#clique
I always hated them--
how they left me behind the curtains,
worthless, unseen, forgotten
So when you told me
I was part of one,
shame flooded the courners of my soul
And yet, so did joy;
spreading like a warm fire.
Finally, a place where I belonged.
Sep 12, 2025
Sep 12, 2025 at 9:09 PM UTC
I claw and drool for social acknowledgement.
I’m so blind by the drive, I’m not disgusted by the animal I am and others I admire.
Degrading and defacing myself in the process.
Leave a compliment, for attention and false exchange of treatment.
I hold my phone incapable of moan.
This thing.
It doesn’t care about me.
Neither do the people on it.
My family does.
But I must find acceptance from my peers.
I have to steal their eyes and ears.
They do it, so I must too.
Throw away all my integrity, of which there is few.
Dec 24, 2019
Dec 24, 2019 at 1:51 PM UTC
I am tired of the sad poems
The words that have been said before
Boys off to war
I’m sighing out love poems
Like I’ve never heard the works of wonders
Of the unsaid I love you
I am laying down for every no one ever realized they loved me
Till it was a too late poem
I’m fainting at the sight of anger
Red hot and blue
Like an abusive bruise
That, someone, took the time to choose
To become the bearer and the wearer of bad news
I’m yawning between the pages and
Phrases of stringing words
To create ideas and nations
Of thoughts so carefully thought up
Just to throw up and spit out
May 21, 2019
May 21, 2019 at 2:18 AM UTC
Fret not the words that pass
unremembered, unrestrained
tossed as unrehearsed repast
emotions, just the same
Throw them out too return again
and learn another way
not an if, or but, or when
to hard too explain
You'll feel and know
deep in spirit, and in heart
it doesn't matter how it goes
as love and passions
start
So yes, words said only once
like a paradigm found everywhere
sentiments that say the most
as love and lust, still there
Dec 9, 2018
Dec 9, 2018 at 11:59 AM UTC
"And they lived Happily Ever After."
how clique
is what we think whenever we hear or see a happy ending in a book, movie or even in real life
yet when they don't get their happy ending why do we cry and wish it could be the other way?
how iconic huh?
Apr 16, 2017
Apr 16, 2017 at 3:34 AM UTC
I come here to be happy,
To find my place
And teach myself how to be
A true writer.
To me it seems
I try.
I try to speak,
Show myself,
Do what I am supposed to do here.
I am told to be myself,
There is no blending in.
And yet, it seems I have to.
No one cares. I cry
And they stare and walk past.
I had more support and reassurance
In the place where I was bullied and tormented
Daily.
And here,
Daily,
I am alone.
Cliques formed and I was, once again,
And outcast.
Oct 10, 2014
Oct 10, 2014 at 11:51 AM UTC
Choose ... WISELY ... in
The Company ... you keep ... !!!
cos' ... some ... will leave you
... " Facing Heat ! " ...
and may ... Even ...
put you to ... sleep ... !!!
"Trust me" ... believe ...
Everyone ... you meet ...
may not be ... "Sweet" ...
and may treat you ...
like ... " Butchers Meat !!! "
"Strip You" ... BARE ... !!! ...
Right to ... The Bone ... !!!!!
NAKED ... Yes ...
Without ... Your clothes ... !!!
******* shows ...
how ... that one goes ...
to buy that drug ...
Some ... Become ...
what we call ... " Thugs " ... !!!
People now ...
are ... Proper ... Cold ... !!!
Some will now ...
come in ... Your Home ...
and be so ... BOLD ...
to ... Steal ... from you ...
and do ... the things ...
They ... Should NOT do ... !!!
Here's a ... Story ...
that ... " Sadly " ... YES ...
is NOT ... " Untrue " ...
A guy I know ...
" Needed " .... workmen ...
in ... " HIS HOME " ... !!!
A ... Muslim chap ...
who ... YES ... is ... black ...
Chose ... some guys ...
who ... he had known ...
since they were ... lads ... !!!
He told them straight ... !!!!!
"Please don't smoke
inside the house
or stuff like that !!!"
They said ... "Okay" ...
but when my man ...
then left the place ...
Here's how things ...
then ... went astray ... !!!!!
When he ... came back ...
They ... Weren't Working ... !!!
or ... Robbing ... him ... ?!?
These fools were ...
..... " Actually " .....
.... " SMOKING CRACK " .... !!!!!!!!!!!
"Company" ... you keep ...
may be ... That Weak ... !!?!!
and may just ... Lie ... !?!
Rob You ... or ... CHEAT ... !!!!!
I've seen ... Some Cliques ...
who walk ... The Streets ...
Filled with ... "sneaks" ...
and ... Gangs of Thieves ...
Things ... They Do ...
Now ... Prove to me ...
That ... Company You Keep ...
can make your ... future ... ? ...
Somewhat ..... " Bleak " ......
My Destiny ...
Involves ... " NO SHEEP " ...
and has ... " NO NEED " ...
for ... " Fourty Thieves " ...
