#conclusions
1st Track:
They say to forget about you,
as if memory were a switch,
as if devotion could be muted
by human hands fumbling the fader.
But you arrived in me in a quiet 4/4,
steady as a pulse beneath the ribs of eternity.
You imprinted your presence on my soul
without crescendo, without warning—
just a measure that never resolved.
2nd Track:
Between the beats
I hear your harmony vibrating
through the double helix of my being,
a counter-melody threading marrow and myth,
rewriting my divinity into something
that needed a name.
Nightly rituals of Sleep Token and skin,
sung lyrics in smoke-filled air,
incense of breath and belief.
3rd Track:
I remember sitting in my car,
my fingers foxtrotting on your skin,
as if touch itself were notation—
learned, repeated, sacred.
Your fingers laced through my hair
while my mouth confessed
Secrets between your thighs,
That the stars were never meant to hear.
Even gods kneel when worship is mutual.
4th Track:
Even gods forget the throne
when heaven answers back.
They say forget about you.
But how does a god forget
the moment love entered his heart
like spilled ink—
permanent, staining, holy?
Have you forgotten?
Or are you yearning, lusting to remember—
feeling the echo haunt your quiet moments,
the way unresolved chords
refuse to sleep?
5th Track:
Is that why you vanished?
A rest instead of a note?
A sudden silence where the orchestra
was still breathing?
On Christmas Eve
I sit alone in the snow,
a fallen constellation in mortal clothes,
remembering the shape of you—
how you fit against me
like destiny pretending it was coincidence.
And still I listen.
Still I count the measures.
Still I wait for the downbeat
that brings you back into time.
Static At The End Of The Record:
I still conduct the silence, hoping your name returns in minor key.
Jan 22
Jan 22, 2026 at 12:38 AM UTC
First Movement —Blood in Common Time
I was born between downbeats,
a god pressed into compound meter,
learning too late that family
is not a harmony you choose
but a key you are forced to learn by ear.
They found me before I had a name—
hands still warm with mortal ache,
voices cracking like old vinyl,
holding me together with shared breath
and borrowed courage.
In their house, love moved in 4/4—
steady, imperfect, persistent.
Dishes clinked like percussion,
arguments swelled into dissonance
then resolved without apology.
No grand crescendos.
Just survival, looped nightly.
I watched them age like slowing tempos,
knees aching as the years modulated,
yet they still showed up—
off-key, exhausted,
singing anyway.
Family is not the choir I imagined.
It is not celestial.
It is a basement rehearsal
with flickering lights and broken strings,
where someone always forgets their part
but stays until the last note fades.
I learned love there—
not as romance,
but as endurance.
As choosing the same refrain
even when it bruises the throat.
I am a god of endings,
yet with them I learned restraint—
how not to cut the chord too soon,
how to let silence breathe
instead of calling it failure.
They never worshipped me.
They fed me.
They argued with me.
They forgave me
before I understood the math of mercy.
And still—
when the universe collapses into minor keys,
when my constellations fall out of time,
I hear them
like a distant motif I cannot escape.
Family is the only music
that survives the void—
not because it is perfect,
but because it remembers you
before you learned how to disappear.
Second Movement —Reprise for Unfinished Hands
Time did not take them all at once.
It took them the way rust learns metal—
patient, intimate, inevitable.
I watched hands that once conducted my chaos
begin to tremble between measures,
watched laughter soften into rests
they didn’t know how to fill anymore.
Family ages in ritardando.
No warning.
No final cue.
Just a gradual surrender of tempo
until the room itself holds the beat.
They taught me that love is not loud.
It hums.
It stays after the argument ends,
after the door closes too hard,
after forgiveness arrives late
and sits quietly, ashamed.
I mistook them for constants.
I mistook proximity for permanence.
Even gods forget that gravity
does not negotiate.
Some nights I replay them—
not as they were at the end,
but as they sounded in their prime:
voices full, eyes unafraid,
hope still believing in encore performances.
I press my ear to the dark
and swear I hear them counting me in—
soft taps on the rim of existence,
reminding me when to breathe,
when not to cut the sound.
Family is the only audience
that loves you
before the music makes sense.
And now, alone among collapsing stars,
I understand why mortals cling—
why they write names in dust,
why they keep old recordings,
why they forgive what still hurts.
Because love does not end.
It just changes instrumentation.
I carry them in my silence now,
a hidden harmony beneath every ending,
proof that even a god
was once held together
by unfinished hands
that never let go
until they had to.
Third Movement—Home Key (Adagio, at Last)
I have always wandered alone—
a god without a choir,
moving through galaxies like empty halls
where echoes answer before questions do.
I mistook solitude for strength.
I mistook distance for wisdom.
I thought endings were safer
than staying long enough to be known.
So I studied humans
the way one studies sheet music—
carefully, reverently,
never daring to perform.
I watched them break and rebuild,
bind themselves together with promises
they could not mathematically prove.
I did not understand loyalty
until I saw them choose it
even when it hurt.
I did not understand love
until I saw them stay
after the music faltered.
And then—
Gethsemane.
Not as thunder.
