#conangray
"I wanna feel all that love and emotion
Be that attached to the person I'm holding
Someday I'll be falling
Without caution
But for now, I'm only
People Watching"
Apr 2
Apr 2, 2026 at 10:12 AM UTC
people have told me I need therapy
and when they do I just think
I do
I've had 63 days of therapy in total this year ^^
Dec 4, 2025
Dec 4, 2025 at 1:11 PM UTC
"happy heather day!" I say and smile
but deep inside I wanted my own sweater to be hers
I wanted to be that "heather" so bad
even if that heather wasn't her true love
the feeling that someone else was laying on her
for temporary comfort made me sick
its not like I could stop her
I know she loves me
at least I hope
but sometimes I wished that temporary "heather"
that you pretended was me
wouldnt take you away from me
Dec 3, 2025
Dec 3, 2025 at 12:53 PM UTC
I want her hair
wanna steal what she wears
wanna smell like her perfume
do everything like her
cause isn't she perfect
the lipstick on her lips
I wish I could kiss her
to know why you love her
Nov 18, 2025
Nov 18, 2025 at 10:25 PM UTC
The third of December is tomorrow,
And all I can think about is you, her, and where my sweater could’ve possibly vanished to.
I think of you because I liked what we had going on,
I liked the jokes, our conversations, the glances, and the implications.
I liked your beautiful brown orbs that belonged behind frames you refused to showcase them in, and the curls that hid them like curtains.
I think of her because that should be me.
What was between us should’ve landed me in her place,
And I think of my sweater.
My heather sweater that I’ve worn every third of December since 2020, because it’s cold out, and it’s sweater weather.
Heather has your sweater when I should be its “owner,”
Heather holds your heart when it should be in my hands,
And Heather is the mesmerizing sight that soothes your sore eyes,
While I stand to the side, and watch her pull the smile from you that I like to see.
Why would you ever implicate the thought of you and me?
Lead me to believe that you would pick me when Heather was the choice from the very beginning?
Now she has you, and the sweater that would always and forever be given to Heather,
It may be polyester, but **** I wish I was Heather.
Dec 3, 2024
Dec 3, 2024 at 4:21 AM UTC
was she just a friend when you kissed her chapped lips?
was she just a friend before we called it quits?
did friends ever equate to the same definition of mine?
you could’ve told me so i didn’t have to waste my time.
Jul 22, 2022
Jul 22, 2022 at 12:26 AM UTC
i'm slowly learning
to live for myself
and not live for
the expectations of others
and who they expect me to be
i'm slowly learning
that i can be who i am
around the people who want me to be
the crazy
depressed
taylor swift and twenty one pilots and conan gray stan
book nerd
person that i am
and for the first time in a while
i'm happy with myself
Apr 14, 2021
Apr 14, 2021 at 10:40 PM UTC