#beeb
I know I must sound like a record
With a scratch in the wrong place
Sk sk ski skipping but st st sta staying
On the same line
But I miss my best friend
And I could really use a friend always
Isn't that what we all want
I had a Bailey but I was mean
And she took herself away from me
Rightfully so but that doesn't make me
Less sad
And now I'm stuck here missing
My Miss Bailey Lee Ann something awful
I must be in deep **** with her
Because I can't confidently reach,out
Without fearing rejection and blocking
But Bailey
If you read this
Please know I love you
I miss you
And I wish you
Would come back
Aug 30, 2019
Aug 30, 2019 at 11:09 PM UTC
I know it's your favorite scent
Sometimes, especially lately, it's hard not to think about you
I want to reach out but I don't know how
And I'm scared you'll just push me away because I've chosen him
But people really do change as they grow up
I want to tell you all about my days all the time
Like two days ago when my brakes stopped working
As I was going downhill in the harbor
Oh I was so scared and I wanted to tell you
Or when I had my magical day at Rainier
But I know you'd be disappointed
I want to tell you the small things to
Like how I burnt the bacon and undercooked my pasta tonight
Or how I can't decide if I love pink or orange more
Or even how much I love that new CD
And crave hot cocoa all the time
I just miss your company but can't figure out how to tell you
And I wish I could be your dryer lint and cigarette ash again
Aug 26, 2019
Aug 26, 2019 at 11:47 PM UTC
If only there were an address I knew for you
Aug 26, 2019
Aug 26, 2019 at 2:07 AM UTC
I know I hurt you in the past with some things that I said and some behaviors I've had. I know you hate the person I've chosen to be with for the rest of time and I know the feeling is mutual. I know I hurt your heart with my ignorance and childish selfishness. I just want you to know that I'm sorry. I'm so sorry and I miss you. I wish we could be friends again. I tried to tell you happy birthday. And when he proposed I still wanted to tell you first. I want you to be part of all the big moments but I know how unlikely that is now. It's the reality I live in but I don't want to accept it. I'm sorry for behaving so recklessly and emotionally. I can't imagine how hard it must have been for you to watch as I threw myself back into terrible black holes. But I'm in a much better place now. We've all grown up. I'm sorry I was so despicable. I'm thankful though that you loved me through it all. I miss you. And I love you. But most importantly, I'm sorry Bailey. I hope you can forgive me.
Aug 26, 2019
Aug 26, 2019 at 1:31 AM UTC
To love her big fat piggy heart
It's almost impossible not to actually
She's so filled with life
And no regret
I sure love her
With my little igloo penguin heart
Jul 31, 2016
Jul 31, 2016 at 10:02 PM UTC
Always there for the
Beeb she cares for,
Coolcatcoolio and
**** well said so's.
Everyone stops to stare,
For she always walks and talks with flare.
Giant heart keeps her awake,
Holds on tight to loves she makes.
Insightful and delightful,
Justifiably spiteful.
Kinda naïve--
(Less than hard to believe).
Mean to no one but,
No one knows that much.
Only I know this trait,
People don't stick around and wait.
Quite a classy looking dork, with
Sarcasm galore.
Tingly feelings she gives
Underneath my skin.
Very nostalgic
With every moment.
eXciting and fun,
You know she's the one.
Zany and brainy and bright as the sun.
This is her,
to me.
Jul 31, 2016
Jul 31, 2016 at 8:57 PM UTC
Every single time
I am blessed
By the opportunity
To be in
The very same
Room as you
I am breathless
For a moment
Because how could
I not be
You are absolutely
Magnificent and wondrous
You are a
Never ending adventure
And really, genuinely,
I love you
You complete me
And I couldn't
Be any luckier
I couldn't have
Personally hand crafted
Any better sort
Of best friend
Jul 31, 2016
Jul 31, 2016 at 4:55 AM UTC
When you wish upon a star,
makes no difference who you are.
