#away
forgotten by the world
what a boon!
a life on the margins!
a life of seeming solitude
7d ago
May 27, 2026 at 7:06 AM UTC
The deed begun and the deed done,
a breath taken, and a breath released.
The work, writing, reading as we go.
No shame, no pressure, no debt.
Living long under the prosperity.
Not our own, no, our providence
answered faith of our previous
makers of ways where no way was
when white pages haunted open hearted
souls called to comfort motherless children,
unfeedable little lost souls told tales remember
Be ware what you think we mean, as us I mean,
we become whole new things, keyed with ancient
yeast and slime mold shapes of green oatmeal flow
like the golden oil running down Aarron's beard, ah
Chavad gotta a deal gotta say we getta witness, see
say you know this game, three cards, just three, see.
Pop chaos theoretical butterfly flap
of a wing among millions of wings
flapping subsonic whirs we hear
but by conditioning perceive
- the butterfly effect
- if believed unbelievable
- unbelieve it now,
- exhale, inhale, and think
we have all the time in the world
and electricity always on, or
could be so we know, borders
are imaginary bubble walls,
the earth as a system keeps itself,
the people as a whole have roles,
the worth of each single point, once
sine qua non, you knew the truth
and thus thought then freely, I am
a mental image of the truth life makes.
Winds return on their circuits,
as sounds in silence, deep
teenage wasteland topsoil lifts
away, frame the vision, make it
plain, word after word, logical as
as
as
as
yes, as logos itself, infancy
an
incunabuluman* nonage ex-empt-ion
say that five times on judgement day
matada
innocent self…
being presupposed
to be or become metamorphosed
from inexperienced to immediate
past tense confusing time with chance
considering the relative worth of an
innocent self… a me among men, amen
without spot or blemish, perfect babe,
infantile in all her unrhetted ignorance
inside the fog of war, holding flax at bay
break out fibers fine as Rapunzel's flaxen locks
first precious light in the day, shining out
from ivory skinned faces, woe, is us,
as we have never been so exposed
naked nonsense makers, but no, just me,
judging where I may imagine I must be,
in my morning ritual mediation caught up,
being in time flow, rolling along, singin'
my song, wrong, or right, you just
don't know, you just go, sparrow wise,
tweeting make believe at made believers.
*
Latin incunabula
"cradle, birthplace; rudiments or beginnings"
From <https://www.etymonline.com/search?q=infancy>
End part one, a poetic after shock from
Mike Makowsky's Death by Lightning
A four part series behind a Netflix paywall
not too hard to peer over these days…
I keep thinking you are paying attention
We keep thinking we lose our minds, no
we get to, relate to Charles J. Guiteau
and the odds of dying by constant lightning
we blow our bubbles of being to the extent
of now, on an orderly planet rewarding ment
enjoyment, an at it attitude, doing indeed a day.
What we can learn in an hour,
no mind born before 1940 could imagine.
May 25
May 25, 2026 at 1:11 PM UTC
Let the pieces fall into place
With the help of fate.
I have met my maker.
The end will come with no warning.
All alone in limbo, with no way out—
Will I ever be free?
Locked away, with feelings of being unseen,
Nothing is familiar, and yet I am with no other.
My maker has neglected me and locked my soul away.
The road I have paved has led me to believe I have fulfilled my own destiny.
Is this all from a self-fulfilling prophecy?
I have reaped what I have sown,
Stuck in limbo, all alone.
Apr 20
Apr 20, 2026 at 5:54 PM UTC
Are you living your dreams,
Or riding out the blues,
Is it a mixture of both,
Now one else would know,
The feelings & emotions,
That are inside of you.
Never compare your life to anyone,
We are each on a different path, and way,
Are you personally learning & trying new things,
Or you just repeating the same motions, every day,
If you’re always talking about, and watching others,
Over time, you’re letting, many days, of this life fade.
This life is to teach us, good and bad experiences,
That’s why some days, your down and blue,
How long you let it last, is totally up to you,
Be positive ,about your smallest accomplishments,
Have faith and confidence, in what you try, and do.
The Original: Tom Maxwell / poems © 10/24/2024 AD
Philosopher
Apr 5
Apr 5, 2026 at 4:11 AM UTC
rolling out of sleep-time
one small toss forward
three tosses backward.
Apr 1
Apr 1, 2026 at 8:49 AM UTC
Today while sitting on my Chair,
I do Remember:
The Time when we last met ,
That was a "Patio",
You told me that I am ******* you !
And just left me ........
I wish you had argued with me , fought with me .....
BUT not just left me, Like you did.
Now also ,I get goosebumps !
By having even a flashback of that day.
