#constantly
Think about your face all the time
Climbing the wall I'm stuck behind
Before you left felt so strong
Now just feel strung along
You spun webs of silken lies
I am the prey you caught that dies
One day say you love me
Next nothing at all
Since I've still been waiting for a single message or call
Something has changed the way that you feel
More likely
Feelings weren't real
Your words can con anybody with enough charm
What do you gain by causing me harm?
**** relationship with stupid mistakes
Suspect are choices you intentionally make
You are a person I don't even recognize
Where best friend stood is a stranger with blue eyes
Happiness stolen by time's vicious stare
****** up to the point beyond repair
Jan 28, 2021
Jan 28, 2021 at 11:18 PM UTC
Trying to be nice
Doing our utmost best
People are oft lying
Dec 16, 2020
Dec 16, 2020 at 12:43 AM UTC
What the **** do you see in me?
Why do you stick around?
I find it difficult to believe
That I'm the greatest thing you have found
Why do you love me?
Do you ever wonder?
Or are you oblivious
To the spell you're under?
I'm so far from perfect
You're so very near
How is it that both of us
Are not as black and white as we appear?
Am I your worst nightmare
Or still your dream come true?
Lately it's been cloudy and grey
Do you miss when skies were blue?
I'm constantly replaying memories
Of yesterday in my head
How do I stop living in the past
And make new ones in the present instead?
Will you help me find myself again?
Or have I been lost far too long?
Which direction is the right one?
What do I keep doing wrong?
Dec 19, 2019
Dec 19, 2019 at 2:47 PM UTC
_how often am i on your mind?_
_you just happen to be on mine all the time_
Nov 19, 2018
Nov 19, 2018 at 3:19 PM UTC
I am constantly
Running from myself
But I am running out of places to go
If I lose myself
I'll lose it all
Everything
Sep 3, 2018
Sep 3, 2018 at 12:00 PM UTC
How can you not see,
That I’m hurting constantly?
I have gone through life,
Worrying about others. But, what about myself?
How can you not try,
Try to help, comfort, support me?
I have to carry others, while I carry myself.
After a while, that carrying becomes too much.
And you have to decide,
Drop others or drop yourself.
And for me,
It’s always myself.
How can you not see,
That I’m constantly hurting?
From the pain of carrying,
Constantly caring,
For others.
Never myself.
Mar 21, 2017
Mar 21, 2017 at 11:02 AM UTC
*Unlike any other feeling
This is strong as fire
Yet I am left cold as can be,
I seek your arms in despair
And yet you know
That's not being "me,"
You throw me for a loop,
I am on the edge of my seat,
You spin me around freely,
And never there, it's hard to breath.
I am lost in your memory,
But "I shouldn't" have a reason why,
You're on my mind constantly,
But in my heart I feel I'll never fly.
Your kiss seems to be on my lips,
But yet you just push me away,
I got your number on my fingertips,
Yet you never ask me to come over anyway.*
Just let me know what I really am to you,
You just need to show me you're listening,
If you will be mine, or such a Fractured Valentine...
Feb 6, 2017
Feb 6, 2017 at 4:23 PM UTC
Constantly going without
Constantly going out
Constantly finding out
That I'm still stuck here
Still dying here
Still wanting here
Still finding out here
Still learning out here
Still angry here
I don't want to be still this there
Or anywhere
I want to be in the new over there
Anywhere
Legally changing my stage name to New
In case you thought I wasn't serious enough about it all.
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 1:58 AM UTC
i can't make you love me
and it pains me to admit
no matter how many times
i pleasure you
or touch you
it couldn't possibly help
i despise how obvious it is
that i am constantly savoring
your every kiss
memorizing your lips
and how they fit mine
just right
gazing into your eyes
until everything turns hazel
stroking your rough skin
and learning the landmarks
of your exterior surface
please just stay prisoner
in my bed
just wish i could look into
your mind
to know what you truly think
of me
and us
but how can i expect you
to love me
when i can't even
love myself
Nov 19, 2015
Nov 19, 2015 at 9:13 PM UTC
you dream them,
constantly,
and you can't get
any sleep,
you wake up
sweaty and
terrified of
what they might bring.
May 17, 2014
May 17, 2014 at 1:49 PM UTC