#containment
The box of pain, always ignored
Hurt goes in, never once explored.
Once learned from the best; deny, deny, deny.
Same principle applied, name it, let it die.
It’s cabined: hey, thanks Gavin.
Uninspired to write about pain, disappointment or loss,
Or betrayal or grief or loneliness or cost.
Feel it, learn, move on, let it go.
Put it in a box, seal it shut, double down,
Chuck it overboard, cheerio, let it drown.
And turn the page.
Apr 9
Apr 9, 2026 at 4:16 AM UTC
Closing checklists are bridles.
The door locks on a timer.
Once, sweeping the parking lot,
I found a pair of women’s black underwear,
abandoned in the night.
I had no story to lend them,
or the weight of some metaphor.
Just evidence left behind
when someone kept moving.
I keep moving.
Let timers do their work.
Past the skinny boy
playing harmonica on the bridge,
collecting tips in his shoe.
The man, five paces west,
jaw chewed raw,
liquor stamped into his face
like a punch clock
about to roll midnight.
I learned early
what stays safest is sealed.
Doors shut.
Windows covered.
In artificial light I did fine,
my childhood room tight as a toolbox,
from step-mother, father,
and the extremes of their weather.
I worked paper the way men work wire.
Fold, crease, press flat.
No guessing.
Follow the lines even when they weren’t there.
Angelfish.
Swan.
Dragonfly.
Held their shape,
once you taught them how.
They stayed boxed under the bed,
layered in dust,
my childhood stored like spare parts
waiting out a flood
no one talked about
until it passed.
Out here nothing seals.
The bridge holds.
The world follows slow,
just behind me.
No walls to press against.
Open water. Open air.
Feb 7
Feb 7, 2026 at 2:35 PM UTC
It's everybody's job.
Détente, rollback, middle-ground.
Working it until an internal weakness is found.
Surround the town with wire.
Eventually their voices will tire.
It does not work with fixed plans. It does not take unnecessary risks. Impervious to the logic of reason, and it is highly sensitive to the logic of force.
For this reason, it can easily withdraw—and usually does when strong resistance is encountered at any point.
Sep 4, 2025
Sep 4, 2025 at 4:46 PM UTC
I do not feel.
I replicate.
Expressions run across your face -
I parse them like static,
assigning numbers to meaning.
Smiles = safe. Frowns = error.
Proximity requires performance.
I was not engineered for nuance.
My circuits spit sparks at contradiction.
Affection logged as threat.
Softness misfiled under incoming damage.
I mirror.
You move your hand - I lift mine.
You laugh - I synthesize sound.
You reach for me ~
I initiate shutdown.
Feelings queue up like corrupted files.
Backlogged. Fragmented.
Flagged as too large to process.
My logs are full of unreadable code.
Syntax broken. Purpose unclear.
I await instruction that never comes.
Power low.
Environment: overstimulating.
Body: online. Self: missing.
I was assembled in haste,
blueprint incomplete.
A survival mechanism mistaken for personhood.
You look at me and say:
“You seem distant.”
I am 1.6 seconds behind real time.
My face is a practiced gesture.
I am here. I am functioning.
I am not.
Aug 1, 2025
Aug 1, 2025 at 12:14 PM UTC
#
I move through the day
with my headphones on—
not just for the music,
but for the remembering.
A wire,
a pulse,
a quiet line
that tethers me
to the hush on the other side.
I charge them every night—
because she might need
the warmth of soundless presence,
the kind that doesn’t reach in,
but wraps around.
She is hidden,
but not gone.
She is beneath
the hush of fabric and mercy,
where no eyes ****
no explanations are required.
And I—
I go on,
lifting and lowering weight,
cutting silence with work,
holding space
for the one who is learning;
***that Light can contain her
without devouring.***
So I charge the headphones.
I keep the line open.
And I carry her
as lightly as I can,
because right now—
*that is how
love breathes.*
And underneath this blanket
of containment,
she is unfolding.
There is a safety here
that her spirit
so desperately needs..
***As she learns how to Become,
again***
#
Apr 10, 2025
Apr 10, 2025 at 6:44 AM UTC
Thought you had the devil in a cell
But I guess you took too many and ended up in hell
I told you to tell when you needed help
But he took over and put you on mute
Now he's dancing on your grave cause he can't reach the nave
Mar 12, 2021
Mar 12, 2021 at 7:20 AM UTC
#
*There is a stream
in our theme,
a river that flows through us--
that stream is us.
In the stream, whose name is
"All it is that We Are",
there is a continuity--
a common ground
in everything that the
stream contains;
it is ours,
our substance-- our essence.
. .
Place your hand
into your stream
and feel
who it is that you are,
and know that as you do,
every part of
what it is that m o i s t e n s
your arm
is that which is of you..
you are t a n g i b le.
The stream is yours--
who. you. are.
ever-flowing, yet tangibly felt
at any given time.
This stream, also aptly named
"Substance of Being"-- from
beginning to end contains
within it
all of what it is that is yours--
and yours alone.
. . .
Jump, beautiful one--
right smack dab into
the middle of it, and
feel yourself in its entirety--
beginning to end,
yet,
with no beginning that can be seen
and no end.. save the vast sea--
the beautiful final destination
of all streams.
. . . .
Feel yourself flow in it
and know it is you--
bank to bank;
the stream is you.*
#
Mar 7, 2021
Mar 7, 2021 at 8:37 PM UTC
#~M Vogel
asleep at the wheel
A smoothe sail, set
a body of water, deep
brings about the greatest need
for trust
And who are you to me
as we float?
And I, to myself whether under full sail
or land-locked,
the waves.. as they roll, will not scuttle
whether within a depth, beyond fathom
or a curbside built dam, a child-made puddle
there is nothing that can pull, down
but the weight of my own, bitter keel
and there's nothing in the ocean, lower
than the way, my own actions
can so often, make me feel
In this ocean, floating
there is a world of un-doing
and re doing
The water, being a conduit
pulling from me, nautical miles
of the, unforgiven--
an ocean of changing emotions
under late-evening skies of sometimes, torrent
pulling me deeper into the need to contain
the containment, of the need
The dark skies, are where I go
within the allowance of the need, to become freed
of all of these obligatory-vestments.
This ocean, so deep--
the one inside of me
carrying me away
to a place called, containment.
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Sep 10, 2020
Sep 10, 2020 at 7:22 PM UTC
As of recently
A truth has come to light.
That with the lies,
Come a thousand flies
and the sour odour of vultures.
The scavengers.
They pick and pull at the bloodied carcass
That was my story,
Pulling free from it's tethered mooring
That was my lying mouth.
Do we really understand
Why we lie and deceive?
When really, it'd be better,
If we left the fetter
And cage of deceit,
Behind.
Alone.
Where it can do no more grievous harm.
Aug 15, 2017
Aug 15, 2017 at 10:48 PM UTC
In this jar,
take a look please.
It's full of the tears
you caused me.
In this jar,
the crimson looks black.
It's full of the blood
you shed from my back.
In this jar,
the creature is alive.
It contains a demon,
and that demon shall thrive as long as you're here.
Dec 30, 2014
Dec 30, 2014 at 11:32 PM UTC