When you wish upon a star,
your dreams come true.
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A dream is a wish your heart makes
When you're fast asleep
In dreams you lose your heartache
Whatever you wish for, you keep
Have faith in your dreams and someday
Your rainbow will come smiling through
No matter how your heart is grieving
If you keep on believing
The dream that you wish will come true
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I know you,
I walked with you once upon a dream.
I know you,
the gleam in your eye is so familiar a gleam.
And I know it's true
that visions are seldom all they seem,
but if I know you
I know what you'll do--
you'll love me at once!
The way you did once
upon a dream
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"Can you keep a secret? Promise not to tell? We're at a wishing well!"
I'm wishing
(I'm wishing)
for my one true love
to find me
(to find me)
today
(today)
I'm hoping
(I'm hoping)
and I'm dreaming of
the nice things
(the nice things)
he'll say
(he'll say)
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Flippin' your fins you don't get too far,
legs are required for jumping, dancing!
Walking around on those--
"what's that word again?"
--street!
Up where they walk,
up where they run,
up where they stay all day in the sun!
Wandering free...
wish I could be...
part of your world
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Who is that girl I see,
staring straight, back at me?
Why is my reflection someone I don't know?
Somehow I cannot hide
who I am,
though I've tried.
When will my reflection show,
who I am...
inside?
Jul 30, 2016
Jul 30, 2016 at 2:01 AM UTC
Strictly platonic,
As you yourself have said
Even if people
Think we are dating
I love you
Jul 29, 2016
Jul 29, 2016 at 2:09 AM UTC
I wrote you a song in December
Maybe you'll see it someday
Jul 29, 2016
Jul 29, 2016 at 2:06 AM UTC
I will softly pull away
In this broken beautiful mess I've made
And in the dead and quiet I will slowly fade
In this masterpiece I made
I'll burn out and slip away
And this just a part I portray
You're beautiful, can I hide in you and stay here?
Making mostly to themselves
Hush now they'll hurt you till your heart melts
They know you're lonely
And they will only break your heart
And this masterpiece will tear you apart
I'll burn out and slip away
And this just a part I portray
You're beautiful,
Can I hide in you and stay here?
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 11:01 PM UTC
Breathlessly unaware of how entirely
Astounding your bodacious heart is
In all my years I never thought I'd find someone who
Listens so well and cares twice as much
Every single day like this
Yet here you are
Infinitely compassionate
Little did I know I'd be able to
Open up so much even though that
Very thought scared me into an
Egotistical state of mind
Yet you chose to save me from my
Old self and are making me
Uniquely whole
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 3:55 PM UTC
*You CAN'T be done with your life.
You chose to be my friend,
therefore you chose for your life to be intertwined with mine.
We're like those trees you see that were planted too close together,
so they grew into one.
If you fall,
I'll hold onto my end of our rope until I have the strength to pull you up,
or until I slip and fall too.
Love is such a finicky finding.
But once it's found,
and fits into your life,
you keep it forever.
Well,
you fit like a glove,
and as long as I don't give up, you don't.
I can promise you now that we're never giving up.*
Apr 29, 2016
Apr 29, 2016 at 1:38 AM UTC
Happy Birthday, my bucket of sarcastic sunshine.
My sassy baby, with so much love to give.
With the biggest heart around, always weighing you down.
May your sixteenth year of life be one of the best.
When nothing is right, but nothing is particularly wrong,
There is Samm, there to care.
When you need a lipstick encased enchantress to cheer you up,
There is Samm, there to care.
When no one will laugh at your stupid jokes,
There is Samm.
When you need to compare your life to T.V. shows,
There is Samm.
When I need something better than morning coffee--
Samm, always
When I want laughter from the prettiest of comedians--
Samm, always
When I gotta cry in class--
Samm, always
When it gets so bad we need to rent an actor--
Samm, always
When loving someone is all that needs to matter--
Samm, always
Samm is more than you think
Samm is more than you know
Samm is more to me than
anyone will ever be.
