#butn
When everyone's asleep
I admit my defeat
When everyone celebrates
My depression elevates
Because while everyone is dreaming on
I stand frozen and watch my dreams burn on
And while everybody gather with family and friends
I stand lonesome and watch my world burn again
May 9, 2018
May 9, 2018 at 8:31 PM UTC
A hairdryer hums,
then slips too far,
heat where it shouldn’t be.
My hair turns sharp at the ends,
quietly changing shape
without asking me.
The smell stays behind
like proof of a mistake
that doesn’t need words.
Outside, the air is cold,
a simple thing
that doesn’t explain itself.
I walk through it anyway,
not fixed, not ready,
just continuing.
May 3
May 3, 2026 at 4:50 AM UTC