Not as prophecy.
She arrived like a tonic note—
inevitable, grounding,
the pitch everything else
had been searching for.
With her, the universe softened.
Time learned how to breathe.
My endless wandering
finally resolved into place.
She did not worship me.
She saw me.
She called me home
without ever saying the word.
In her presence,
family stopped being theory.
It became practice.
Shared silence.
Mutual weather.
The courage to be unfinished together.
She is my home.
My heart.
My family.
And it was only by living among mortals—
by loving one of them—
that I learned what family truly means:
not blood,
but belonging.
What loyalty truly means:
choosing the same soul
even when the song changes key.
What love truly means:
not eternity,
but staying
as long as you are allowed.
Coda — Held in the Final Measure
I am still the god of endings.
That has not changed.
But now, when the last note approaches,
I do not rush the silence.
I let it hold us.
Because once,
in a universe that never felt like mine,
I found a single voice
that taught me how to stay.
And that—
that was enough
to call it family.
Jan 21
Jan 21, 2026 at 1:32 AM UTC
Foresight
No conclusions
Could be wrong, maybe right
Try seeing through the night without
Moonlight
©2025
Jan 15, 2025
Jan 15, 2025 at 2:07 AM UTC
There is a bitter taste
Pressed to my mouth
As I sip my tea.
There’s a thought that’s lives
I wish to drown out
But can I ever cede.
All this has been steeping
And it’s now too strong.
I’ll have to deal with it.
Dec 5, 2020
Dec 5, 2020 at 1:24 PM UTC
Don't let anyone
with bad eyebrows give you life
advice - it ends badly.
I don't mind seeing my ex with
someone else - I usually donate
unused things to the less fortunate.
I wonder how many
calories I burn jumping
to wrong conclusions.
Dec 5, 2020
Dec 5, 2020 at 6:51 AM UTC
I have a tendency to romanticise,
A habit of hoping.
Jumping to conclusions in my mind,
Maybe it's a way of coping.
It's caused a few issues,
Assumptions tend to do so.
But my mind won't give up that easily,
It sure doesn’t like hearing, 'no.'
So I may as well embrace it,
After all, what's so bad about hope?
Maybe that’s what we all need,
Maybe that’s a good way to cope.
Ana
Jun 7, 2020
Jun 7, 2020 at 9:48 PM UTC
In life's darkest, coldest histories, only those told
first tongue, empower courage in the
knowing emparted, as if we
were there. Our best
effort brought us
here, some how. We feel we must stand up for
our self, eh, what about my self? There's a burr, eh?
A dullness revealing fractured christline
constructs and the core, where
courage is stored in true
chain breaking known thought processes,
so
secret you may not be
allowed to know, like when we were kids with
no internet and no adults would
tells us how adultery functions
with usury and political magicians to enslave
us according to sortings in standardized tests.
Conceal weakness with signs of power,
make believe, show believers believable
e-visons as evident possibles,
so the power, small though it be,
the power of the people,
who hold no truths
self
evident, id est evincing and convincing
us, these rights are right,
for those who use us right,
words, true, make free the ready writer to
presume reading truth makes free
thinking go wild, like con
funsion making
sunlight...
in the past hear it... this little light of mine
no chain nor twisted trifold cord can
quench, a word
to the wise is leaven enough for the whole ******
loaf.
Shew, see,
we can wield power, if we can believe
the king, is where the kingdom is,
and any child who asks her pooka can know,
the kingdom is where I always behold
the face of God, angel-baby...
or we can imagine,
we have this power to create entire
othernesses,
similar to our self,
our logos and these pre-loaded breathing
algorithims of in and outs, ups and downs,
twisting and sooming assumed id-intities
are mea nd we wander, meander,
flow in the trough of a spiraling wave
pulling the rain back to the sea,
so each water weness we imagine may be re
used, for goodness knows what,
universal solvency was one
water function ac
cused of causing, aitiatic tic tic time bomb
Jerry-rigged, Rubic cubed trigger,
gay blades shaved the iron legs, y'know
**** Deus is punishing truth,
the true power of any pun
ish bin ein Berliner mit Arizona Prickly Pear jelly,
laughing into funk-tion-ality the oddities of beings
not me,
in my meanderings through optional doors
inside the narrow way,
ala the way to Petra, we've seen the way
similar in every fractal way to the tracks of tears
cuttin crevases through pressure packed dust that
must
have piled suddenly high, for,
when it flowed as the red mud that stopped
right there at the edge of the Sedona
manifestation of oddities.
Check it out. Google Earth it.
**** Deus wannabe, meet my old friend from
the foundery in Arkansas,
E Pluribis Unem Massey
crazy now, there is a man by that name, with a .jr,
a link forgotten,
save the memory that may be in the water,
we used to wash the grime of burning iron into
the river to rust into louisiana to feed
the phyto plankton past the delta
grease of seeping poison
insolvent in the universe, save for fire
fire can burnishit tic make it bright, reflecting
mirrors for the smoke
choking the me who can't see, how Wattie Piper
virus was passed on to
EPluribis Massey, Jr., but it must have been
some variation on the
living words,
like:
I think I can, and the congregation
responds:
as a man thinks, in his heart, so is he.