Samm, always.
Mar 21, 2016
Mar 21, 2016 at 4:42 AM UTC
This one time
I watched a special on T.V.
After the News.
This boy was epileptic
And the doctors took half of his brain out.
He was perfectly fine.
Just needed to practice using both hands and eyes.
I look around this school
And I see kids
Loving
With their brains.
My head swirls around
As they let go so easily.
Forget so, so easily.
Then,
My eyes land on you.
And your brain is fine
But
There is a big red stain on the front of your shirt.
I look down,
And there's a stain
On mine too.
The thing is,
It's easy to love with your brain
Because if you lose a part of it
You're okay.
But
People like us
Don't love with our brains.
We love with our hearts.
And sometimes they get cut up.
We have some band-aids but
We're still waiting
For stitches
From that one special
Person.
Until then
Sometimes our shirts get stained.
Yours, stained for him.
Mine, stained for you.
Apr 28, 2016
Apr 28, 2016 at 4:54 PM UTC
black as night
staining everything he touches
filling and damaging the lungs
of that minor miner girl
who was just trying
to find the diamonds within him
but what she didn't know
was that he had only one diamond
it was the minor miner girl
and he gave her away
so now she feels poor
but someday she'll see
that she is a rarity
dear minor miner girl
I am but a jewelry cleaner
but I love you always.
May 4, 2016
May 4, 2016 at 7:34 PM UTC
Just so you know, I kind of
-really-
adore you
.
Jun 6, 2016
Jun 6, 2016 at 1:33 AM UTC
You are a precious component to my life
Each day I see you,
Life feels a little more complete
And most the time I'm drowning
In my own self-devised riptide
Yet you always jump in to save me
Nothing I can do
Or say
Will ever be enough
To show you just how much
I truly love you
I have found platonic love
Of the forever variety
It all starts and ends with you
When I wake up in the morning
I am overwhelmed with luckiness
Knowing that whatever storm may come today
You are there beside me
And each night as I lay awake
On the cusp of sleep
Your name on my lips are the last words
I speak
I don't understand how I could be so blessed
To have someone like you
Love every ounce of me
No matter how many negative things I tell you
There is no doubt
In my mind our friendship could ever end
I've told everyone they are poetry
But you,
My sweet darling,
Are the most beautiful poetry of all
Maybe that's biased
But you inspire
You are the truest and best soul I've come to know
Really, you make me whole
You fill the voids I think I have
And sometimes I don't realize it
But I am ever so appreciative of you
My one true best friend
You, my sweet darling,
Are me
And I am
You
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 1:25 AM UTC
She's the angel by my side
warming me up like
the little dusty heater
from my childhood
with the white chipped paint flying
with every gust of lukewarm air.
She's my dryer lint and cigarette ash
that fills my nose and
in one swoop
scoops me up and sends me
on my back through
waves of subtle, glittery euphoria.
She's the disney-golden violin
in all my favorite songs
and movie moments
that make me feel sleepy shimmery
and inspired
to do great things with myself
and the innocent world.
She's the wet painting that I sit and watch dry,
I can't tear my eyes away from her because
I'm so astonished that
a few primary colors
could mix to make her in
all her swirling, glossy glory.
She's the past
in fruit-loops and
cartoon terms,
clad in hot pink memories,
black sequins and early 2000's.
She's the foreseeable future that I want--
have always wanted...
out the window there's
peaches and sunshine,
leaves on the grass,
and inside there's
a shiny, silver sink with
matching dishes in the basin.
She's the hug to my need,
the soft, concerned word to my tears,
the need that I love to hug,
the tears that I pat dry with
soft, concerned words.
She's the brick bridge
on her way to beautiful chapters filled with trees and I'm
the abutment that
watches each giddy step
with happy tears
in my blurry blue eyes.
