#couldhavebeen
a month —
that’s all it took
for the world to start spelling itself in your name.
thirty days,
and somehow, it felt like forever had already found me.
i’d loved you before i even realised it—
in quiet messages,
in the comfort of knowing you existed,
in the way you made ordinary moments feel like warmth.
you said it’s distance,
you said i deserve someone who’ll stay,
that you don’t want me to be a bird with its wings cut off —
but what if you were the reason i learned to fly?
you call it timing,
i call it tragedy.
because we could’ve been more
if the world had been a little kinder.
now we talk like friends —
you tease, i laugh,
and everything looks fine from the outside.
but when the night turns still,
you’re the ache behind my heartbeat.
you’re every almost,
every could-have-been that won’t let go.
and i know you told me not to wait —
but i will.
not out of hope,
but because i can’t pretend anyone else could feel like you.
i’ll wait quietly,
until time decides what we’re meant to be —
whether that’s another beginning,
or just the memory of my favorite ending.
because even if it was only a month,
you were the kind of love
that rewrote everything i thought love could be.
Dec 10, 2025
Dec 10, 2025 at 12:11 PM UTC
I Could Have Been
I could have been—
I could have been your girl.
And not just any girl—
your girl.
The one you come home to,
the one you hold tight.
You wouldn’t have to fight
battles that weren’t yours to beat,
or carry secrets
you were never meant to keep.
I could have been happy—
happy with you.
If only
you could have
loved me
too.
Jul 2, 2025
Jul 2, 2025 at 8:06 PM UTC
It’s weird to think that every version of me was made to be with every version of you.
It’s crazy to think that what we have crosses universes and traverse timelines and that we were always meant to be,
that nothing could keep us apart.
It’s a beautiful concept.
But imagine if we were never meant to fall in love.
Imagine if every conceivable universe wanted us to remain apart,
but it was our own free will that brought us together.
Imagine if we, in this timeline, were the only versions of ourselves to become what we are.
That we were never meant to be, but we carved our own paths to each other.
That what we feel is stronger than all the force of the universe.
Maybe it was always going to be me and you.
I guess it is for us to find out
Dec 2, 2020
Dec 2, 2020 at 8:48 AM UTC
It is too late to know
what it could have been
Like sand slipping through
The gaps between your fingers
Slowly running out
Time doesn’t turn
Actions pave the way
Speaking louder than words
Only thoughts are left
What if?
The unrealistic expectations
That were never fully explored
Create ridges of regret
That cannot be filled
It is too late
Is it faith speaking
Or purely the soothing words
Wanted to be heard
Acting as nothing
But comfort
In all confusion
There is something to be said
Something to be done
And another perspective
Waiting to be explored
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 9:23 AM UTC
Wrapped in your scent
I think of then
I think what could have been
If i had felt something more
If loving people wasnt a chore
I wish i could do more
We
Could have done more
But oh
Love is a bore
No
Love is fire
We were rain
Love was never
Part of our game
Your name
It sends chills down my spine
And no
Not the good kind
We were wet
Sloppy
Gross
And you loved the most
I was new to this feeling of comfort
Comfort
Was it comfort?
Was it comfort that kept me up at night
Wondering if my head was alright
Wondering if i was holding you tight
Enough?
Because you never seemed ok
With my selfish
Distant ways
And i never knew what to say
To do
How to act
But today
Holding your essence
In the naked palm
Of my hand
I felt that slighy
Small
Maybe
We could have been something someday
Dec 12, 2014
Dec 12, 2014 at 6:28 PM UTC
No choice
You make
Is
Wrong.
But,
Not always
It is for you
To decide.
Sometimes
Life chooses
For you.
Preferably when
You
Take to long
To pick one,
On your own.
And all you can do,
Is to accept it,
Because the choice has already been made.
Dec 4, 2014
Dec 4, 2014 at 10:14 PM UTC