#cathartic
I want to draw
what is in my heart
cathartic pictures
screaming the pain I feel
but I have neither the talent
nor the ink to express
all the skulls I see
dancing in the subset
Aug 14, 2025
Aug 14, 2025 at 3:36 PM UTC
Only in dreams, a proof appears again;
A distant past, still embers. Whispers the name.
And more, rekindles flames, it melts my head.
A feeling, though fleeting. Fervor or bane?
The dread of knowing, you are only dreams.
Awake, I pine to fall again to dark.
A reverie to pull from my frayed seams,
And catch ablaze this lonely, long lost spark.
So now I ask, why you appear this time?
I try to find a meaning, logic’s curse.
Will answers be in me or you to find?
I’ll wait for which will speak unto me first.
I take your touch, your voice, with me to dawn,
Pretending they were true, although you’ve gone.
And patience will revive the warmth you bring,
That burns my soul to black, and makes it sing.
Aug 13, 2025
Aug 13, 2025 at 4:04 PM UTC
Stuck like a fly, I'm paralyzed by choices
Everything needs to get done
But like Ouroboros, eating his own tail
The tasks are a circle with every place to start requiring a different task to be done
It's a sisyphean struggle to get started on most things
Yet words are my escape
I share my dreams with others
As their stories flow into me
My consciousness recedes
Rarely enough to have complete silence
But even whispers are a relief
From the thunderous yells
"You're just lazy!" and "You'll never amount to anything."
Those words and more echo through my mind
Every second of every minute of every day.
Wistful "if only"'s of impossible scenarios
Are my constant refrain
All efforts I make turn to ash and dust
Just taking the next step, the next breath is a fight
It's feels like it's me against the world
And that weight is heavier than I can hold
Mar 23, 2025
Mar 23, 2025 at 10:52 PM UTC
If our lives were captured in paintings,
each moment recorded in brush strokes
I would collect all of my
history into a warehouse,
set it on fire
and dance in the pyre's flames-
until everything
turned to ash.
Sep 18, 2024
Sep 18, 2024 at 8:47 AM UTC
there must be a use for tears
they’re so free flowing and liberal
aside from the cathartic release of crying
couldn’t we use tears for something
collected tears of emotion for different uses
i don’t believe tears aren’t useful
perhaps i should collect my tears
and anoint my prized possessions in them
when i think of my pain with regard to you
could i collect those tears and touch them to your forehead
could you understand my pain then
would tears become a blessing
a catalyst for true understanding
and when i’m crying from joy
could i put those happy tears on your lips
and could you taste my ecstasy
Dec 12, 2023
Dec 12, 2023 at 5:41 AM UTC
Looking over, down below
I can feel myself begin to overflow
The waves rise as I feel my stomach churn
I would rather have my skin set alight and start to burn
Rivers form behind my eyes
As I cry out to the skies
My body shivers, not from the cold
But from a mental prison that cannot be controlled.
However, what scares me the most is I don’t know why
Because what does that imply?
That my mind is nothing but a coin flip
And with heads, I’m fine, but with tails, I lose my grip
My fear of the world around me is never-ending
Yet, I still wish I could stop pretending
Until that day comes, I’ll continue to sink
Never able to truly think.
Apr 3, 2023
Apr 3, 2023 at 12:24 PM UTC
Rock solid brain occulted by tarnished skull
Flesh cradle worshiped by something weak
Crawling soul seeks shelter. Spiraling
Spirals
Spirals speak to my circling spirit
Listening from the shadows of meekness
Apr 12, 2022
Apr 12, 2022 at 1:30 AM UTC
Is there something wrong with me?
Why is that, you don't look my way?
Is there something wrong with me?
Because you have perceived me in a different way?
I m spinning around in circles
Thinking I would get a chance
But now it seems to have gone astray
Come to me, I won't bite
I just want to talk
Come to me, I won't hate
I just want to be loved
I m looking to you
i m looking for you
Should I be looking inside?
Should I be waiting for you?
Come to me, I m not looking for a fight
I just want to smile
Come to me, to dance along
I just want to laugh
Maybe one day, you ll see
Should I wait for that day?
Why am I asking this from you?
