#beingseen
I see you there,
Standing nervously.
I see your hair blowing in the wind,
The smile on your face.
I see you playing with your hands,
The softness of your skin.
I see your beautiful chocolate eyes,
Looking all around.
I see you reach for my hand,
we're both so cold.
I see your scars,
I have them too.
I see all of you.
6d ago
May 28, 2026 at 5:23 PM UTC
It’s funny how a single moment can unravel an entire night.
You see someone you once thought "maybe",
standing close to someone else—
laughing, softer than you’ve ever seen them,
existing in a version of reality
you were never invited into.
And suddenly, it’s not about them anymore.
It becomes about you.
About all the times you were "almost",
but never quite chosen.
About how easy it is for you
to become “safe,”
“understanding,”
“brother.”
About how you can read everyone so well,
yet fail to rewrite your own place
in their story.
This piece comes from that strange space
between clarity and collapse
where you understand everything logically,
but still feel something breaking quietly inside.
Where you can explain everyone’s behavior,
justify every situation,
and still sit with a heaviness
you can’t name.
Maybe it’s not rejection.
Maybe it’s the weight of always being the one
who adapts,
who gives,
who understands
but rarely the one
someone leans toward.
If you’ve ever walked away from a crowd
just to breathe,
just to hold yourself together,
just to make sense of why it hurts
when technically, nothing is wrong
this one is for you.
Apr 16
Apr 16, 2026 at 3:39 AM UTC
I didn’t disappear.
I just stopped announcing myself.
I stayed close enough to be seen
if anyone bothered to look —
left small signs behind,
nothing dramatic,
nothing that would make a scene.
Scuffed edges.
Uneven ground.
Places where I slowed down
more than I should have.
If you see them,
do you recognize them as mine?
Or do they blur into the background
with everything else people step over?
I learned how to be present
without taking up space,
how to hurt quietly,
how to survive without interrupting.
So yes —
I’m here.
The marks are subtle on purpose.
I didn’t want to beg.
I didn’t want to be inconvenient.
I just wanted to know
if noticing me
would ever be enough.
Because being found
isn’t the same as being chosen.
And being seen
doesn’t mean being cared for.
So if you’re following the trail,
tell me —
are you just curious?
Or do you actually intend
to stop
when you reach me?
Mar 30
Mar 30, 2026 at 8:01 PM UTC
you told me you didn't understand
my poems
you didn't get them
but you watched me go on stage
take a deep breath
and breathe life to them through a mic
you smiled and said you're there
for me
and me only
you forgot to take a picture
till the last minute
because your eyes were on me
when did you stop looking?
was it the moment I looked back?
was it the moment I held you?
was it the moment I started to love you?
or was it the moment I chose you.
I think
I can remember
when you stopped looking
because I felt it
and
now you're just another person I've written a poem about.
Aug 27, 2025
Aug 27, 2025 at 10:20 AM UTC
quite a few severe misconceptions
hey! seriously, that's how you can summarize my life for me!
beyond the glitter, the actual bones of the beast
ugly, somehow disgusting, but they make me up, me.
i sometimes wonder, if i could be poetry
perhaps? – actually we'll scratch that.
i will be overlooked, as this usually is.
will you still write me?
no, i don't want you to write to me
or write on me – though i wouldn't mind
if i could carry it everywhere i'm ought to be.
but still –
write me. write about me.
all that i am, all that i could ever be.
there's multiple, many – oh god, a vast multitude
that i wish to talk about to any.
literally, whoever bothers to listen – and to see.
well, mainly to see, to not go over just once
and simply forget me.
i feel like – i might be a pathological liar
and a people pleaser.
but is it too wrong? wanting to be seen?
and not just as a trophy you can bag anytime,
or a passing moment, when life has you bored in its rhyme,
or even worse – someone just for the pleasure.
will you notice me?
heed to my voice and all that resides within me?
you know what. i think this was enough of 'me'.
the "almost" kind of hurts, you know.
it's always been just that.
at least for me, that's where my clock stops.
i hear about how you like me,
hear about how you want to try it out on me –
why is it always, "the almost of us"
with you & i and i & them?
why does it always have to end?
