#bolter
She'll always run far away-
It'll look like a well-planned coup,
Because that's what a bolter will always do,
You know, she gets on her knees and pretends to pray.
While she stays,
She'll do it all, fall in love, fall behind, make mistakes-
leave such a disastrous trail in her wake.
She should know better,
See clearer,
You'll soon learn-
you cannot fix some girl who doesn't want to get better.
Lost alone in the woods,
She patches her own wounds-
wishing it would end for good,
Thinking of her smoked-filled afternoons.
You'll despise, disown and loathe her for the time being,
Just like the others who've crossed her path-
they'll all nod, agreeing,
"Her heart must be black!"
They won't ever understand-
Life has spoken to her, rather rudely.
You'll beg for the earth to suffocate her,
While she's crying for the sky to give her wings-
make her land on a forgiving planet,
Where only traitors get to hear the bell who rings-
where bolters can't hurt-
where crumbling souls aren't martyrs-
where the locked gates only open for tired monsters.
Dec 19, 2025
Dec 19, 2025 at 12:57 AM UTC
First came the pioneer
Who’s first glance preceded
Any other aspect of hers
She thought was needed
So she came short
Of wit and of strength
Which she had, but had left
And put her life at arm’s length
Next came the savant
Who’s past bore her soul
Her lion’s den rose above
And claimed her whole
She could all but escape
The temor it left
Which made the trail
That lay her to rest
Third came the loyalist
Dismissed as an outcast
Yet she found a place
Amongst the other Three fast
But it wasn’t enough
To keep up
So her way was made crawling
Fruitfully but deficiently
Last came the dreamer
Denominated rash yet elegiac
She wasn’t the cub expected
For they were frankly a fallback
Born to diligence and discipline
But turned to hiraeth and lies
She sought out the moon
The stars, the seas and the sky
She took her time to raise her flesh
And examine stories beneath
Of what could’ve been, what could be
If only she escaped the heath
That was what the Four planned to do
Yet outside came out only Two
And the One who best survived
Was the one who didn’t let her life
Deprive her of what could’ve been
Power erupting from her skin
She wrapped a hand around it’s wrist
And let go.
It took the fury of years
Blood, sweat and tears
To escape the heath
And the years left that lay beneath
If she weren’t to leave
If she were to grieve
The loss of her future history
And find defeat in victory
Then would her flame still flicker?
My doubt gets thicker
She isn’t a poet, merely a girl
Unable to find her place in that world
And as she recalled a wise woman saying
‘There’s escape in escaping’
Aug 11, 2025
Aug 11, 2025 at 2:36 PM UTC