I can do better than you. I can find someone who likes me. Someone who’s idea of a good time doesn’t involve ecstasy. Someone who doesn’t need to be drunk to say something nice to me. Oh please. You will never ever find anyone. Please just stop now. I have bigger problems than a boy like you. Your problems could be solved with a  boy like him though! I told you that you didn’t hurt me. I am lying. I’m not going to let you keep hurting me however. **But the pain is so addictive. Let him keep hurting you. It makes you feel like maybe you’re worth something, if you have his approval. If he tells you you’re pretty, it makes you wonder for a second if the mirror is wrong. You will never be convinced, but it makes you wonder, for just a split second. It hurts, but it’s a lovely split second. Listen to me!** I’m NOT YOUR F!CKING CONSILATION PRIZE okay? **Yeah. You’re right about that, at least. What kind of ****** consolation prize would you be? Who would want you? You’re not a consolation prize to him, you’re just a another girl for when he’s bored. That’s all you deserve to be. Take it, worthless. You’re ugly. Take what you can get.** Usually, this is where I’d say: I’m sorry. Goodbye. But I am not sorry and I’ve apologized to you far too many times so far and I shouldn’t have. I had nothing to be sorry about. **You always have something to be sorry about. Apologize that he has to look at you and your ugly face. That you exist. That you are wasting space on his phone with your picture and your contact and your texts. Apologize for being so difficult and annoying and desperate and pathetic and self-centered and self-deprecating and say you’re sorry that you ever offended him by being so pompous as to believe for even just half a second (or half a summer, as it were) that you could be worthy of his interest. Because you are worth nothing. You are not enough. You are inferior. You are a failure. A waste.** So goodbye. -Ember. **You’ll regret it later. You will never find a boy as good as him. Ever. You will never even find another guy. You don’t deserve him, let alone anyone else. It was a fluke that he ever ended up with the misfortune of knowing you. You will never do better than him.** Yes I will. **No you won’t, you stupid ugly worthless ***** Yes. I will.
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