#childneglect
Oh mother, mother, why do you neglect me?
Why do you turn away, I'm still your baby.
Though, I'm already sixteen,
It seems as if you don't need me...
Oh mother, mother, I've nothing to grasp,
As if you let go of me if you had the chance.
I'm still searching foe who I am,
while you are just there getting mad.
Oh mother, mother, once I leave,
Would you be happy or will you weep?
Sometimes I cry myself to sleep,
as you muffle my cries with the TV.
Oh mother, mother, who am I?
Did you give birth me just to make me wished I've died?
Mar 6
Mar 6, 2026 at 7:24 AM UTC
I have always been the gifted child
overachiever and overworking myself
desperate for approval
if I get good grades, maybe my parents will love me
get straight A's
get on the honor roll
be the top of my class
a B is the same as an F
you drilled that into me
my worth was dependent on my grades
if I wasn't the best, I was worthless
I hold these messages to this day
no matter how detrimental they are to me
now staying a the top and the best grades is a struggle
I can't be the perfect child anymore
Mar 13, 2025
Mar 13, 2025 at 8:39 AM UTC
Year 1
neglect
what-is-love ?
a falling-star
guilt & shame
more of the same
Year 2
neglect
what-is-love ?
a falling-star
guilt & shame
more of the same
Year 3
neglect
what-is-love ?
a falling-star
guilt & shame
more of the same
Year 4
neglect
what-is-love ?
a falling-star
guilt & shame
more of the same
Years 5 -
I love school!
Maybe I'll find a new mom!
Sep 12, 2019
Sep 12, 2019 at 5:51 AM UTC
They say, "It's all about Love."
"What is Love?" asked the Love starved child
Singing, "Twinkle Twinkle Little Star
Love, how I wonder where you are...."
Her eye caught a falling star
Following it across the sky
Dear Star
I wish for Love.
Show me what is Love.
I want to Love.
I want to be Loved.
Why am I not loved?
Is there something wrong with me?
May 31, 2019
May 31, 2019 at 3:58 PM UTC
A flight here and a flight there
Let me compensate for not being there
When you needed me
When you need me
I taught you how to deal with pain
While being lonely
I thought you how to fight away the demons
By leaving them to feast on your flesh
To gnaw at your bones
To leave you for dead
And I return to take you on a trip
To take you away from the misery that i am blind toward
That I do not know you have
I taught you how to talk through your fears
Now the only ones you talk to are in your brain
No father, I will not shed a tear
I am the water beneath the desert
the undiscovered landmines in the soil
I am held back tears and the god of war
The war against pain
As I fight in the trenches
In a battlefield facing myself
Battling an enemy that is closer than the end of my nose
Breathing so heavy, until the pain to goes to hell
Don’t let me see the tear stains on your sweater sleeve
You are not the child i birthed
You are but a machine
Do you not feel a thing?
Can you not say you’re glad?
I’ve never seen you smile
Is that a tear in your eye?
Save it for later
Throw away the paper
You cannot be another traitor
To your brain
Do not talk about your heart
you are not a painter
No woman, i am not your child
I am nobody’s daughter
Just a trapped little boy
Screaming through the windows
Cause you won’t let me out
Of this house made of hate
With these cracks in the walls
That lets in little rays of love
That I am too afraid to touch
Because i barely know love
But the walls of my house are my skin and my bones
And the prison called *** that is set on the roof
No I’m not complaining I’m just being honest
Didn’t you teach me that when you said I was going to be nothing
When you called me a pig and I learnt to cry silently
Now I almost always cry silently
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For these are the scars that I bear on my soul
That I wear on my sleeve
For i have been told that there is beauty in acceptance
In accepting what you’ve faced
And learning how to be loved
And how to be alone
Dec 16, 2018
Dec 16, 2018 at 11:49 PM UTC