#bidyke - Hello Poetry

i accidentally came out as gay when i was only 6 years old cuz i acknowledged feelings for my best friend who was a girl. a teacher knelt beside us and told me my feelings were wrong. (BUT HOW CAN FEELINGS BE WRONG IF I FEEL THEM?) i anxiously came out as bisexual when i was 12 years old. and was met with the same words i'd been dreading to hear again: my feelings were wrong. "you'll grow out of it”, my mother said. (WELL I HAVEN'T SO FAR HAVE I?) i defiantly come out as a (bi) lesbian now at 22 years old. it’s a long time coming, long overdue. i am a bi **** thru and thru. and i’ve never felt more right. (I’M TIRED OF HIDING MYSELF FOR YOUR SAKE.)

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Aug 22, 2020

Aug 22, 2020 at 1:12 AM UTC

pupnoggin

Byke (1/3)

i accidentally came out as gay when i was only 6 years old cuz i acknowledged feelings for my best friend who was a girl. a teacher knelt beside us and told me my feelings were wrong. (BUT HOW CAN FEELINGS BE WRONG IF I FEEL THEM?) i anxiously came out as bisexual when i was 12 years old. and was met with the same words i'd been dreading to hear again: my feelings were wrong. "you'll grow out of it”, my mother said. (WELL I HAVEN'T SO FAR HAVE I?) i defiantly come out as a (bi) lesbian now at 22 years old. it’s a long time coming, long overdue. i am a bi **** thru and thru. and i’ve never felt more right. (I’M TIRED OF HIDING MYSELF FOR YOUR SAKE.)

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it took me almost two decades to realize if i try to live by the standards of others i(t)’ll never be enough. leaving behind the agony of perception. embracing this idea of ‘contradiction’ cuz really, nothing is more confusing than having to hide this big a piece of yourself. "i am not just bisexual i am a lesbian i am not just a lesbian i am a bisexual lesbian. i have had love for a woman deeper than for any man. i desire a woman to be my partner in life. i love women. i am a lesbian. i have loved men. i have sought love where it offered itself. today i choose to choose a woman. i love women. i am a lesbian. and too i am bisexual in my history in my capacity in my fantasies in my abilities in my love for beautiful people regardless of gender. i have the right to claim my lesbianism and my bisexuality even if it confuses you." it’s taken me too long; too many years and forced feelings to let myself be shoved back into your neat, little boxes of simple binarism. there is nothing simple about being a trans ****

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Aug 22, 2020

Aug 22, 2020 at 1:13 AM UTC

pupnoggin

Byke (2/3)

it took me almost two decades to realize if i try to live by the standards of others i(t)’ll never be enough. leaving behind the agony of perception. embracing this idea of ‘contradiction’ cuz really, nothing is more confusing than having to hide this big a piece of yourself. "i am not just bisexual i am a lesbian i am not just a lesbian i am a bisexual lesbian. i have had love for a woman deeper than for any man. i desire a woman to be my partner in life. i love women. i am a lesbian. i have loved men. i have sought love where it offered itself. today i choose to choose a woman. i love women. i am a lesbian. and too i am bisexual in my history in my capacity in my fantasies in my abilities in my love for beautiful people regardless of gender. i have the right to claim my lesbianism and my bisexuality even if it confuses you." it’s taken me too long; too many years and forced feelings to let myself be shoved back into your neat, little boxes of simple binarism. there is nothing simple about being a trans ****

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i am not a woman. but my time in the shadows has taught me how best to love them. yes, i have loved others but my capacity for loving women is unmatchable. years of denial, turns to regret- fueled yearning for a love ‘unattainable’ until now. what a gift it is to love and be loved by a woman.

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Aug 22, 2020

Aug 22, 2020 at 1:13 AM UTC

pupnoggin

Byke (3/3)

i am not a woman. but my time in the shadows has taught me how best to love them. yes, i have loved others but my capacity for loving women is unmatchable. years of denial, turns to regret- fueled yearning for a love ‘unattainable’ until now. what a gift it is to love and be loved by a woman.

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