It was suppose to be a happy occasion,
I heard

A proud moment 
I understood
For every soul linked to me 

But I felt the opposite 

Felt ashamed

Walking around

Limping,staggering
 
You could see from miles a way

I was deplicted in every sense

I was a coward I couldn't take the easy way out 

So I bleed myself out in a noble way 

A way that would allow another being a chance to live 

And grant me more suffering 

Maybe if I'm lucky my heart might decide to tap out

And I'll get to smile.