#bummed
new day, long time
no write, not right,
but humming flushing rhyming
sensory compulsion asking why,,
being bummed rhymes with hummed
and the kissing cousin connectivity, cannot
bee denied, delied, nor contradicted,
the humming is brief,
the bumming is long in the tooth
Aug 9, 2025
Aug 9, 2025 at 1:58 PM UTC
I feel the pain in my lower back,
from the low blows life throws.
I am so afraid to speak to the people in my life,
because
it took me four months just to finish this,
and I don't even like it.
That is what failure feels like.
Jan 24, 2018
Jan 24, 2018 at 11:37 AM UTC
Some of me wants to scream
most of me wants to die
Devils climbing like monkeys
tearing all at my spine
Try to leave em behind
chasing after divine
When i wake from my rest
devils infest my mind
I heard existence is pain
i heard pain makes you strong
My lack of patience is ******
this narrow road is too long
To keep you my pride was tucked
draining myself of luck
Raining such heavy drops
straining in mud im stuck
Shallow is not the muck
screaming out what the ****
Breaking my housing walls
heading depressions call
Shaking the tree for fruit
waiting for some to fall
All of the fruit was rotten
by mistorturne im mauled.
May 25, 2017
May 25, 2017 at 9:05 PM UTC
So im told
stay within the mold
Disobey the old
following the young
Sprung..
eating all the fruit
Nature's very giving
humans are obtuse
Dispute
wether
We are ''liberating''
killing them for killing
It's quite debilitating
To watch
blood filled socks
Negative experience
need to detox ;
I dont ******* care
about your **** or ***
Your soul is pretty foul
the *** ill always pass
Id rather have l o v e..
Apr 10, 2017
Apr 10, 2017 at 10:11 PM UTC
Unseen like the breeze
they say its a disease
Mental
existential
Lack essentials
nice parental ;
Seemed it meant nada
remain low key
If you not a top shotta ;
so it goes
Ache from the soul
never feel whole
Till his hands reach his goal
high like the sun
Drive wasn't fun
regret filled his lungs
Exhaled lots
got got ;
Buried in the shade
trees kept him cool
Against his cards raged
friends out phased
Tall walled maze
pretty ****** lost
Slummed out days
Apr 1, 2017
Apr 1, 2017 at 7:16 PM UTC
Out of gas
out of joy
Devoid
lacking energy
severed
Depressed
confused
A mess
anxiety inside
My chest
im pressed
Looking for an answer
something to clear the way
My mind perplexed and clouded
with heaving disarray
I used you as a bridge
you broke as i was crossing
I hate myself for this
no medicine for pain
The harm has much to give
iv everything to gain
Mar 29, 2017
Mar 29, 2017 at 5:09 PM UTC
No one's sweet anymore
people taste bitter
****
unsatisfying
Everyman for themselves ;
my heart crying
Where is love ;
that honey flavored bliss i wish to find
So that i forget about the blades which came behind
Mar 29, 2017
Mar 29, 2017 at 3:41 PM UTC
Sometimes i don't belong in my skin
depression would have me aching while i held it within ;
While wishing he had somebody
somebody who could destroy this
He let his sadness take over like how devils posses..
I really do belong in my skin
love would have me cursing at the heavens above
Many would **** their brother
like abel and cain ;
He'd show love to one another
the sisters the sons and mothers
Only way of escaping inescapable pain..
I wish i could belong in my skin
body cold like heavy snow all-though he's warmer within ;
While wishing he had somebody
somebody who he could cuddle
Somebody who'd help rebuttal devils talking to him;
he gave up.
Mar 16, 2017
Mar 16, 2017 at 9:49 AM UTC
The rabbit laughing as he passes the turtle
theres a pit coming up
now his body is curdled
Mar 16, 2017
Mar 16, 2017 at 1:28 AM UTC
I heard
the lord did nothing for a loser
Why create me a shoddy willed drug abuser ;
used to watch when small as the sun rise and fall
Now i sit inside but cant escape the fiery ball
crippled by depression
My weapon is my mind
so of-course it figures
into it devils grind ;
Their paws
the people clapped their hands and show applause
When another brother who mislabeled is in gauss
quick to point the finger
"Muslims are the enemy"
"evil white oppressor"
Aren't we all the same
the only standing difference
Is skin color and name..
I heard ;
that dog eat dog was never the way
As if people were at peace before on some later date
planned on bringing wood to burn
To reset that fire ;
till i grew to know my brothers and became uninspired..
My heart is often shriveled
anxiety derailing
As if before i start i slip and fall already failing
i heard that god was evil
He basked in the light
if you questioned his work
you were cast in the night
I would sit in the trees
when the sun's feeling down
As i spoke to the moon
with my feet off the ground.
Mar 15, 2017
Mar 15, 2017 at 6:49 PM UTC
Used to scream when i got stabbed in the back
when their weren't many blades to show i had been attacked
Living for the future got me feeling ****** in the moment
looking back it seems as though iv been my toughest opponent
Love is often in my mind alike to swimming from sharks
overjoyed if you make it
But you'll most likely die
as the current is vicious
Where the predator thrives
am i ***** for staying
Where my strings aren't tied..
used to scream when i got stabbed in the back
Now i use the knives they left me for revenge i exact ;
a homie had once told me i should dig up two graves
When im getting one back
for the pain that they gave..