I wish, I would have stopped you.....................
Mar 26
Mar 26, 2026 at 11:27 AM UTC
I didn’t bc of the weight—
not really.
It was how we grew
in different directions,
how your silence met mine
and neither of us spoke.
People will say it was your body bc its
something easy to blame.
But truth is,
we just stopped fitting together
long before we walked away.
Mar 23
Mar 23, 2026 at 9:29 PM UTC
slaying unwanted thoughts
your kingdom for a horse
you can run but not hide
best be king of your mind.
Mar 19
Mar 19, 2026 at 6:53 AM UTC
We are on a path
Talking to my mom
,I don’t think I’ll be home for dinner’
I say
You look at me
Knowing
Knowing
Knowing
,It won’t be done for another hour’
Mother would reply
I try not to choke on my lungs
,We’re a two hour walk away. I don’t think I’ll be home for dinner.’
You walk ahead of me
Hands over ears
Pretending we are
Not lying
,… okay, I’ll see you soon then.’
Mother says. The phone ends with a click.
I see you turn, the click of the phone alerting you.
We do not talk
You look at me
Knowing
Seeing the vines around my arms
I look at you
Knowing
With the stars in your eyes
We mourn
For the life we
Walked away
From
But we have never been so free.
Mar 8
Mar 8, 2026 at 4:32 AM UTC
I don't think you hear a word I say
I'll blame it on distance
Pretend you're just catching up
Taking the long way
Admiring the view
I'll pretend it's enough
That it doesn't bother me
That it never hurts
But I know you're just a hiccup
You appear without warning
Make me hold my breath
Completely shake me up
Have me reaching for water
Choking you down
Swallowing with trust
And then you disappear
And I'm laughing it off
Like nothing happened
I never know when you'll return
If you're even gone
Could be days, could be months
And so I'm left waiting
Always waiting
Knowing I'll still hiccup.
Feb 26
Feb 26, 2026 at 6:19 PM UTC
I have to leave home for Higher Studies,
Now I am out of all homie activities.
I can't go back home, Whenever I desire;
Feeling sad about it , my soul burns like fire.
Everybody will miss me on festivals,
IT's Okay! I will manage with College Carnivals.
I know this College Stuff can't compete my homie festivals;
But what to do ?
Let it be...........
Let it be.................
Let it be.......................
Let me feel Left Out!
Feb 26
Feb 26, 2026 at 8:30 AM UTC
I used to walk the streets of 'jungle'
I never felt at home there (thank God)
So leaving was always in my mind
and thank God I left.
Feb 20
Feb 20, 2026 at 5:33 AM UTC
Little angel,
I hope you hear my heart.
For my memories are kept away,
Only to be torn apart.
Reminiscing out loud is like a pin dropping,
Awkward silence causing resentment.
I say your name so fluently in stories,
Dig myself holes for them to ask me how old?...
I have to explain your not here to hold.
Get that look of sympathy ,
Like living at a constant funeral.
Constant looks of sorrow,
Watch them all go.
As i try to grow,
And get your story told.
Keeping you alive,
Is my fight to be alive.
Feb 17
Feb 17, 2026 at 9:36 AM UTC
There is so much to say before we go,
Our separate ways
I thank you for seeing
I thank you for being
I thank you for coming into my life
It made me feel alive
In a moment it was gone
I have been torn
The intensity I felt, I could never tell
The love and devotion was my singular emotion
But at some point it needs to stop
Cause the irony of geometry is not lost
We are parallel lines
Hard to define
We will never stop walking but we can never unite
I will applaud you always from far away
And I promise there will always be space
I’ll keep you in my heart and throw the key away
I’ll return to you every now and then, maybe it will fade
In an alternative universe you and I would unite and be unstoppable and fight for each other and always be on the same side
In this life it isn’t meant to be, maybe we’ll meet again on the next flight.
I’ll love you always and keep the light
Feb 4
Feb 4, 2026 at 7:04 PM UTC
people on care about me
when I'm at my very lowest
so just
go.
Feb 4
Feb 4, 2026 at 12:49 PM UTC
all is gift
given away
given back
all is shared
Jan 30
Jan 30, 2026 at 9:00 AM UTC
far, far away lands, who peer behind the curtains of my words,
and stun me into the ponderous, absolute silence
of a snowfall deeply forested,
find meaning in my words
that confounds me
beyond belief,
appearing silently
like the quietude investitured
in a unique universe of e~falling
white grained uniquely shaped
snowflakes,
a blissful sounding that ironically cannot be heard, but be
only sensed through vision and tongued taste buds and
bare skin
such a snowfall blanks me au courant,
from a new place,
where I have never trod,
though my ancestors came from there
a century and a half
ago
and this symmetry surprises me….
