#claire
dear claire,
are you okay? i know you're not. i know you're lying. why won't you let anyone help you? why do i keep asking questions i can answer? god, i want the old you back, as terrible as i am. surely you want the old me too. you don't want to have to fix me.
how come you didn't abandon me? when vivi decided we weren't friends, why did you still talk to me?
ren.
ps. pass.
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 11:03 AM UTC
I've lusted after countless women after my ex.
Often gave myself a magical thinking high.
Oh how I can be whisked away by the perfect girl.
Truth is perfect people don't exist.
Some people can leave you more scarred than you originally thought.
While others aren't even capable of what you're in need of.
We have to be careful not project our needs onto others.
Chances are they can't fulfill those needs.
You're in control of what you need.
Getting what you want takes patience.
It's about finding someone that gives you a mutual reciprocation.
Anything else is just called magical thinking.
A mirage.
Choose to live in reality,
chances are it's much better than you're fantasy.
Oct 31, 2022
Oct 31, 2022 at 4:20 AM UTC
I felt inspired to write this since there are many songs and poems written about heartbreak.
Many people who have been through what I've been through.
The soul crushing heartbreak.
Leaving your heart shattered into a million pieces.
With the hope that one day reunite seems like a distant dream.
One that you go in and out of subconsciously.
It's been years but the scabs are still existent.
Lately I can't help but pick at them.
Leaving me with ****** and deeper scars.
You don't just move on from someone you loved for years.
Neither do you replace them with a rebound.
It isn't that simple.
Although I believe you can move forward with your life.
Few of us have a happily ever after.
I hope my story changes for the better.
Oct 31, 2022
Oct 31, 2022 at 3:59 AM UTC
They told me to get over someone you must get under someone else.
They said time heals all wounds.
I'm here to tell you I tried, and it didn't work but it served its purpose.
The anger that I hold inside,
the grief of knowing love like hers.
She was my lighthouse, without her,
I felt lost.
Aimlessly wandering.
I thought she was mine forever.
Now my outlook on forever is nothing but jaded.
What do I miss about her most you ask?
I'd say her nurturing side,
how she always had time to listen to my manic thoughts.
She held me and hooked me with her tenderness.
Her love was like the sun,
the longer it stayed out the longer you get burned.
And in the end, I did end up burning.
I burned so much that I became a phoenix,
rising from the ashes.
3 years passing.
Jun 22, 2022
Jun 22, 2022 at 5:07 PM UTC
A hop, jump, and skip away
Was the happiness I found today.
I can truly say in every way
That I've found my way back home.
I said what all I had to say,
We listened to our music play,
And as we laid down spoken lays,
You healed my heart of sorrow's song.
Thank you, dear, oh blessed be
The eyes that see what I can see,
For whenever I look to thee,
I know that I found my home.
Sep 24, 2019
Sep 24, 2019 at 6:57 PM UTC
Did I assume, when writing last night
Amidst pain of fire and sweat
That Love would flee, would have strucken me,
As if they blood in my body's bereft?
I am never going to find another
No, never, not anyone so great
Your love for me may have faltered
But my love for you will stand 'gainst fate.
You'll always be the one who struck my
Heart and soul afire with flames
Of love and sweetened, kindly devotion
Even if one of our loves' to wain.
Never forget me, never forsake me
Please keep me in your mind
For maybe love will ferment again
When I am given the trials of time.
Oh God, my Lord, what have You done?
What can I do to remedy?
You made me fall so madly in love,
My life, You have taken from me?
Follow me, stick to me, never leave
Your heart may not be mine
But mine will forever be owed to you
And will stand the test of time.
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 5:39 PM UTC
Can I truly speak my mind and not
Lose my train of thought?
Am I the one who's above all else?
If so, its only because of you.
Remember when I say that, verily,
Everything I love is in you!
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 5:25 AM UTC
You make all of my senses fail
In comprehending your beauty.
Soul and body, both pristine,
My life is changed by your love.
Sep 16, 2019
Sep 16, 2019 at 5:23 AM UTC
Every day I walk through life
Unknowing of where to go
I only have a vague idea
Of what I'm 'sposed to know.
I'm unsure of my calling
I'm unsure of my life
I'm not too keen on these machines
That cause me all my strife.
I live a life of lying
Of looking into eyes
And telling people I'm okay
That I've still got all my tries!
But one thing is for certain
This one's not left behind
The one thing I am certain of
Is Love's right-wondrous rhyme.
What's shone since the beginning?
Since light first graced the sky?
'Twas Hatred's broodish, helly face?
No! Love's the one, says I!
So one thing is for certain
This one's left to remind
Of why I keep on chugging
And a-rollin' down the line.
That's Love is my whole reason
For dancing this foreboding dance
And if I am not careful
I could lose my last chance.
So learn to romp and tango!
Bully, my boy, dance right!
For if we Love, what have we lost?
Not nary a beautiful night!