"Presidents" ...
or ... "Ministers" ...
Company ... they keep ...
are ... "Sinister" ... !!!!!!!!
They move with crews ...
with ... "Guns" ... in view ...
Now ... does that move ...
seem ... " Shrewd " ... to you ... ?
"Join the pigs then, Be a fool,
like gangsters, they pull,
Shady Moves !!!"
which simply ... Proves ...
Groups like ... These ...
Have Got ... " Issues " ...
and may not be ... ?!?
So Good ... for you ... !!!
I've said before ...
Walking ... " Alone " ...
is ... TOUGH ... for sure ...
So ... PICK ... Wisely ...
I do .... " Implore " .... !!!!!
Company ... you keep ...
may watch you ... BLEED ...
and that's something ...
Most Folks ... "Don't Need" ... !!!!!!
Friend are ... Those ...
who'll ... Stand By You ...
when ... "Bad Times" ... roll ... !!!
When ... I've had mine ...
I've heard ... Some Lines ...
that ... WEREN'T ... Refined ... !!!!!
and ... Proved ... there is ...
A .... REAL ... Fine Line ... !!!
Between ... " True Friends "... !!!
and those ... whose words ...
may ... CHOKE ... friendships ... !!!!!!
through words ... they quote ...
"Friends" ... like ... "These" ...
You ... DO NOT ... NEED ...
.... " BLOODSUCKERS " ....
who ... choose to ... Feed ...
off ... " Stronger Breeds " ... !!!!!
Their ... " Company " ...
Lacks .... " Energies " ....
Giving ... " Positivity " ...
..... " Ignorance ' .....
is what ... They ... PLEAD ... !!!
Well .... THAT ....
Just like ... " Their Company " ...
are things ... I've Learnt ...
to now .... " Dismiss !!! " ....
Have you ... Got ... ?
The Point ... of this ... ?!?
Friendships ... " Come " ...
............. and ...............
Friendships ...... " Go " .......
But ... " True Friendships " ...
come from ... Those ...
who'll be there ... when ...
The ... " Good Times " ... roll ...
But .... Also ... when ...
You're on ...
" Your Own " ... !!!!!
That's why ... Now ...
I walk ... ALONE ... !!!
NO ... Bad Vibes ...
and ... NO ...
"Tough Guys" ... !!!
Unless they're ... Ones ...
who'll ... Stand and Fight ...
" Day or Night " ...
Right By ... " My Side " ... !!!!!!
Just like .... I ....
would do ... for them ... !!!
My ... " True Friends " ...
are ... " Fearless Men " ... !!!!!
who don't ... " Pretend " ... !!!!!
We ... " Study " ... Yes ...
and ... " Comprehend " ...
and ... aren't ...
"Afraid" ... To Face ...
... " Problems " ... !!!!!
You ... May ... see us ...
on ... " News at Ten " ...
because we've ... dealt ...
with those ... Who ... ?
........ " SMELL " ... !!!!!!
and made ...
**** Sure ...
We ... CRAC/ked ...
... " Their Shell " ... !!!!!
Crews like ... THAT ...
Should ........
" Quell Themselves " ... !!!!!
Before they ... weep ...
or ... worse still ... BLEED ... !!!!!
So .....
" Heed My Words " ....
Read ... Carefully ... !!!!!!
Choose Wisely ... in ...
" The Company ...
.... You Keep !!! " ...
Sep 7, 2014
Sep 7, 2014 at 5:30 PM UTC
The likes of you I can't describe,
Yet I love to eat between your thighs.
The melody you spake to me
Unfolds my greatest sovereignty.
I crave to quaff all of your spit,
And swallow every drop of it.
Don't cheat me of your tasty flesh,
Those bare and supple ****** *******
Your eyes that follow my firm gaze,
While we kiss and lick and misbehave.
I need to feel each piece of skin,
Smashing girl and boy parts over and over again.
It's such a treat to eat you whole;
I'm obsessed with eating 19-year-olds.
May 8, 2014
May 8, 2014 at 9:32 PM UTC
Flash a smile
Or fake a laugh
And move on forward
Because it will all be in the past;
Someday.
Someway.
Somehow.
Before it's too late
And your emotions get the best of you
And your head stops spinning
From all of the thoughts that they fill it with
And the pain you can't hide
Anymore.
Without the evidence on your sleeves
How is anyone supposed to believe
That you're a mess on the inside of your head
And out?
Apr 10, 2014
Apr 10, 2014 at 1:43 PM UTC
So I sit alone.
So no one talks to me.
"How does that make you feel?"
What?
How do I feel?
I'm tired, exhausted...
I'm done.
I feel like jumping off the bridge that
Washed away over 6 months ago.
I feel like disappearing
Forever.
Is that good enough for you?
Is that a satisfactory answer?
I don't have friends.
"A lot of people say that"
Oh really?
A lot of people are isolated
For most of the day
Because their only true friend
Is two hours away?
I have clinical depression.
