#churches
I would give up some happiness
for a
little depth & to gain some
mental space to try to think for
myself. I might
spend a bit of time alone. But
I’d just use it to try
to grow in originality without
external influence
trying to adjust what suits them.
Still, I would give
up some depth to make another
happy. So I could give back
what was given to me.
Accountability to become a better
person.
Jan 12
Jan 12, 2026 at 1:05 AM UTC
The cool air slips
Through the morning window
Rests its hand
On my warm neck
And passes on
Here the deep
Longing begins
That comes with spring
The unbearable pull
That is the teasing echo
Of footsteps
Walking into mist
Always receding
Never reached
Is it the reverberation
Of an unknown guilt?
That, like peeling bells
Cupped to an ear
Die across a meadow
He is forever on the horizon
A perfect and endless
Breaking dawn
Of grief and joy
Jun 29, 2024
Jun 29, 2024 at 6:21 AM UTC
and then the churches
not a climbing peel
not the telling of bells
but an absense felt
a spirit skin hammering out the pressure
the clung tongues of worry
Babel Tolls
Fellowing
then following
and opposing this
A deprevision blow to the senses
a ballooning calm
A nature of electricity makes itself stage, tone
and is source of beacon
A strobe of invitation
past the the mid mark of night
Jul 17, 2019
Jul 17, 2019 at 11:46 PM UTC
Professors with professions listen on the sidelines to my cryptic confessions like I'm still under the lineage of the plane papacy taking note of my blank boredom.
Don't even know if I deserve to saint this message.
Look warm,
they'll think you're a sky walker,
be hot they'll think you're an odd joker,
cause these days there's no truth to bat an eye on,
Even christians bail on the touchy topics,
I too would rather travel the tropics,
But we can't piece up the peace in these last days.
It's a relative subjective river that you can choose to glide on.
Why do foolish ants labour to protest works?
Perhaps it's a minor issue and we're digging too deep.
Perhaps the devil's wearing denims down with bootleg discussions,
that bow out but never stand in the gap,
Perhaps there are finer issues like my blessings.
Perhaps everyone will eventually find their way.
One man for himself...
I used to pray for mercy,
then I'd pray to messi,
It's like now I prey for merces,
distractions and direction,
promises of perfection,
leave me licking lumps of wounds that the leaven left.
We all want to hear something new,
twerk the message and please the pew.
I can feel the Ichabod as the teaching scratches my ears.
Can a name be enough?
Can a call really save?
Or is it just a ploy to keep the black man a slave?
- nyant
Feb 8, 2018
Feb 8, 2018 at 2:42 PM UTC
Here's to hoping that day 2 actually happens this time.
I'll throw up an "Amen" because I need it and because I want it.
So just...
Hear me.
Apr 23, 2017
Apr 23, 2017 at 12:34 PM UTC
I met a man who claimed him and I came from the same home,
I told him I've never been.
he didn't understand my disconnected nostalgia,
Instead he trusted place and time.
I guess he hasn't had much experience with drafty windows or closed mouths.
I tried to explain to him, home is where you hide your skeletons,
and I've used people and words as closet doors,
when that didn't work I buried them in shallow graves under my skin.
he said he noticed the bones sticking out of my body and I told him,
my search for home as left me starving and unstable,
that after a lifetime of asking for directions
to churches and cemeteries,
I've become envious of comfortable beds and worn-in floor boards.
Mar 18, 2017
Mar 18, 2017 at 1:19 PM UTC
-
I’ve always thought you were like the earth after rain,
dripping, slipping off beaten leaves
strong and steady,
with light purples gracing,
all around us wrapped up in each other.
You are soft greys filling each moment,
hiding under cedar stairs to hear the thunder voices scream
fighting metal to find the comfort in negative spaces.
You are lightly dancing to beat up records filled with grease
filling me with old spice, and ****** hair gel.
You are clear fall days, falling
keeping us safe from our demons,
who bite and claw, filling the air with their blood.
You are a burning laptop hiding under the blankets of a movie fort,
the comfort of laughter in dark.
You are dusty old barns
with sunbeams breaking through in midday,
old worn playgrounds
where small children play.
You are the empty church,
when others have left
stiff wooden benches
and soft candle rays
bathed in incense and leftover wine.
You are the spring time
changing each day
you are the winter
remaining the same.
You are the flowers sitting outside
striving for sunlight
through the darkest of times
You are the warmth of tea
after the day's hours.
You are the thoughts in my mind,
the first words spoken in a long time.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 1:36 PM UTC
There are bells here
Silent bells
They seem so out of place
Surrounded by the immaculate stonework
And accompanied by righteous statutes
Stilled angels
Their silent echoes
Reverberate off of the people
Who stand in perfect mockery
Of the stone figures scattered about the church
All of them here to partake
In an obsolete tradition
Of grief
An unmistakably deathly feeling
Fills the air
However the feeling is foreign to me
And I cannot comprehend
This ceremony of antique sorrow
For the breathing statues Morn
As if their tears were rehearsed
and what I feel is so raw
A silent moment is called for
and as if on cue the bells toll
three times, just three
Silence, sorrow, death,
All marked by
The tolling of the bells
Mar 23, 2015
Mar 23, 2015 at 10:26 AM UTC
she would
crawl in bed
and tell me
she loved me
but her eyes
were cold
and closed
like the
broken fluorescent
that gave off
blue sparks
she reminded
me of an
abandoned church
what used to be
a place
where so much
happiness and
depression
was tied together
by faith and
hope was
now a
simple reminder
of how even
the place of
seemingly
unfaltering hope
dies
she was
a false dichotomy
of existence
always present
infinitely absent
and i could
see her
try her
hardest to
make me
feel like
she was
still alive
and trying
but every
word she said
was her own
eulogy
Mar 29, 2014
Mar 29, 2014 at 6:26 AM UTC