#complexptsd
Even when my skull vibrates from the screaming in my head.
I will wrap my sturdy arms around me, fear and all, fear especially.
I will whisper, quiet but sure "I will not hurt myself the way they did."
I.
Will.
NOT.
Hurt.
Myself!
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 7:54 PM UTC
i'm stuck in this bomb of a body;
heels pressed into the knowledge
that things will always go wrong.
finger cocked on the hair-trigger that is my mind;
whether the blast will go inwards or out no one knows.
either way, the result will hurt everyone close
to this disaster that is me and myself;
the only thing i can be trusted to do
is sabotage my health -
i fail on purpose at everything else,
Jul 12, 2020
Jul 12, 2020 at 4:05 AM UTC