When I should be asking myself.
Jun 16, 2020
Jun 16, 2020 at 10:56 AM UTC
For one yesterday I would trade every tomorrow
Anyone if I could have you
Been looking for a way to make this exchange
No one seems to have a clue
I provoke sorrow with memories
They can make old wounds bleed
Choking them or stretching them out
Senses shakily blurred indeed
Stomach twisting from nostalgia
I watch pictures from the past
I'm left with traces of regret
Do I hold or let go fast?
These demons desire my surrender
Pretend I'm winning the fight
Straining muscles just to stand
Invited to wave a flag white
Feel cathartic
Nearly on the brink
Emotions high when I sink back
Was used to the ache of remembering
Failed being an amnesiac
Nov 30, 2019
Nov 30, 2019 at 6:26 AM UTC
I think the only way to truly live Forever is to die young and tragically; to go in some incredibly mysterious way; that would be superior and most definitely unforgettable and that could quite possibly be immortality.
Feb 1, 2019
Feb 1, 2019 at 6:18 AM UTC
Sometimes we need to be careful at the things we're good at, because we might spend the rest of our life doing it.
Jan 30, 2019
Jan 30, 2019 at 8:21 PM UTC
Writing is very cathartic for me,
In the same way,
Which,
Bleeding is cathartic for plague treatment.
After drenching a page,
I sit,
Corpse-still, Catholic cathedral still,
Feel!
Echoing off my abandoned adorned walls.
Oct 20, 2018
Oct 20, 2018 at 3:41 PM UTC
Blazing the sun,
Here I am living my life having fun.
The days go by in a world that never sleeps.
Despite my efforts in life of doing my best. Life to me feels like it is a test.
Sometimes I weep, I feel like I’m playing on a deck of cards.
Sometimes people ask, what’s the matter?
But my life’s just getting better.
My soul is like the ocean,
Strong, deep and wild.
Adventurous and creative to the core.
I find myself wanting more.
I’m surrounded in a world that’s just about vanity, but to me that’s just insanity.
Sometimes I feel down, I feel like a clown.
There are times I cry and die a little inside.
My head feels like it’s going to explode when I feel anxious, moments when my head feels like it’s on fire because I feel dire.
I walk alone because I’m wise. I avoid small minds.
Music and clarity are the only things that keep me away from insanity. They are the reflection of my aura. The definition of my life’s mission.
After all, I’ll always do what I can with my time just to be fine.
There’s no need to use my intuition.
A poem written by Connor Vibes.
(2018 - All rights reserved)
Jul 13, 2018
Jul 13, 2018 at 4:22 PM UTC
no emotionally ecstatic experience compares
to the seminal instance
whence spermatozoa
(from profuse *********** beget
the miraculous propensity
to procreate despite the steep odds
female fertility fosters potential impregnation
fusing the hereditary debt
of feral, fiery, fomenting friskiness
fueling fancy free footloose fornication
prior to seminal fertilization union
sans ova doth induce fret
full ness in tandem with
diametrically opposed exultant sensations
(biologically, embryonically, microscopically,
et cetera) seismic shocks inject
when deliberate intent arises to disregard
applying prophylactics choice
plying reproductive roulette let
which analogous fruitful uterine plain
bastes the "cooking" egg omelette
which impregnation upends cessation of "self"
first and foremost asper desire to breed
wrenching role of "me" as operative
of webbed world de jure upon
consummating that most miraculous deed
necessitating yet for the fecund female relief
from messy menstrual cycle
she becomes temporarily freed
that perhaps a novitiate (or even a gal practiced
in the euphoric family, she instinctually
abides prenatal signals that heed
without feeling debased, harangued, lectured
pedagogical, polemical, puritanical, et cetera blast
assessing copulation enjoyed gloriously,
ineluctably, kinesthetically
lectured by elder, especially cast
in thee reel life drama, that nine months
til offspring utters initial whimper
elapses exceptionally fast
emitting a radiant golden halo wishing
to bottle confluence of hormonal secretions last
ideally fully awake to the birthing process,
when juiced the first stage of maternity past
cuz every moment thee inconsolably
(perhaps colicky infant)
gets first dibs to suckle,
which round the clock nursing
consumes moments many vast.