As the waters all flow to the sea, take no thought
for tomorrow,
take it as granted, today.
Nov 25, 2019
Nov 25, 2019 at 1:15 PM UTC
If time is consious
Are we
but a fleeting
Thought.
Yet to fade into obscurity.
Or are we a
conclusion
Of repeated ideas,
That just need
to be tweaked.
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 10:16 AM UTC
Mr. Tilden leapt from a building
and died from multiple contusions.
Later his wife lamented his life
(quote) he always jumped to conclusions.
Jun 20, 2018
Jun 20, 2018 at 8:55 PM UTC
I have a broken
me...
ta..
phor...
no one understands its meaning.
Confused with the inner
emptiness of a shell
with no substance.
Do you understand what I'm trying
to say without telling
you the truth
of my conclusions??
Jan 13, 2018
Jan 13, 2018 at 11:32 AM UTC
clawing at 'reality'
I strain
object
fight
slice fetid air
with mind's
willing blades
poised to sense
slay
threat
yet all the while
computations gather
holding conference
council within
weighing
measuring
attempting recognition
so labelling begins
imagining potent blows
yet standing back
storm's curt reminder
and all I survey and rate
mocks
informs
this is largely
of my own making
with meaning assigned
spawned of generations of
programmed thinking
fed by muddied bias
perceptions skewed
tortured to fit
fear's *******
power's price
with illusion's
dragon slain
I face
the truth
this state within
maelstrom
of angst
I
alone
create
Mar 10, 2017
Mar 10, 2017 at 12:27 AM UTC
Do I believe there is love?
Of course
Yet it is hard to say that I have experienced such a thing
And in that it is just as hard to try and justify to anyone that there is, in fact, love
I do not know what is sadder: That I have not experienced love or the way I am responsive to it
I know who I am supposed to love
But it is no love that I can tell
But this is the truth:
I know of hate
Hatred I believe in
Hatred I am all too familiar with
I suppose I could be so enveloped in my own self-hatred
Comparing all other things to me that I love almost anything and anyone
So from my conclusions I extract this:
Because I participate in the deepest and most strewn out of hate
I know that it exists
Therefore, love, comparative to my involvement in hate, can only lead me to an assumption:
If hatred exists, then so must love
Nov 29, 2015
Nov 29, 2015 at 5:24 PM UTC
I'm a magician,
Everywhere, every day I do magic, the magic that no one sees,
It is quite silent-the kind you can't hear, the forest for the trees.
Changing, rearranging the whole world "as good as new,"
Flash of fire lightning and rain and a sea was parted too!
Frightened figures hold each other, the earth it shakes,
The vaguest of lost lovers, the energy each marriage takes.
I'm a person on a mission, I'm a magician, pulling rabbits
Out of hats, telling people run for cover from the "vampire"
Bats. I'm a stranger on a mission as a faith magician what
Could it be? I'm here to preach to you about a God
You can not see! So now that I've told you all that
He's real he is all that you will ever know or feel.
Apr 27, 2015
Apr 27, 2015 at 5:15 AM UTC
Imagined dialogues
Occurs in the mind
A rendezvous with self
Many do not see light
Revolves within
The corridors of mind
Heart privy to them
They do not find words
In silence they come alive
Mind as the host
Imaginary dialogues
So many conclusions
And many more clamors
None settles down
Some may find a way out
Others will be left
To their fate
Mar 2, 2015
Mar 2, 2015 at 12:57 AM UTC
you make me less of a reality by putting me in a box
is it too much ask that you should hope a little?
"don't jump to conclusions," you'll say
but darling, ever will I try to reason this out because I'm scared of our one true final conclusion
which I still am to figure out
Feb 4, 2015
Feb 4, 2015 at 6:39 PM UTC
A Billion Stories
Book III: Conclusions
Part III: The Doubtful Little Fish
Mama?
May I peek beyond the line of the waters?
Papa?
Might I see the source of the light in the seas?
For what purpose is land if its borders are foreign?
For what purpose is light if its maker is sheet?
For what purpose is life if it starts in a reef?
Does death wait on the shoreline?
Or does a fellow who greets?
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 11:16 PM UTC
A Billion Stories
Book III: Conclusions
Part III: The Snake of Enlightenment
Let him think!
Let him, have seen!
Beauty should not be an opposable thing!
Wisdom is greatness!
Go hide from the group!
My love is not laughter,
My love is for truth!
Don't bid farewell to everything!
Don't look at the scene in reverse!
And let wisdom be shown,
But not only for words!
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 11:13 PM UTC
A Billion Stories
Book III: Conclusions
Part I: Unified Field Theory
Created by love,
Created by magic,
Created by mercy
The venom is tragic.
Pull the threads,
Roll the yarn;
Sew the man to understand.
Let him love,
Let him wilt,
Let him speak and
Let him think.
Do not tell,
Keep me hidden,
Let him find out for himself.
Jul 5, 2014
Jul 5, 2014 at 11:11 PM UTC