#convoluted
Everything is a cluster **** of emotions, an endless stream of feels, a torrent of agonizing thoughts, and I'm just drowning in my own doubts and getting lost in confusion. I find answers to problems and problems to answers
Searching for resolution and conclusion amidst this convoluted cluster **** of emotions
Jul 16, 2018
Jul 16, 2018 at 3:35 PM UTC
Stroking the cool surface
that my head rests against
My mind empties of every thought
Every feeling
But the sensation
Of being entrapped within
a point dimension.
...
Reaching past the darkness
As the dimension grows ever larger
Draining my vision,
Stretching my will
thinner and thinner
*Is it me who is shrinking
Or is the darkness growing larger?*
What is it, that the warmth escapes me
As soon as I reach closer...
Falling out of reach
Never nearly close enough
To fall through my fingers.
That tight feeling in my throat
And that
Air that tugs on my lungs
And that
Urge to tear myself open
In a scream that fills
The empty landscape
...
Closing my eyes,
The cold melding away,
My head sliding down
In a legato staccato of my essence.
Nov 21, 2017
Nov 21, 2017 at 3:14 AM UTC
a downpour
the season in which I was born,
baby shower- we made a pond,
now let's insert a pun...
oh wait, it's already done
but it was a bad one
i guess i'm still wet behind the ears..
oh **** another one, slip of the tongue, and i'm all washed up from the stress
it's absurd but i'm drowning in the rain- a bad metaphor for negative over thinking maybe.
though by the way i have a paper heart and i'm stuck in the rain, won't anyone save me? guess not
i'll get high with my words just to fill a hole of emptiness brought by confusion and doubt, to blur out noises from outside with noises from the inside, a distraction through a mute facade of confidence and an assurance to myself that i am okay.
it's convoluted i know; from making puns to emotional grunts, it doesn't make sense- i don't make sense
Aug 2, 2017
Aug 2, 2017 at 9:33 AM UTC
When I Saw You,
I Got Blew.
I Always Knew,
Time We Had Together Is Few.
When I Said I Love You,
You Replied I Love You Too.
I Saw You With A Young Child Playing Peekaboo,
My Heart Overdrew.
I Observed Your Virtue,
It Seems You Have Grew.
I Have No Clue,
Why You Ended This And Flew.
But Baby Believe Me, Again When I Will See You ,
I Will Say I Love You,
As I Always Do.
Sep 15, 2015
Sep 15, 2015 at 12:37 PM UTC