#cancellation
they took my name first
or maybe
i dropped it
trying to hold everything else
and suddenly
i was no one
with a history
i couldn’t touch anymore
like a house
i used to live in
but the locks changed
while i was still inside
i started over
worse than nothing
at least nothing
doesn’t remember
what it used to be
people talk about healing
like things go back
they don’t
i came apart
and stayed that way
you learn
how to mask
so it doesn’t hurt as much
you learn
how to hold yourself together:
duct tape
and quiet
and yeah
sometimes i think
maybe i should stay closed
keep it safe
keep it clean
no more damage
but then
what’s the point
if you don’t say it
if you don’t mean it
if you don’t risk it?
that’s what broke me
in the first place
not the truth
the lack of it
the calculated hands
shaping things
into something they weren’t
i lost everything
but i’d still rather
be the one who says it
and pays for it
than the one
who survives
by lying
Apr 16
Apr 16, 2026 at 5:22 AM UTC
A cancellation of something, is (generally speaking) progress to enlightenment, because it's meant to "congress" the very supposedly different features that literally...
SCREAMS OUT OF CONTROL!
(But only, when something doesn't officially go its own way).
However, in time, things do get better.
Because they must!
It's just simply...HAST TOO!
After all, it's a very "primal" influential (on a need-to-know basis), before something truthfully "triggers" the very (notion of surprise) in the "generalized" form...that is a natural part of life that stems from the very pit in one's own gut.
Then at which time SCREAMS back in response, (from the very first response that triggered its very own local message).
BREAKING the very so-called "alignment" (when evolving yourself directly straight-out from under the control of your very own still processing learning curb), that keeps you (too "rooted" in your very own self) from that very essential...cancellation itself.
But alas, things aren't as focused (as they once were...) Now aren't they...?
That's entirely against the point of "truer" interests that begin too BASH one another over such silly "squabbles".
Something that truly masks the very freedom of what was (once out of control)! That is now breathing in this very newer *** of fresh air.
This very newer *** of fresh air is a little "musty". And could become HEAVILY influenced, because of its very own odor type smell...it truly gives off....
But that's only because things have been stashed away and broken down and covered up for far too long.
Meaningfully, making it the obvious result of the very cancellation holding you back from simply moving forward with a very "progression for enlightenment" itself.
Simply put, once you let go of the too many "attachments" that have been stringing you along in such a predictable simulation for an incredibly (sort of "dire" need) to become this WIDENED long-drawn-out frame of time...
That's what starts to truly speculate its very own nature.
Also, when things start to take a turn for the "interesting kind".
Basically, your no different from anyone else.
However, that doesn't mean your own "sense of liberty" (in your very self) doesn't become prey to even truer mindsets...that'd have you "scrambling" out of sync with what truly matters in your very ("hour of need").
Progress at the ending type of spectrum for enlightenment, is the such "divinity" of one's own (preciously "engaged") sufferable type of "repressed" comings and goings (among the very goings on), that then (in the very truest sense of the word) limit your actions to such "formidable...consequences."
Either way, a cancellation such as this, will harbor the very "harbinger"...that is the "progress of enlightenment" itself!
Mar 28, 2021
Mar 28, 2021 at 2:20 PM UTC
Doesn’t it all get to me in the mornings
Before i’ve eaten anything
before I’ve done my hair and makeup
i build up my walls and open the gates
because someone promised me
id get something today
but it was all for nothing
because its over before it started
and now I’m alone on the couch
with a bottle of irish coffee
waiting for the pills to kick in
Jan 24, 2016
Jan 24, 2016 at 8:32 AM UTC