#bending
As people, we bend and we break,
more often than not for the sake
of another.
There’s a reason why bending comes
first,
like the river trailing down to the lake
on a late
summer
night.
The same path winding,
splitting,
running,
flowing,
rushing
in the other direction.
Bending; it bends, twists and curves
all the way.
From one side of the planet
to the other;
break of day.
And I thought lighthouses were
made to stop ships from
sinking.
But the stars and moon are
blinding me
and I can’t see a single thing.
So I just keep on drowning,
drowning,
drowning
in a polluted sea.
The lingering ash and dust
on my fingertips is washed
away by the water.
Yet when I try to resurface,
all I smell and see,
is copper.
Don’t paint my body
with the same shade of black
that everyone else has.
I know it’ll get washed away
by the current.
But I still feel it,
stuck to the strands of my hair
and covering my back.
I’ve studied all these maps
from people who’ve studied water bodies:
how they form,
how they stay,
how they deform,
how they carry
the force of the wind
and the load of a ship;
the ferocity of the beast,
feral as I can be within.
Rippling waves of murky water still reflect
the image of my face.
So at least,
all this bending and breaking
hasn’t gone to waste.
May 12
May 12, 2026 at 7:46 AM UTC
Storm clouds gather fast,
Winds howl, bending ancient trees,
Strength in nature's grasp.
Jan 28, 2025
Jan 28, 2025 at 6:09 AM UTC
Graceful, flowing
Yielding, bending
Growth and movement never ending
Moments living
Joy surpassing
Rhythms, seasons, everlasting
Mind awaking
Harvest taking
Every day a memory making
Good creating
My truth stating
My wealth flows without abating
Aug 14, 2020
Aug 14, 2020 at 9:31 AM UTC
It feels like particles are peeling apart
Connecting
Separating as they please
There is undeniable space growing in my heart
Observable to who peeks and sees
Fate to blame I have no doubt
Touching tears that won't mend
Beneath skin circuits start to short-out
Barriers between emotions blur and blend
Real is rare so bare all imperfections
Fake the majority of what others share
Everywhere I go is overdissection
Judgement is blatantly unfair
Which only adds to distress
Taken without one sound
Cork up inconvenient emotions unless
They overflow
Then I'm drowned
You cannot imagine what it's like
Kills self-esteem to reflect
Each time negativity strikes
Is impossible to correct
Bottle after bottle emerges emptied
Sink in a sea of distraction
Forever smoky air will not recede
Chilly dreams prevent satisfaction
None of our dreams visible anymore
What are we doing wrong?
Many bad decisions
Too many to ignore
I guess failure's where we belong
We will never be proud living like this
We are in darkness's constant shadow
Sins overtake any chance we have at bliss
Dragging troubles in tow
Trust we will be able to grow
Takes years to heal wounds deep
Bridges over teardrops that flow
Seconds wasted we could not keep
To conclude
Retain a sliver of hope
Though happiness may be lost
I build and maintain ways to cope
Stay warm amidst the permanent frost
Apr 24, 2020
Apr 24, 2020 at 7:31 PM UTC
See a crystal blue stream
Flowing through green trees
And tumbling over mossy stones
See the bright sparkling gleam
And hear the light breeze
Blowing leaves in musical tones
In your mind
Become the stream
Yielding and bending
Rhythm with no ending
Relax and breathe
Let go and flow
You are always giving
Power to all living
This crystal blue stream
Remains a symbol for you
A stream of prosperity
To last your life through
Dec 19, 2019
Dec 19, 2019 at 1:19 PM UTC
I am not very good at saying no to people,
or at being firm and direct with my patients at work.
I am soft and mandible.
I tend to let people take advantage of me.
My physical therapist says the people with the most problems
with their hips and backs are
the ones that can
hardly bend at all or
that can
bend too much.
I am too flexible.
So much so that it is hurting me.
I fold and I fold and I fold
in on myself like origami and
I let people do whatever they want.
I can't remember if I've always been this way or not.
Maybe it depends on how you look at it:
The woman in the casket could either be sleeping or dead. She could either be a stranger or my mother. This could either be the bright, multi-color, kaleidoscopic shapes I see when I rub my eyes a bit too hard for a bit too long, or it could be the dull, grey morgue her body was wheeled down to after they tied the tag around her toe and zipped her into a white bag. This could either hurt a lot or a little. It depends on how much you let in. How willing you are to bend to the emotional blow. I could either stop writing about this or keep going, but it's been, what, nine years now, and I haven't been able to stop yet—
only able to bend and
bend
and
bend
and
Nov 13, 2018
Nov 13, 2018 at 2:46 PM UTC
Some days the wind blows
and bends yonder willow
Its roots hold sway
perched high upon
steep sea cliff walls
No gale could affix
a bow to such a limber
heartwood backbone
Wind arched echoes
undulate to and fro
alike a gentle restoration;
a resilience unrenowned
It looks as if it takes
the skies weight so lightly,
while the rising waves
gather an unhallowed chill
fomenting untamed
at the heart of the prevailing
westerly swell
A human tends to lean rigidity
right up to the yonder most edge,
a thin line threshold
a step away ―
pushed by a moment's gravity;
a blind jump over a cliff
into an unfathomable deep ocean
far beyond
a forgiving
willow's bend
Jesse Stillwater ... 09 May 2018
May 10, 2018
May 10, 2018 at 12:37 PM UTC
do you know nothing of obeying your roots
and not going wherever the wind blows
instead
setting standards and restricting movements with the wind
to show just how bending
is more truthful
than breaking .
