#cantbreath
Pulse racing, fast pacing, in my head I'm locked in a shed
Monsters all around me, trying to get under my skin,
What the hell is my sin?!
Hands trembling, and I can't stop remembering
Everything
The walls getting smaller, something's wrong, wrong, wrong, WRONG!
I can feel it inside my chest!
I'm doing my best!
Can't you see that it's my past that's holding me back, even though I cast it away every day?
Is that insane?
Breathing faster, airway's tighter, heart's beating faster
And consciousness simply slips away
Oct 8, 2020
Oct 8, 2020 at 7:02 PM UTC
i cant do this anymore...... its to hard
being new.....
i want to go back
no one likes me
god im so stuipd for coming back
i just want my mum
Sep 5, 2019
Sep 5, 2019 at 12:31 PM UTC
Eyes a blur
The clear liquid falls some more
A sticky feeling upon the skin
not a feeling within
nor no thought calls
as the clear liquid falls
why do I feel warmth
when it's suppose to heal
comfort in the coldest of times
but how is it now I can't stop the red going through my head
and the fire that reaches my veins
and inspires my heart to reach new heights
I can't breath
my eyes collapsed
everything has stopped
except the warmth
that is keeping me frozen
my face is a blaze
as the clear liquid falls
The tears of warmth
was all I could recall
Aug 17, 2018
Aug 17, 2018 at 1:17 AM UTC
Dancing.
I dance on the clouds sometimes.
There times I am buried deep.
Almost too deep.
Too deep.
I'm sofficiating!
I can't breeth!
The pressure everyone puts on me.
No mum it's not athsma.
It's anxioty.
Plastic wrap around my lungs.
Tighter.
I'm dead.
Only on the inside though.
Still alive, sorta, on the outside.
Mar 31, 2016
Mar 31, 2016 at 1:03 AM UTC
Whenever I think about you, I can't breath.
Whenever someone says your name, a little ball of pain shows up in my stomach.
Whenever I see your face, I die a little inside. It hurts to see you happy without me.
Whenever I hear your voice, I just want to run to you and have you hold me.
Aug 4, 2015
Aug 4, 2015 at 12:09 AM UTC
Night charges in and Fear tiptoes after
They slither across the floor
And as they crawl into bed with me, I can hear their maniacal laughter.
In my sabotaged subconscious there is no lock on the door,
An open party where the demons dance
And in explicit, intricate agony I attempt to scream “No more! NO MORE!”
The zombies infest, fester, and invade as their decayed, falling-off feet begin to prance
My mouth is gagged and the chains tighten, as horror plays before my eyes
This is no ordinary tragedy – not one soul has a chance
Trust is meaningless and dangerous, the loyal ones are spies
Logic is thrown out – there is neither a beginning nor an end
Time turns and churns, double-crossers criss-cross – lies, lies, LIES!
My power is ripped away, shred by tiny shred
Everything is spiraling out of my control
I silently scream and struggle as Fear forcefully pins me to the bed
I swim through the sea towards consciousness, but He won’t let me go.
Eyes fly open as Fear ties me up with taught ropes, His beautiful disaster
The unbreakable fibers are woven from smoky shadows, and time crawls on far too slow
My heart beats – faster, faster, FASTER!
But the helpless heroine is no more
The shadows slink away and stick to their corners, for Daylight is my master.
Jul 8, 2015
Jul 8, 2015 at 1:10 AM UTC