#catholisism
No sin lives in us,
hearts palpitating, leaving no concealment, only trust.
Cross lying in my lustful breast.
Have I failed god's test?
Blowing ribbon smoke in your doll face.
The fires of hell are well worth your embrace.
How can they alienate such truest care.
Maybe it shouldn't bother me, but I don't have the guts to dare.
And when I see you with him,
how it makes me sick.
Does he know the nights we shared?
Does he know how lipstick and love filled the air?
I am the head-strong, independant type,
but in your arms, dependancy feels so right.
I run rampant like the wind; wild and free,
but for you a house-wife I would be.
Buckle me down.
Tame my spirit with out a frown.
Hold me in the moonlight and calm my thought in which I drown.
Late at night-
Blowing smoke ribbons in your doll face,
The fires of hell are well worth your embrace.
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 4:05 AM UTC
you're probably the reason i wake up unable to breathe thinking there are snakes slithering around in my bed, because you did the exact same. i'll never find the words to tell you just the way you shattered my stained glass, i went to dozens of cathedrals to try and beg you to fix my mosaics and give me forgiveness, but not even the hierarchy could help me now. I went from Nortre Dame all the way to St. Paul's trying to find peace but no glass will ever be the same as mine maybe a pastiche but I will never feel as if I am as beautiful as the Troyes, so I walk around with ****** palms grasping to the remaining pieces I have from that night. I'm gasping for air now, in hysteria I'm flipping through the pages of a poor mans good book trying to find the terms for repentance or contrition or whatever it could be named, I'm not sure because I've never pleaded like this before and I'll scream to the all the gods that might listen, I'll be ****** if Im going to go down like this. I found another chapel he's got mosaics like no other has ever seen, I'm looking into angelic hues of browns and blues and greens. I'm running through the backrooms trying to find an exit, I'm in a rut to get to a comforting haven. don't waste your time on me I scream. Ive been cast out of heaven for my sins and I'm paying for my crimes -my rosary has fallen to the ground. it's just us two now; I want to run, the apocalypse inside of me is tearing me apart. I've had a martyr in my bed and I remember the taste of his lips, now I recall how your mouth resembled that of a serpent and how it tasted -of venom. you lied while your head was between my thighs, oh the stigmata of a dismal life. I've found a new savior and I am more than what you've dictated to everyone else. I've undergone apostasy and devouted myself to a new God, I might even wear white with him.
Oct 26, 2015
Oct 26, 2015 at 11:04 AM UTC