Mar 14, 2017
Mar 14, 2017 at 7:06 PM UTC
Spent his time gazing into space
depression has no weight nor a hight nor a face
Thinking of a place where he could nestle that was warm
growing quite familiar with his demons by the swarm
Invited them to eat with him as loneliness had grown
invited them to stay with him for empty was his home
Nothingness was common in the center of his flesh
issues were his homies bringing multitudes of stress
Feeling type inadequate among the happy folk
many saw these problems as a giggle or a joke.
Mar 10, 2017
Mar 10, 2017 at 4:52 PM UTC
If i die inside my mind ;
there will be no corpse to leave my family behind
Trailing just before me are the monkeys on my back
eating all the crumbs from my mouth i couldn't pack..
This new terrain is dark
the sun hasn't won since my being isn't stark
Often times running in a circle from the past
the last could be first but in line they were passed..
Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 7:13 PM UTC
Threw his heart like fast ball
bad call sitting very high on his last straws...
Nothing really changed ;
continued broken cycle
His fortitude deranged
Why bring pain on yourself like that
better to have loved than have just sat back
Cookie crumble crumbs didn't feel very filling
arms outstretched to embrace empty feelings...
Usually he saw very far in the path
lately lacking nourishment his eyesight has passed
Crutch grown weary as the burden grows more
flower full bloom turned to an eye sore..
Mar 8, 2017
Mar 8, 2017 at 5:20 PM UTC
First world issues got your bundle in a knot
brothers being labeled by police and getting shot
Many are confused with the delusion in the plot
which keeps us separated so the fed can reap his crop..
Its not
Ok
It stops
Today
The "strong" will pay
The weak
Will say
No more..
show your insecurities the door
We need to build each other like we never have before..
i tell my brother everything his ego needs to hear
So we can push up forward with the ******** in the rear..
say hi ; to victory as weakness leaves your side
Get used to different company and bolster forth your stride..
Jan 9, 2017
Jan 9, 2017 at 1:34 AM UTC
Eating all the fruit in which my guardian had blessed me with
pulling out the blades my crooked homies had addressed me with
Crying tears for nothing in particular infested with
thoughts of sorrow mentally destroying all my tenureship...
I used to never leave my home
humans give me nada but the urge to be alone
Trapped inside a box inside a cage inside a zone
in which i could not leave i could not breathe while still as stone...
Theres so much left to say
many words to spew not enough of time in day ;
Shell ask you to lay on her
but little did you know
That she's a bed of spikes
deep in the ground below
If you could change the past
would you make alterations
Or watch yourself get eaten
in all past altercations..
If you are someones flower
remember all the pain
Of watching pedals wilt
and soiled in the rain..
If you are someones treasure
appreciate your worth
For without those like you
the lives of most are worse..
Jan 9, 2017
Jan 9, 2017 at 1:10 AM UTC
In the depths of your spine ;
chakras are aligned they'll awaken at a time
When you bout to lose your mind
its fine
I find im stuck in mazes all the time
the visions in my mind often lost as i am blind ;
Unrefined
losing track of all my time
Obtuse to the benign as a god i couldn't find..
stool ;
I find that i am looking like a fool
the confines of my shell which i returned had kept me cool..
But now
i realize to a god a shouldn't bow
Instead i built myself a pedestal and won't come down..
Jan 8, 2017
Jan 8, 2017 at 10:54 PM UTC
I smell that i am rotting
the flower by my nose
Was easily retrieved
from dirt beneath my toes
Distract me from the pain
redirect my sadness
Are those in love sane
or wallowing in madness..?
Everything is potent till you use it all the time
yet your still on canvas in the paintings of my mind
I find ;
i never quite lose you all the way
I tossed you to the ground
but wanted you to stay..
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 4:12 PM UTC
Too tired to create
too vigorous to die
My past lives itch when id rather sit or lye
my third opened wide when these devils came to haunt me
Federals amphetamines designed to keep you raunchy
Id like to be indifferent
alas im like the rest
Smile upon on my face
sorrow in my chest
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 8:08 PM UTC
Never ******* about the lack of sunshine in the sky
never changed the way i walk to keep my sneakers dry
Often tried to change the lesser aspects of my self
failing miserably then straight secluding using stealth
Dreaming of a place where only i alone exist
running from the monkeys on my back i should resist
Eating quite abundantly until i cannot walk
screaming at the trees until i find i cannot talk
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 8:25 PM UTC
All cradled tight in the fingers of the clock
All losing track of direction which we walk
All focused heavily on trying to survive
All losing peace as our unity divides
Some losing sleep over failing in the past
Some creeping close to serenity at last
Some running fast from the doors that they opened
Some bursting through without care for the quotient
Jan 6, 2017
Jan 6, 2017 at 8:55 PM UTC
Really used to have it on the ball.
Really used to have it on the ball.
No longer do I roll along.
Looks like I had a fall.
Really used to have it on the ball.
Bridges that I used to cross—
now I just can’t go.
They were closed so long ago.
I’m always the last one to know.
Really used to have me a shine.
Really used to have me a shine.
I don’t want to twinkle now,
even though I am so bright.
Really used to have me a shine.
Bridges that I used to cross—
now I just can’t go.
I’m always the last one to know.
Really used to travel; now I don’t.
Really used to travel; now I don’t.
I’m afraid to drive around
with such a heavy load.
Really used to travel; now I don’t.
Bridges that I need to cross—
I know I’ll find that road
that is never closed.
I won’t be the last one to know.
Aug 4, 2014
Aug 4, 2014 at 10:48 PM UTC