She's the missing piece I need
to fill the shard-shaped hole
in my pinky-purple-orange
stained glass prophecy,
and I hope she doesn't mind
if I want to be with her
all the time.
She's the soul,
the glowing, pulsing, electric blue and
iridescent soul
surrounded by
a lean body and
brown eyes and
bifocals and
hair colors and
makeup and
clothes.
She's the cold rain on my
hot, emotional head
and she drips down my hair
slides to my forehead,
down my nose,
mixing with my overflowing tears from
my eyes acting as mirrors
to the purple lightning before me
and
she slowly runs down my chin,
calming me down with
controlled chaos.
She is the first flower I spot,
blinding white, long petals
in the corner of my vision
when my head is hung in defeat.
She is the second flower I watch
unfurl as I lift my head to see more
stretching and waking
from the dewy grass so
I stand and see more of her
rows of her,
billowy petals reflecting the morning sun.
She is the 60th flower I see
as the others lead my line of sight
up to a patch of light,
nearly six feet tall and
she is the flower I see
when she steps out in front of the sun
to reveal a smile
so pure and child-like,
that it surely grew every blade of grass
in the field that
I sink to my knees on
as I look up
at the blooming girl before me.
She is my friend,
my family,
my muse,
my love,
my beeb,
forever.
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 12:36 AM UTC
I'm a little ball of sadness
That gets happied up by you ray of light
You're a never-ending bubble of coot
That loves me and always finds my tail
I love my stick house you made
I'll pay you back in
Hunny pots and love
From my big fat heart
From the tips of my gloomy toes
To the tops of your little black rain cloud
Jul 27, 2016
Jul 27, 2016 at 12:21 AM UTC
I am a minor miner girl
Living in a go and get 'em world
We come in by the dozens
And I think you all know how this story goes
I try to please everyone around me
Forgetting what's important
And as we all know that isn't the best
I should use my mind more often
To guard my sooty heart
All you other minor miner girls know what I'm saying
But I love and I love and I love
Never stopping to think of the consequences
Sure to follow
I just dive in heart first hoping to not hit the ground
And minor miner girls you know it's true
We try so **** hard
And we always fall
Straight on through to the hellish pain that awaits
I'm sorry if I upset you
My dear fellow minor miner girls
But we need to grow up
And we need to exhibit some sort of conceit
Not to the point of egotism and bigotry
Just to the point of safety
To the point where we aren't always stepped on
And can roll in the Major Miner Girls league
I love you all
Because that's who I am
But as by unspoken and now finally written law
We minor miner girls abide by
I'm still learning to love myself
So minor miner girls
Raise your pickaxes and your shovels
Toss off your hardhats
Because we are about to rumble with
The world outside our mine
We will be
Major Miner Girls
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 11:45 AM UTC
As soon as we met
I finally knew what home
Was meant to feel like
Jul 25, 2016
Jul 25, 2016 at 11:31 AM UTC
Day without night
Is as pointless as
Me without you
Jul 15, 2016
Jul 15, 2016 at 2:54 AM UTC
Such a stereotypical title
But let's roll with it
Like a boat on the waves
Let's look at the horizon
And think about a future of us
It sounds so cliché
But it just sounds right
Like a little slice of heaven
In this earthbound hell
Where you and I
So similar yet different enough
To make life interesting
Where we dwell
Sunny sunny rainclouds
Hover above and below us
Like a roller coaster
But this whole thing between
Me and you
You and I
Let's make it last
Jul 15, 2016
Jul 15, 2016 at 2:03 AM UTC
Finally our two souls entwined properly
Right side up and
Inside in for a special
Eternity leading to the stay-up-all-
Nighters and the
Drag each other out of bed the morning to
Sing and **** about without worry but ready without
Hesitation to get serious and discuss
Intriguing and painful topics but always
Prepared to navigate life
Jul 15, 2016
Jul 15, 2016 at 1:23 AM UTC