#bulima
I feel so sick
I don't know what to do anymore
I never feel good about myself anymore
I feel like I look like a ****** twenty-four seven
I feel like I never look good
Even when someone tells me I'm pretty, I never believe it
I feel so ugly
I feel so fat
I feel like I can't ever do anything right
I've tried to push my disorder down and hide it
But I can't do that anymore
I eat till I feel sick
When I feel sick I let that feeling go away in the toilet or shower
I throw up until there is nothing left inside me
I still feel sick after that
I feel like my parents will find out
I don't look sick but I feel sick
I don't want to feel sick anymore
I need help
But I can't ask for help
Then my parents and family will find out that something is wrong with me
Why do I have to be sick?
May 25, 2015
May 25, 2015 at 3:17 PM UTC
"You're a control freak" you yell at me.
When all I am looking for is some sort of consistency
you're right though, I only like what i can't control
maybe that's why I have good grade, but maybe that is also why I stick my fingers down my throat
Apr 15, 2015
Apr 15, 2015 at 11:10 PM UTC
Help me
I'm desperate
I have puke in my hair
Help me
I'm desperate
I threw up twice in an hour
Help me
I'm desperate
No one sees the pain I'm in
Help me
I'm desperate
Or is there even a point?
Dec 1, 2014
Dec 1, 2014 at 1:24 PM UTC
Where can I go
When I'm feeling alone
All of my usual places
Are being destroyed
My blade,
It has been taken away
The toilet,
It's being monitored
My binges,
Well what's the point
when you have to keep it in
There's no where else to go
But I can't keep it in
I want to swallow a few pills
Just to free myself
I'm tired of life
But I can't tell anyone
Or do anything
Where can I go
Sep 8, 2014
Sep 8, 2014 at 3:38 PM UTC