I take pills for it.
There. I said it.
Are you happy now?
Happy to know what's wrong with the
Girl who sits alone and doesn't talk to
Anyone...?
I have clinical depression.
And there's nothing I can do about it
But wait and try and
Hope
For someone to say
"It's okay. I'm here..."
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 1:06 PM UTC
Hashtag done.
Hashtag I give up.
Hashtag tired.
Hashtag alone.
All we ever talk about anymore is hashtags and Instagram and texts and snapchat.
I'm done.
I miss the face to face contact.
The way someone's eyes light up or dim down in reaction to something.
I miss the way your hand feels when you place it on mine.
I miss your hugs.
And I miss your voice.
And I'm able to talk about anything with you over a text message, but I'm afraid that you don't want to talk to me, person to person.
I like to think that we have a great friendship, but I realize that we don't.
You FaceTime and call other people, but you won't do that for me.
I try to initiate more conversation than we have, but I feel like you hold back.
I pour some of my heart out into a message that I sent and your only response is an emoji.
I'm hurt.
As childish as it sounds, I'm hurt.
I'm broken and I feel like you keep taking pieces of me away.
I'm broken and I wish you would actually talk and listen to me instead of typing it out.
I miss you because there's no one else and I'm sorry that there isn't.
I don't mean to burden you with everything that's wrong, but when you say that you're there for me, I expect you to follow through.
I miss you a lot.
And I need you to know that.
Because you mean so much to me.
And I know I don't mean as much to you...
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 1:56 PM UTC
I'm sick,
But no one seems to notice.
I'm sick,
But no one seems to care.
I'm sick,
But no one understands.
I've flirted with darkness
For far too long
And now it's enveloping me
Soul first.
I'm sick,
And I think you know...
But why doesn't anyone care?
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 1:58 PM UTC
Lost:
It's an adjective
It's a past-tense verb
It's a TV show
It's a state of mind.
It's how I describe myself;
I've lost friends
I've lost feeling
I've lost hope
I've lost heart
I've lost faith.
It's hard to admit being lost,
But it's the first step in being
Found.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 1:59 PM UTC
Life makes me want to run away
And never turn back
And leave everything behind;
The pain, the hurt, the negativity.
Life forces me to grin and bare it
while I suffer through it all
And inside I'm falling to pieces.
Life makes me want to take your hand in mine
And ride off into the sunset
Without worry or doubt in our minds.
Life is hard and we all know it,
But it's worse when you're sick
Like me.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:02 PM UTC
I don't want to annoy you with my troubles
But you're the only one I want to talk to
When there's no one there to hold my hand
Or hold me tight
And tell me "everything is going to be okay".
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:03 PM UTC
And my mind runs in circles
When there's nowhere else to go
Because the voices in my head
Are the only ones who know.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:03 PM UTC
I shouldn't have to apologize
For simply being me
Yet the words
"I'm sorry"
Seem to spill from my mouth
As easily as a friendly
"Hello".
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:04 PM UTC
You can hate me because I'm beautiful,
You can hate me because I'm smart,
And you can hate me because I'm me
But don't hate me because you aren't.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:04 PM UTC
I'd like to think that
You and I
Could build an empire
From the ground, up.
From the ground that
caught my tears
And held me up
When I felt like falling.
And from the ground
That held your weight
When you stood by and
watched
As I slowly fell apart.
I'd like to think that
We could build an empire
Just you and I,
That sits up high
So we could watch the sea
As it leaves in the morning
And comes back far too late.
I'd like to think that
We could build an empire
Just you and I
But I know it will only be just
me.
Because it's always just me.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:05 PM UTC
It's so hard to go through life
Separated from your friends.
Without a friend to tell everything to,
Be it everything that was great,
Or everything that wasn't,
You feel empty.
Alone.
Depressed.
Conversing via text,
Facebook,
Or snapchat
Just isn't the same.
You want someone to hug you
Or run up and surprise you
Just for the heck of it,
Or just to make you smile.
You want to feel the connection
When you look into someone's eyes
And can see their story.
And you want someone to listen
As you try to unravel your own.
Especially if you're broken
And torn to shreds
From all the use
Your so called friends at school
Put you through.
You want to know that someone's
There
At 3 am
When the tears and hurt won't stop.
But how do you know
If the person you text everyday
Will be there for you
When you think about ending it all:
The pain
The sleeplessness
The everything?
How do you know
They're there
When you never hear their voice
Or see what's behind their eyes?
How do you know
They're not fed up
With all of your life's problems?
How do you know...?
I don't.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:05 PM UTC
These patches of fog that hang overhead
Amongst the highest mountain peaks
Are the same ones that cloud my mind
And cling to every corner
Masking my emotions.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:06 PM UTC
You make promises
That break as easily as my
Heart.
And the thunder in my head
Flashes thoughts of you
Until it's too late for me
To stop drowning
In my tears.
Apr 14, 2014
Apr 14, 2014 at 2:07 PM UTC