Apr 17, 2018
Apr 17, 2018 at 11:04 PM UTC
Oh, to wreck a room!
To unleash my rage
And let fury from its cage.
With just one ornament I’d start
Then break all f**king else apart.
It would so make me smile
To let anger out for a while.
It wouldn’t end pretty, but
Oh, to wreck a room!
Mar 26, 2018
Mar 26, 2018 at 3:18 PM UTC
It's like I'm fighting time
never have enough but always wasting too much
waiting on time to fix the broken parts of "us"
wondering when things will feel right if they ever will
I'm still stuck on moments people said would heal
been struck by the realization that learning how to accept
is to learn how to deal
but acceptance comes with time
and through time wounds have been revealed
These days my words ring empty, my voice remains low
I've been made of broken promises
over the months it's started to show
Commitment to my future is all too rooted in my past
I need to let go of comfort
this time around I have to make the changes last
Nov 30, 2017
Nov 30, 2017 at 7:47 PM UTC
Somewhere between meeting you and loving you I stopped writing.
I've built up so much to say I don't know where to start
with everything you broke or all the times you broke my heart.
I could begin with your secrets and their names
shed light on the pain, the shame
and talk about how much it still weighs.
I could go on about our begin-agains and epiphanies,
spiritual connections and energy,
adventures that will go down in history
but those things don't consume me
I need to bleed out these other feelings,
I want to work on forgiving.
You know this isn't all your fault.
Scared to love you I bittered my heart
and you hated the taste;
didn't believe in letting your time go to waste
so part of you let go.
I'm not sure that part ever came back...
Maybe I've seen it but it never stays,
and neither do you.
Aug 8, 2017
Aug 8, 2017 at 9:30 PM UTC
Life events will have an impact
Both negative and positive.
It all depends on how we react,
Cope with such changes as we live.
Some bring great joy, sorrow or pain;
They change us fundamentally.
Life cannot be the same again
As we view it differently.
Life will go on nevertheless,
No doubt more changes we shall see.
And how we react, nothing less,
Shall decide how our lives will be.
Jun 7, 2017
Jun 7, 2017 at 3:58 AM UTC
When you casually left from my life
I know it’s cliché but it felt like a knife
I never expected to lose you
but I guess were through.
I can’t stop brushing my fingers on the old pages
it’s been ages since we last spoke
my eyes devour the written words of our history
how you left me still seems a mystery
your leaving took its toll
it left a void, a hole.
When you casually left from my life
I knew it was the right thing
but im pulling myself on this string.
Pretending its not happening
I never expected to lose you
but I guess our love wasn’t true.
I know I need to close the dusty pages I cling to
flick the new pages open and push through.
You seem happier while I still can’t sleep
I don’t cry or weep but I know my wound is **** deep.
It’s about time I had some good sleep
not tossing and turning and thinking
sinking in to my mind, unblinking
I know I need to write my next chapter
escape my abandoned captor.
Once I pick up my pen
I know Ill be almost new again
who knows what awaits
what the fates have in store
but I know i'll no longer be on the floor
thinking and rewinding our time together
I have an unsteady hand to open the new pages
It’s a slow and lonely journey, it may take ages
but I will write a next new chapter.
Where you have lost me but I will be free.
Mar 22, 2017
Mar 22, 2017 at 8:58 AM UTC
Leave me please
Love me deep
I'm about to cease
I'm about to breathe
There's nothing to feed
Nothing to sink my teeth
It'll be another millennium
Till I'll be freed
I'm not the circus you can seek
Nor a dream you can sleep
Not a road you can reach
I'm your god
I'm your slave
I'm anything you crave
Left alone in a cave
Made one in your mistake
Every machine ever made
The life you make
And the life you take
I'm the rotten seed
The forgotten forests creed
Far from the civilization
I abide by my greed
I'm not the one you can teach
I have no soul to preach
No walls you can breach
Just an ocean
That you can never keep
One that will never bleed
Or breed
Everything that's inside
For I am
One and only
No matter how much you laugh.
Feb 2, 2017
Feb 2, 2017 at 2:45 AM UTC