#bottledfeelings
Have You Ever-
felt the blazing sun too hot, it ****** your skin?
then, suddenly, falls a downpour of raindrops so thin.
Have you ever
seen steam rise from hot surfaces doused by the rain?
have your hands, ever
let go of a hot plate, or a hot pan due to burns and pain?
Have you ever
stopped to think and wonder
why...........why
when so inspired
your flow of rhymes
in midstream, suddenly dies?
Have you ever
reached that point, where
the minutes, hours,
days, weeks, months of each year,
where...every breath you take,
is wasted waiting? And for your sake,
every drop of patience...you manage to imbibe,
and then you fight, every struggling second in your life.
Have you ever felt.....a brokenness
a spreading...widening blackness?
numbed you in the heat; in the cold, you almost froze
your lips do bleed...but no one sees, til they're too close
because, you cover them with bright colors...for show
you bear no signs of belligerence
your pained moans and screams of resistance,
............................fall,
and get lost in a dark abyss...a huge hole
...you open your mouth...
and, like a wind that howls....you shout,
in that immeasurable depth, your voice glows, like embers,
yet, nobody knows...it's you, who always remembers.
You, are soaking wet...tap water continues to pour
bath tub overfills with stained, pained water all over the floor
the anesthetized edges of your brokenness, now cooled...softened,
go down the drain, and there, they get to be unfettered,
they flow out of your system, these bottled feelings;
even a brief moment of break...of freedom,
should be appreciated...
Have you ever thought of gratitude?
Sally
Copyright May 21, 2016
Rosalia Rosario A. Bayan
May 21, 2016
May 21, 2016 at 10:52 PM UTC
It just starts with another painful cough
And then my head really begins to spin.
It reminded me of how much I'm closed off
And how I keep my feelings bottled in.
It seems as if I push people away
Like they are forbidden fruit from the tree.
But really, I want them to stay.
I want them to stand side by side with me.
I want to be independent and brave.
I can't. I just need someone else to blame.
Yet, it is still your comfort that I crave
Although, you do not even know my name.
Always being alone is what makes me scared.
Day after day, I wished that you cared
Jun 24, 2014
Jun 24, 2014 at 12:41 AM UTC