#broski
she is everything
godly radiance
her warmth envelops me
stabbing
piercing through
within her light
I am known
but I am burning
desecrated, yet blessed by the flames
too close, and yet too far away?
amalgamated I fall
melted wax
feathers
flesh
idiocy
it feels divine
Jul 8, 2024
Jul 8, 2024 at 4:37 AM UTC
or was it the other way around?
when I made the decision to give myself to her, I felt my soul
yearn
to be torn apart
like cells splitting in half,
simply because
something within them
told them to
have you ever seen a mother make a sandwich for a child?
she uses this kind of jam
because that's the only kind they like,
and she cuts it just this particular way
so that it fits in their lunch box
I wanted to cut my heart into shapes that she would like.
coquette cookie cutters stamped into mounds of muscle
and arteries
and sinew
for a girl that said I was special
Mar 5, 2024
Mar 5, 2024 at 7:25 AM UTC
I tell my friends on the first day
she's the first person
to ask me out
and I tell my friends
everything about her
(I've always been bad at managing expectations)
[we met at my job.
she thought I was ten years older than I am. I thought
she was three years older]
and a week later when she tells me she isn't ready for a relationship, I will tell her I'm not either
(I've always been a liar)
"who is, really?" she asks, relieved
I don't know how to answer that
because
(I've always been a *******
Mar 5, 2024
Mar 5, 2024 at 6:56 AM UTC
I fell through what felt like a void as the worst four years of my life passed
months felt like minutes and the clock made a game of going quicker to spite me
and all the while I withered like a houseplant locked in a closet
I cut myself off from everyone, even family. I wanted to hurt
hell had finally caught me
and I was being
dragged
down
now that I have crawled out, I look back at the person that I was as I was falling
and I don't like what I see
Mar 5, 2024
Mar 5, 2024 at 6:30 AM UTC