(even before it has began)
perhaps i indeed am that one tale,
kind of like the midnight rain.
they say they do cherish my existence –
but they never stay up, at least in most cases,
or bother to listen.
i can't focus, or give you my all –
i know that's a flaw at my side.
one that i wish i didn't have to follow like a rule,
settled in the hymns of my body and my life.
this, to the "almost of us" –
why do you always just... give up?
leaving me halfway,
like i'm not even worth the wait.
never did you want to know, maybe,
what really lies at the end of this race.
(will you regret, if i were to say, there weren't a lot of opponents for you to go against, per se?)
being wanted is what i've required –
to be asked for, to be known,
to be understood, not to be shown.
i hear about it in the books
and in the movies and different tales of the hues
of others’ vastly nerving stories –
how when someone likes you,
it lights up this part of you
that almost resembles the feeling of being desired – finally!
contrast is jarring though.
i see you, realize – wow, you see me too?
and yet almost always –
almost wanted, almost pursued, almost something.
and then a beautifully cherished, salty little nothing.
am i really not enough?
or did i do something wrong?
i did pay heed to your existence
even though i might have missed my own.
the unspoken loss –
one that i didn't require.
you know it hollowed me out a bit.
oh, who am i kidding –
it took all of me from me.
maybe you too liked the idea of me,
and not who’s real.
i know it is kinda messy.
at least that's how it's always been with me.
i have always had a habit
to press on those tiny little bruises –
so soft in nature, hurt a bit.
just always the right way, they hit.
i didn't even ask for you or them.
and yet –
the way you fumbled
and had me finding the sweet little nothings.
sigh, i guess i'll just admit
i want to be chosen.
there. the truth out for the world to see.
(i'll hide it to my death and never let you close to me)
i wish you'd pursued me with intention –
and not always the almost trying
only to give up before the trying even came close.
it left me crying, you know.
it's always – the spark that they leave.
never enough to light up a fire.
and then they find flaws within me.
why am i attacked, i wonder?
all i wanted was some real connection.
what of it when i scream
for all those who hear –
you have no right to drop bread crumbs
and leave me to clean them up.
i won't, as i never have.
but please, just once – notice me.
and don't treat me like an ant
like you did to others whom you've had.
everything's worth trying,
one way or the other.
everything's got a fruit waiting –
if you're willing to not just give up.
i ain't just shallow –
feel too deep.
trust me, this isn't something i've wanted.
yet you leave me with the same question,
as they always do –
why am i the one hurting,
when i didn't even ask for anything, or specifically you?
sometimes i'm afraid –
what if i'm being the particular "pick me"?
but i promise to never show vulnerabilities,
even though i speak a lot.
you might call me arrogant,
but all i've done is exist
and ask for something in return –
to cover all that i am,
all behind the makeup on the bruises of my existence.
too much, too cold, too confusing –
i ain't any of those.
but i wonder if i'm worth choosing.
some say i'm that poem
someone doesn't know they remembered
and made memories with until it's too late.
is it too petty of me
to give you such chances and options
again and again?
what's hard to digest though –
is here, the truth written in the blood of my pain,
and all the cuts that you've given me to aid.
they will forever look at me in a particular way –
and half of them who heed to me,
it'll be because they require the things
they need from the kind of me.
never has anyone asked me the questions
i wanted them to ask –
like things that shaped me,
or the ones i liked truly.
the ones i'd love, to be honest,
if it's with someone who stays.
i'd want to be with them throughout
and share those little eye contacts and loving stares.
i need depth.
want to be asked, not just seen.
maybe again, i'm asking for too much.
please forgive me.
i wore the sun for you –
yet you chose the rain.
the same rain i used to be,
but it was one during the day
and not the midnights like i usually erupted.
too much for you to handle.
i wish you'd accepted.
needed no spotlight – just some care.
someone to notice, someone to lend a shoulder.
yet left behind, almost always.
but what can i even say
when it's always been – "the almost of us."
i'll withdraw in silence,
just to be looked at the same way as any other.
might be complex, chaotic – miserly at times,
what if you indeed realize
i'm just barely anything, not even like any other?
is there any place anywhere
where i can fit –
where i belong the most?
perhaps not, perhaps the answer's a never
but i wish you'd loved and chosen me – at least once
just so for once i could feel something
other than just always being the ghost.
May 25, 2025
May 25, 2025 at 11:36 AM UTC