#coolkids
"I wish I could be like the cool kids"
I used to yearn for when I was younger
desperate to fit in and be liked
but it never worked
I was always the outcast
the loner
the ******
it took some time
but eventually
I don't want to be like the cool kids
I am myself
and that's the best thing I can be
I express myself in my attire
and accessories
and makeup
I am afraid of being judged for how I looked
but I pretend otherwise
and keep on being authentically me
and I will always be me
no matter what people say
because that is the path to happiness
Dec 23, 2025
Dec 23, 2025 at 8:39 PM UTC
Smoke fills the room
I wish I could look as cool as them
Smoke fills my lungs
I don't feel cool at all
The minty fresh feel sets in
I'm not worried about looking cool
Or feeling cool
I'm not worried
anymore
now I know why they look so cool
Dec 11, 2015
Dec 11, 2015 at 11:15 PM UTC
my lungs,
infatuated by the smell of smoke,
all I know,
is my walls,
are going up in flames.
c.f.
Oct 16, 2015
Oct 16, 2015 at 9:51 PM UTC
Never Good Enough.
How did my life change from being a cool kid to being a social reject
Did I unknowingly commit social suicide
Was I unwillingly tried and thrown in the dungeon of unpopularity
Why did I never get a chance to take the stand and let them hear my testimony
I don't even know who 'they' are
Yet they have decided my trivial fate on the social wheel
They had to be close enough to me to figure out that I did not
Could not fit in
They had to know me enough to make me feel this lonely
I must have been friends with 'them'
Friends
I don't remember what this is
How this looks
Why this is needed
Or if I ever had this
I don't care about popularity, I don't care period.
What I want to know is how I got here.
To this point
Where when I breakdown, there's no one who sees that I am broken
Falling apart on silver blades
Stained red
Wielded with insecurities
Invited by my yearning flesh
Was I that much of an inconsequential person, that my existence
Or rather my absence went unnoticed
I always came to the conclusion that I'm not pretty enough
Or skinny enough
Or loud enough
And that's why 'they' don't me
Because I couldn't conform
To senseless conversation and shameless gossip
Anyway, all that doesn't matter anymore
Because I found out a while ago
Cool Kids Do Die
Dec 10, 2014
Dec 10, 2014 at 11:07 AM UTC
teal and golden rays
in your eyes
managed, clean-cut hair
presentable, charming
barely a stranger despite
short times together
your company is healing
you're a character, that's for sure
an impressionist, eccentric
convivial like myself
we stand outside and
happily inhale poison
pretending we're awkward
being awkward
good friends we
have become
in such a short time-span
mutual agreement to
enjoy who we are
together
Oct 23, 2014
Oct 23, 2014 at 10:41 PM UTC
Are you an overachiever?
They call us the cool kids.
But they look straight into our eyes with that stare.
That stare.
Smells like jealousy. But sympathy it is.
Sep 23, 2014
Sep 23, 2014 at 2:26 PM UTC