#carelessness
You know you are unworthy & undeserving,
Beneath me, love;
And yet, with shame,
You feel the same as you have always
That heart - of mine.
It is kindred, and full of lust.
Hopelessly infatuated,
Though you know we were all wrong.
You can't help it,
And you assure me it isn't obsession
For you have known that,
This is not it.
Just painfully unrequited,
For all your faults.
Aug 5, 2024
Aug 5, 2024 at 9:13 PM UTC
I wanted to shut myself off from reality.
To escape from myself most definately.
But be careful you don't end up like me,
or bill collectors will sue you eventually.
May 19, 2021
May 19, 2021 at 10:06 PM UTC
I bang my elbow in the shower,
takes a second to realize why
not that I was careless
or enjoy pain, again
but the cascara
cowbell, saxophone,
hands around my shoulders
that are not my own
sunlight squeezing lemons,
flower dress upon the hill
potato enchilada
still
digesting
messing
with my footwork
possibly
maybe
I was careless.
Showers are not the place for salsa.
May 10, 2021
May 10, 2021 at 9:43 AM UTC
Dear careless whisperer,
Some sharings are dagger-edged
and there is no escape when they’re turned on you
no countermagic for the soul crushing embarrassment
dropped as if from a great height.
Did you hear the gun-shot thunderclap of confidence
leaving the room?
Jun 30, 2020
Jun 30, 2020 at 8:01 AM UTC
I wish I opened up more,
Maybe that’s why people get bored.
I’m so scared of being vulnerable,
That i just end up being unreachable.
If only I said what I needed to,
Maybe I wouldn’t feel like I do.
Because you only notice how bad you’re hurting,
When you’ve finally stopped worrying or caring.
Nov 4, 2018
Nov 4, 2018 at 12:44 PM UTC
sometimes i wonder if we'll make it -
after all the misscomunications that leads to fights
that leads to tears that at the end
always ends up with us tangled
around each other.
i swear sometimes my anxieties, insecurities
and monsters got the best of me
and turned me into a villain
and break his heart over and over again
"there's a thin line between
loyalty and stupidity"
i always tell him
but still he stays
and still he fights for us
"i do this because i love you. that's it.
i love you and your difficulities.
i love you because you're the best
thing that has ever happened to me
and i want to be with you forever,"
he says.
forever.
what a silly word.
at the end i do love him, though,
i love him with all my soul.
i can lie to myself and say that
it's better for him to be apart from me -
but i want him.
at the end of the day,
i'd still kiss his forehead and
hug him in his sleep.
i know i do love him, though,
because even in my madness
and carelessness
i still don't want to leave
and when i've upset him too much,
even with my stubborn pride,
i'd hug him
still mad
but walls crumbling by the seconds.
Sep 24, 2018
Sep 24, 2018 at 1:56 PM UTC
Smile, smile, smile,
It's all they want you to do,
they don't care what you feel,
they don't care what you'll do.
They just don't want your burdens,
they just dont want to understand,
lucky for me,
their carelessness I withstand.
Sep 17, 2016
Sep 17, 2016 at 7:25 AM UTC
Empty head
Filled with lead,
Spilt the beans...
Spoilt the fun.
Flatter-flutter
Pigs in the butter,
Killed the fun.
Chicken run.
Pitter-patter
Chitter-chatter.
Spilt the milk,
It doesn’t matter…
Cry no more
Like before.
Water under the bridge,
Milk is in the fridge.
Nov 24, 2014
Nov 24, 2014 at 2:20 PM UTC
...But you don't have a grave,
do you?
You own,
***** ****
bugs in your clothes,
holes in your shoes.
[Crept in through a window;
He holds her close and says,
"You're everything I ever wanted."
She falls asleep, smiling.
He continues,
"But I'm also still looking."
Left through the back door.]
Left a note that said,
"Couldn't take the pressure."
Looked up the most painless way
to **** oneself on google.
Thirty minutes later,
added Medical Crisis Hotline
to my contacts.
Oct 1, 2014
Oct 1, 2014 at 11:03 PM UTC