#ccw
it's a low-grade panic
lurking in the soul
simmering in silence
i distract
my restless hands
coat my neck in talismans
each layer, a clear gloss
but cracked
reflecting back
what i have lost
i have trained
my train of thoughts
to avoid things that cause
maladies
but something deep
inside of me
rebels against
what i've been taught
seeks out the stops
that ******* me
twists around my limbic tree
so i am left in knots
May 30, 2018
May 30, 2018 at 9:21 AM UTC
i.
I feel like my legs have been stamped
and sent around the globe -
perhaps one flew to Austria to hear
the string quartet that stole my heart,
and the other walked to Amsterdam in
hopes of finding the soul I sold,
now stored on a shelf in a mason jar.
ii.
There is no metaphor,
only mileage -
a life lived long enough to realize
that love speaks louder than language,
and all an artist can do is strive to
describe the strangled kiss with
hit and miss letters,
myself no exception.
iii.
I remember tearing a photograph in two
and trying to stitch a half of each of
our faces together - forcing them to fit.
When I looked upon the product, the monster
I'd created, my legs began to shake.
Mar 12, 2018
Mar 12, 2018 at 3:22 PM UTC