#boybestfriend - Hello Poetry

[ ] I’m tired of being a ghost [ ] in a story I helped build. [ ] Tired of calculating the empty space of your silence [ ] Having to relearn something i once knew [ ] Better than i knew myself. [ ] Having to reconnect a connection i thought was unbreakable. [ ] You pass me in hallways [ ] The ones where we once walked side by side [ ] Laughing with each other knowing we had one another [ ] But like light you’ve now decided [ ] not to shine in on me anymore, [ ] and I pretend I don’t notice [ ] the way you smile at me as if I was just an acquaintance [ ] As if you dont have a dedicated blanket at my house. [ ] You barely glance in my direction anymore [ ] When you do its pitiful [ ] It's the look you give to strangers [ ] The acknowledgement of existence look [ ] As if we didn't exist together mere months ago. [ ] I keep telling myself [ ] He’s going through something [ ] If you're not yourself, not even with me there’s a reason, [ ] There’s some shadow you’re wrestling, [ ] Some storm you swallowed [ ] but even storms look at the ocean [ ] before they tear it apart. [ ] If I knew what kind of storm you were facing, I would’ve armed myself too, [ ] not to save me [ ] but to stand in it with you. [ ] I didn’t think It could get like this [ ] That it would ever be this bad. [ ] I’ve held my breath for you so many times [ ] that I forget what it feels like to fill my lungs [ ] with anything that isn’t fear [ ] I forget what it’s like to not be afraid of losing you. [ ] The volume in my head is louder than my words could ever get [ ] You dont even bother to mutter a hello [ ] But the absence of your voice [ ] Leaves a lasting coldness [ ] And is louder than anything you've ever said. [ ] I have loved you with more love than i had to give, [ ] I have never left your side, always reminding you im here [ ] and yet somehow [ ] that became the very thing [ ] you chose to step away from. [ ] Out of all the things to be afraid of [ ] People fear love [ ] And you've proven that here [ ] And that’s what i hate most [ ] I hate how even if you didn't realise [ ] You used me [ ] You knew how much I love you [ ] And moved into my heart [ ] Not paying rent [ ] Not paying your part [ ] Leaving without a note [ ] Just drifting away, like the ghost you've left of me [ ] Knowing I’d still be here [ ] Waiting your return [ ] Your own little boomerang [ ] you could throw away and it would still come back [ ] Even if you didnt plan on returning yourself. [ ] But here I am like forever and always [ ] A messy knot of yearning and resentment [ ] still standing [ ] still stupidly waiting [ ] Believing you'll explain it all [ ] Believing you'll start to care again [ ] Believing it was just in my head. [ ] Even though I know [ ] the only thing facing me [ ] is the echo of your footsteps [ ] walking away

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Nov 24, 2025

Nov 24, 2025 at 1:58 AM UTC

_moonbeam

Nothing but an echo

[ ] I’m tired of being a ghost [ ] in a story I helped build. [ ] Tired of calculating the empty space of your silence [ ] Having to relearn something i once knew [ ] Better than i knew myself. [ ] Having to reconnect a connection i thought was unbreakable. [ ] You pass me in hallways [ ] The ones where we once walked side by side [ ] Laughing with each other knowing we had one another [ ] But like light you’ve now decided [ ] not to shine in on me anymore, [ ] and I pretend I don’t notice [ ] the way you smile at me as if I was just an acquaintance [ ] As if you dont have a dedicated blanket at my house. [ ] You barely glance in my direction anymore [ ] When you do its pitiful [ ] It's the look you give to strangers [ ] The acknowledgement of existence look [ ] As if we didn't exist together mere months ago. [ ] I keep telling myself [ ] He’s going through something [ ] If you're not yourself, not even with me there’s a reason, [ ] There’s some shadow you’re wrestling, [ ] Some storm you swallowed [ ] but even storms look at the ocean [ ] before they tear it apart. [ ] If I knew what kind of storm you were facing, I would’ve armed myself too, [ ] not to save me [ ] but to stand in it with you. [ ] I didn’t think It could get like this [ ] That it would ever be this bad. [ ] I’ve held my breath for you so many times [ ] that I forget what it feels like to fill my lungs [ ] with anything that isn’t fear [ ] I forget what it’s like to not be afraid of losing you. [ ] The volume in my head is louder than my words could ever get [ ] You dont even bother to mutter a hello [ ] But the absence of your voice [ ] Leaves a lasting coldness [ ] And is louder than anything you've ever said. [ ] I have loved you with more love than i had to give, [ ] I have never left your side, always reminding you im here [ ] and yet somehow [ ] that became the very thing [ ] you chose to step away from. [ ] Out of all the things to be afraid of [ ] People fear love [ ] And you've proven that here [ ] And that’s what i hate most [ ] I hate how even if you didn't realise [ ] You used me [ ] You knew how much I love you [ ] And moved into my heart [ ] Not paying rent [ ] Not paying your part [ ] Leaving without a note [ ] Just drifting away, like the ghost you've left of me [ ] Knowing I’d still be here [ ] Waiting your return [ ] Your own little boomerang [ ] you could throw away and it would still come back [ ] Even if you didnt plan on returning yourself. [ ] But here I am like forever and always [ ] A messy knot of yearning and resentment [ ] still standing [ ] still stupidly waiting [ ] Believing you'll explain it all [ ] Believing you'll start to care again [ ] Believing it was just in my head. [ ] Even though I know [ ] the only thing facing me [ ] is the echo of your footsteps [ ] walking away