Mar 15, 2018
Mar 15, 2018 at 9:23 AM UTC
Even the stars are doing yoga.
Nothing has always done it,
bending into space.
This evening found me stoking
the fire,
warming by breath alone.
People are such cold little stoves.
Above the sound,
**** and give of ocean,
I heard Ariel sing.
Sep 30, 2016
Sep 30, 2016 at 9:13 AM UTC
Each winter it happens again,
deepening its way into my bones.
Light, lengthening the days, even as
cold plummets to colder.
Gentle, promising colour of sun in
an angle that warms the wall.
Sneaking up from behind to give
heat to my back, you were paler,
even unavailable, until today.
Jan 21, 2016
Jan 21, 2016 at 10:10 PM UTC
I dare not say I am one thing
For fear it might be true
Mindset is the truth in all
Bending mind can bend reality
Still, it’s known that acknowledgement
Is most necessary for fulfillment
The first step to saving the world
Is knowing that it must be
But, in agony, I wait
When should I know? Be certain?
Decide?
If at all, for whom, and why?
Do I want to know if I exist?
Perceive accurately or not at all?
Do I want to know whether he loves me
And for what, but must I know?
Seeing or perceiving
Which do I choose in my life
Happiness is all I seek
But is it fake or not
Aug 22, 2014
Aug 22, 2014 at 11:06 PM UTC
I get the crust and the gristle of a thistle once a missile shooting out into the sky and I cry, wonder why. Never sure what I feel for the meal of a deal and then words more like air slip the breeze in my hair, butterflies in the skies killing what kept my alive. Oh too bad, well how sad, if the songs last lines din't matter it'd harm, it'd make the soul so very mad. Here I fall, there I stand like a robot dancing to the tunes. It's demand. Hear I laugh, hear I cry. I hear the screams and feel the burn, so why? Why unsure, of what's telling me my life is so impure. Threatened heart, from the strings that wrap it, tearing it apart. Feel the clench of a bundle of what you yourself have drench and so benched. And you threw to me the horror show, I never so have thought would reckon me to be. I, to be, it's master and it's longing family, here I cry. Hear "I" cry. For I exist in heart, but never, not in mind. There I stand once again as a memory of all that I pretend. If I tried, to be real, the pieces fall apart inside. So I hide, then I quiver and I shake as 'me' is inside. I can touch to the shelter covered in the unbelieving, underachieving to be who I know I am to be. Or at least what you see. I crush the old me and start anew, though I grew. I, immortal to myself have stomped the true. And I become something greater than simple little shrew. Do not lie! For I see with one eye, the look through me. What you see is a host, not the ghost, that lives on. "Awh, look at me. I'm so strong!" Laugh along. Child there. Where? Oops, forgot to care. Now I stare, towards the end that's never ending like this script. Never ending. Twist and bending. Don't kid me, I'm no kid. I'm the body of a youth, but I am dead. I've destroyed myself, if others didn't do a perfect job. Hold up stop! I'm letting go, a bubble that will pop. It will burst, destroying me, if it doesn't **** me first. Here I stand. Hear I cry. There I go. I have died.
May 6, 2014
May 6, 2014 at 1:09 PM UTC
What's given
Can be taken
Life constantly mending
The rules that are continually bending
Our troubles from alarm
From people trained to bring harm
Now do we live to love
Find ways to rise above
Or cave into
The things we think we'd never do
Lose the things we came to be
Never knowing what we could truly see
Rough patches through the dark
Even though we've all been given an ark
Some choose to live that path
Living in a continual blood bath
Using hate to make us feel provin
Living a life that's not worth livin
It's easy to just give up
And get obsession and disrupt
But I beg of me come away
To shine on and shine today
I beg of you to do the same
Do not let the darkness bring you shame
Move through life with a great light
Something that will eventually shine bright
I know it's hard when dark destroys
Trying to fool you with all it's mental ploys
But your are strong
You'll learn to prove life wrong
Or maybe right
Cause life could be bright
I say to you with great haste
make sure to go out and give life a taste
Cause it's worth the time
do not commit the crime
Stop abandoning your morals
And begain to remove your quarrels
Life will transcend
It's only around the bend
Don't give up I beg of you
They say couple people make it only a few
But I believe if we all really tried
That everyone will make it before they all have gone and died
So I say to you be the ones who tried
And give up the you who once lied
Apr 7, 2014
Apr 7, 2014 at 9:35 PM UTC