Sep 3, 2019
Sep 3, 2019 at 4:55 AM UTC
I'm not known for weaving dreams
I'm only a scream from a nightmare
I would settle for a peaceful moment
To dream of watching your beauty glare
If crossing seas will bring us closer
If climbing mountains will make us pair
Then mark my word that I'm coming
To win all battles and claim you there
Aug 5, 2019
Aug 5, 2019 at 7:05 PM UTC
Stars explode during daytime,
firecrackers produce my ashes
burnt to death ,
I see an oasis far away
soaking up in the desert
with the faux Pyramids behind,
sand flies into my humble vortex
revealing my secrets hid behind the curtain
it’s too passé !
my shoes run off with the tide
rubbing against the scales of a Tuna
my feeble conscience is hidden behind those doors
playing hide and seek for long,
I drink every thirst of water
capturing the swarm in my jar
margarita flows in the canals of Venice
creating drunkards by the mast,
my boat where Venus reigns
sinks in the depths of my soul
lifeless limbs swim my wretched body away
I embrace the black moon .
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 2:36 PM UTC
One day, some day, soon.
She always told me,
one day, some day, soon.
We wrote scripts together.
We cried together.
We acted together.
She was my world,
and I was hers.
We never kissed.
We never wanted to.
This is no love story.
This is the story of a lost friendship.
Et tu, Clara?
Apr 11, 2015
Apr 11, 2015 at 8:19 PM UTC
she stood outside the apartment
finger halfway up her nose
scratching with her free hand
a **** loosely encased
in patchy, ***** blue jeans
ratty sneakers with holes where
her toes and dignity poked through
usually a whiner, a brayer
a donkey among gently purring cats
calling down thunder and racket
like a motorcycle tearing circles through a lamp shop
today, of all days, she swayed
silently
in loose waltz time
to soft piano of a long-dead Frenchman
curling down from speakers
mounted in windows
across the street
her misshapen hips and flexing calf muscles
lifting her up in a rude en pointe
somehow made elegant
by a quiet ballad, a soothing moment
on a hot August morning
in Main Street
of the hinterlands.
2/12/2015
Feb 12, 2015
Feb 12, 2015 at 8:48 AM UTC
The Rheostatics, they bring all their equipment on the bus.
And you can't **** with the Rheostatics
You cannot **** with this band
Sep 21, 2014
Sep 21, 2014 at 6:17 PM UTC
Smell of earth
Rugged brown
Taste the rain as it falls down
Rise and fall
Blue and green
Trace the clouds that paint the scene
Lift your eyes
Make no sound
Feel the stillness all around
Bow your head
Kiss the ground
This is where your heart is found
Aug 25, 2014
Aug 25, 2014 at 10:05 PM UTC
In the middle of the day
You cross my mind
And your footprints are lasting
If I were known to feel
I might not hide it
I might embrace it
But what's in a reputation
If not repute and repetition
To break habit is difficult;
I've considered it,
Still I cannot
But can I speak in dreams?
Can I speak with soul?
And maybe when it's three in the morning
And we're both heavily weary
Can I call you
And tell you I love you
Or would the hour not excuse
The boldness of my honesty
To be vulnerable is difficult;
I've considered it,
Still I cannot
Jul 13, 2014
Jul 13, 2014 at 2:37 AM UTC
To start fresh
A chance to be different
A chance to love
But what do I want?
To travel far
And feed the spirit
Quench the wanderlust
But what do I want?
To love another
An honest tenderness
A heart that makes mine beat again
But what do I want?
To write the stories
Learn the legends
To know the stars above
And that is all I need
Jul 13, 2014
Jul 13, 2014 at 2:19 AM UTC
I. the end of life;
that which was always fated
shocks us, even still
II. the passing of time;
we can never comprehend
our frail existence
III. the creative soul;
we must, with earnest ink,
make every word count
IV. the end of an era;
it is but a beginning
of something much more
Jun 12, 2014
Jun 12, 2014 at 1:18 PM UTC
All of a sudden;
I don't know how we got here,
But we cannot stay
Jul 13, 2014
Jul 13, 2014 at 2:03 AM UTC
Claire
Your voice like bells
resonates through my mind
as memories of your brilliant smile
clouds my thoughts
and the glimmer in your eyes
resides in my fondest memories
for you see
you were there
maybe not physically
but more than anyone ever has
the simple paragraphs you'd write
causing an unbeknown smile to cross my cheeks
as warmth flooded through me
you are the epitome of beautiful
on the inside and out
Remember when we first met?
7 months ago
you were posted on
Just a Band *****
and with a few simple comments
you stole my heart.
after a few days of
threatening to kidnap bands
cuddles
and Dexter
I awoke to a wondrous surprise
you
asking me to be yours
i was hesitant at first
i didn't wanna hurt you
You meant to much to me.
but i agreed.
knowing what would happen would be something
only J.K. Rowling could explain
magic.
But alas we fell a part
Only to be brought back together
and to exchange three precious words
I love you.
now you see,
I'm not the type to exchange words of those caliber
for I know the weight of those words
as do you
So i knew when you said
I love you too
you meant it
and i hoped you knew i meant it to
we've gone on like this for nearly a year now
though we may break up
and see others
we're always drawn together
and I cant explain it
and i don't think anyone else can either
When i see you smile i melt
your eyes make me feel like I'm having a heart attack
but a good one
because I'm not gonna die while you're still beside me
you mean the world to me
and at risk of sounding creepy
I think your the one
and I need you
and
I love you.
Jun 6, 2014
Jun 6, 2014 at 3:14 PM UTC