#burn-out
How did I get here?
What year did I get
hooked? I can say
it began in 7th/8th grade,
but this has been going on
much longer.
I was born addicted
to breathing too hard, kicking,
screaming, fighting everything
going on around me.
I was born addicted to
burning. I have always reveled
in my own shadow. Been addicted
to addictions. Been hooked on
the Boogey man and the monsters
in my closet.
I remember,
I was 5,
tried to play with
my nightmares, but
they were playing with
my dreams and psyche.
I'm in a downwards
roller coaster. I swear it was
going up,
Then again after all
the drugs I'm surprised
my inner ear has any sense
of direction.
I've been lost in a hurricane
filled with marijuana,
amphetamines, all the alcohol
you could wish for.
Valium, ******* Percocet, acid,
shrooms, Ecstacy, Xanax, I've
popped pills with no clue of the
name.
Snorted so many different chemicals
I got a nose bleed for 2 hours.
and took another bump
when the road looked safe.
My path of addiction is
embedded in my DNA.
I swear I was born
on fire.
I burn through each day,
I burn through each moment,
I burned through my own brain.
Burn out... That's what you call it.
Oct 19, 2016
Oct 19, 2016 at 10:47 AM UTC