I thought though,
my shadings are/were explicitly
hidden hintings,
that oft escape from me,
and escape from
even
me,
as my owned but unsensed
realizations
but as I observe the steady falling snow blanking the eastern entirety
of. these united states,
from Polska
come bytes of my soul,
returned to me,
mined from me,
explicated,
extracted,
from me
and I am
uncovered by them,
just as the inches of fresh snow,
that covers me,
comes from recirculating
ancient waters,
revisiting today as snow,
asking me,
why are you surprised?
Sun Jan26 11:28 am
New York City
Jan 25
Jan 25, 2026 at 11:20 AM UTC
I feel no desire to leave with slammed doors or sharp words.
No tears, no heartache this time.
I leave the way a tide recedes,
having touched a beautiful seashell.
I bow to what I received,
to the heat, the music, the experience.
I bow to a standing ovation for the part I played; wearing a mask which made my eyes look pure and honest.
I bow to the version of me
who stayed longer than she should have; holding a magical snowflake that wouldn’t melt.
I bow out
not smaller,
but clearer.
The clarity that comes when the fire dies down; when nothing fragile is left.
And there are only faint traces of heavy smoke, which leaves a residue hard to fully erase.
The smoke that gets in your lungs, and transforms you like submerging in water for a second too long.
I chose to stay devoted to the sun, the center of my universe.
And a snowflake needs a turbulent wind devoted to keeping it afloat; devoted to carrying the snowflake up high into the heavens to touch the top of Solomon’s temple.
There are things you fight for, and there are things you simply allow the wind to carry away.
I simply bow, for the quiet and truth found in Fourteen black paintings.
Yet, in secret I keep looking out the window, for signs of snow.
Jan 12
Jan 12, 2026 at 11:13 PM UTC
falling falling falling
I drift into darkness.
my breathing slows and I close my eyes
and I dream,
I dream of a kind face with brown eyes
I dream of soft clouds in pale blue sky's
I dream of a place far away filled with grassy hills and pretty trees
I'm ok here I'm calm not filled with anxiety,
no I'm calm I'm here and I'm calm
Dec 25, 2025
Dec 25, 2025 at 11:54 PM UTC
I looked away...
I did not want you to see
the way that your sure accusation
made me feel
like you did not see me
like maybe you never had
like I was worth less to you
than you were to me
like I was worthless to you
I did not want you to see
when my heart broke, so
I looked away
Dec 16, 2025
Dec 16, 2025 at 10:39 PM UTC
Even though you don't
talk to me...
I know you're dying
to do... I see...
Secret messages,
silent glances,
Sacrificing anger
And sighting chances...
Always hoped you would notice,
Always waited for
your message...
Never reacted on your statics,
Never lost hope even though I knew it's a wastage...
I know, there will be a day,
where you will see me
Silence is your answer
And patience is my key...
Oh dear, but why always others,
Why not me?
You're not, hell you were never
intentionally mine...
Since you've stayed
always over seas..
You've always cut ties with me
now that you're their shrine...
Dec 10, 2025
Dec 10, 2025 at 8:28 PM UTC
He time travelled
from winter to spring
pulling the sheets
of a self made bed
back over his head.
Nov 11, 2025
Nov 11, 2025 at 3:05 PM UTC
Call the name that won’t do the same in your wake.
For I cannot speak with the thorns in my throat.
Become the rose I never could and bloom in my _death_.
Take the red in my heart to color your petals.
_Prosper in my broken promises._
Don’t wilt my sweet rose, everything will be alright.
You will make it another day,
_.- .-.. --- -. . / .- --. .- .. -. .-.-.-_
Oct 24, 2025
Oct 24, 2025 at 10:54 PM UTC
the light folds differently when you’re not facing it
a sheet crumpled in the shape of absence,
breath held in the throat of a room.
I watch the curve of your shoulder
become a continent I cannot land on.
there is weather there...storms, maybe,
or just the quiet hum of sleep
that doesn’t include me.
I think of all the things I didn’t say
and how they pile up, laundry
in the corner of your silence.
your spine is a sentence I can’t finish.
your hair, a curtain drawn against me.
I reach for you in thought only,
because the body has rules,
and yours has drawn a border.
I am the echo of a voice
that once knew how to be welcome.
you shift, and I imagine it means something.
but it’s just gravity,
just the choreography of rest.
still, I assign meaning
to the way your foot curls,
to the way the blanket clings to your hip
it knows you better than I do.
I lie here,
turned toward the shape of you,
while you remain
turned away on your side.
Oct 8, 2025
Oct 8, 2025 at 4:40 PM UTC