#caffine
god I'm shaking
and I just want to hold your hands right now
I want to be held
I want to stop
but it feels so good
the pain in my head
I feel like I could fall over
I want to fall into your arms
where Im safe
because you never would have let this happen
a caffeine overdose?
a year ago I wouldn't imagine looking at me like this
but when your a 8th grade girl
and the mirror screams at you
heart attacks are all you want, right?
Apr 13
Apr 13, 2026 at 11:31 AM UTC
I know I shouldnt
I know its bad
but something about that feeling feels good almost
I sound crazy
I know I do
the headache I get when I drink too much
I had 100mg in my water bottle today
of an energy drink
I had 110mg in the morning today
of my coffee
I know if my parents found out
I'd be dead
I know if I drank too much too
id also be dead
although that wouldn't be so bad would it
I'm already almost passing out in class
my head hurts like ****
the pain feels good
is it an addiction?
maybe...
do I care?
not really...
if there's a pain that makes you feel good
why not do it?
Jan 13
Jan 13, 2026 at 12:50 PM UTC
Slowly options are being restricted
My body tells me I just can't
I must find alternatives to my habits
And I just wish that you could understand
It may seem trivial
To mourn something so little
But its not as simple as it seems
I'm angry
I'm sad
I feel helpless
As this illness takes more away from me
Apr 11, 2020
Apr 11, 2020 at 3:17 PM UTC
I was swollen in
the whirlpool of coffee
hangovers.
Tsunamis of headache
neglects.
But when the waves of coffee beans
collected on my shores
I trod upon them, crushed and slowly
roasted under repeated waves.
And then they washed over me,
caffeine drops falling
like rain on my senses.
When I was drenched,
calmness fell upon my mind,
And I was myself once again.
Aug 5, 2019
Aug 5, 2019 at 6:35 PM UTC
They say there are storms in
teacups.
There like a summer breeze,
compared
to the tsunami
of caffeine denial.
That floods
upon the shores of my
day washing everyone away.
I need my Jave, like I need to breath..
Apr 27, 2019
Apr 27, 2019 at 5:52 PM UTC
life's ****** up
before you have
a red bull and co-codamol
then everything has wings..
and nothings a pain
its just numb,
till reality
hits 5 minutes before bed,
Then who gives a **** till tomorrow.
Rise and then repeat....
Apr 6, 2019
Apr 6, 2019 at 5:13 PM UTC
Early morning hours
Caffinated brains
Lazy ceiling fans
Cool Autumn rains
Clumsy stitches
Networks of skin and bone
Safe within these walls
A family, a home
Words, words, words
Tired, dark eyes
All he's ever said
Half truth half lies
Nov 1, 2017
Nov 1, 2017 at 2:31 AM UTC