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[ ] I know it's not me [ ] Never has been [ ] Never will be [ ] Yet every time you pull me closer [ ] Press me to your heart [ ] I think for just a moment [ ] You might feel the same way [ ] It's a foolish thought, I know [ ] But I can’t help but think it [ ] When I'm lying next to you [ ] Our bodies pressed together [ ] Feeling each other's warmth [ ] Our heartbeats slow down [ ] The world fades away [ ] And you begin to feel like home [ ]You deny the rumours [ ] Say "We're just good friends" [ ] Yet I leave wrapped in the ghost of your cologne, a scent that lingers longer than you ever will [ ] Your absence makes itself known before you even go, but your gaze never lets me leave [ ] Our eyes hold stares deep upon each other's souls [ ] In the quiet, we shift closer, like our bodies know what we won't say [ ] Like our knees have magnets in them, that always gravitate [ ]And don't like to separate [ ] But you still say it doesn't mean anything [ ] I love you [ ] And I know you love me too [ ] But you don't know that I love you in a different way [ ] Because I don't think you feel the same [ ] And I don't think you ever will [ ] So I'll hold you close in the moment [ ] Dare not whisper what my heart deeply feels [ ] You say i love you [ ]" I love you more "I love you most" [ ] But the diffrnece between you and I is you mean it platonically [ ] It's not just a friendship to me, though that's what it seems [ ] Even if you don't understand [ ] When I say those words, my heart beats with a love that's silent but real [ ] So when I say "I love you most," its me telling you how i secretly feel

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Mar 27, 2025

Mar 27, 2025 at 8:31 AM UTC

_moonbeam

Always love you more

[ ] I know it's not me [ ] Never has been [ ] Never will be [ ] Yet every time you pull me closer [ ] Press me to your heart [ ] I think for just a moment [ ] You might feel the same way [ ] It's a foolish thought, I know [ ] But I can’t help but think it [ ] When I'm lying next to you [ ] Our bodies pressed together [ ] Feeling each other's warmth [ ] Our heartbeats slow down [ ] The world fades away [ ] And you begin to feel like home [ ]You deny the rumours [ ] Say "We're just good friends" [ ] Yet I leave wrapped in the ghost of your cologne, a scent that lingers longer than you ever will [ ] Your absence makes itself known before you even go, but your gaze never lets me leave [ ] Our eyes hold stares deep upon each other's souls [ ] In the quiet, we shift closer, like our bodies know what we won't say [ ] Like our knees have magnets in them, that always gravitate [ ]And don't like to separate [ ] But you still say it doesn't mean anything [ ] I love you [ ] And I know you love me too [ ] But you don't know that I love you in a different way [ ] Because I don't think you feel the same [ ] And I don't think you ever will [ ] So I'll hold you close in the moment [ ] Dare not whisper what my heart deeply feels [ ] You say i love you [ ]" I love you more "I love you most" [ ] But the diffrnece between you and I is you mean it platonically [ ] It's not just a friendship to me, though that's what it seems [ ] Even if you don't understand [ ] When I say those words, my heart beats with a love that's silent but real [ ] So when I say "I love you most," its me telling you how i secretly feel

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You are complex You are not all you seem to be I thought I knew you But you're a mystery to me You are complex You have layers and layers of truths That I cannot seem to get through You are a mystery to me You are complex I've spent hundreds of days Trying to figure you out But you hide so well You are a mystery to me You are complex But I digress Maybe that is your simplicity That's my final guess You are complex And that is how I rest

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May 23, 2017

May 23, 2017 at 7:22 AM UTC

serendipity-lee-1

You are complex

You are complex You are not all you seem to be I thought I knew you But you're a mystery to me You are complex You have layers and layers of truths That I cannot seem to get through You are a mystery to me You are complex I've spent hundreds of days Trying to figure you out But you hide so well You are a mystery to me You are complex But I digress Maybe that is your simplicity That's my final guess You are complex And that is how I rest

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