#aurelia
They said Imagination have infinite power
You can imagine the edge of the world
Or the non existed colour
But no matter how powerful it is
I can never get the picture
A day without loving her
Nov 3, 2020
Nov 3, 2020 at 1:21 PM UTC
I stayed and I waited
Behind the curtains, under the blanket
Covered myself in melancholy
Then pour my heart with whiskey
I cried then I lied
The heart beats, but my soul died
Still asking questions
About the separation
Lord oh Lord, tell me what happened
Why does love only brings depression?
Lord oh Lord, hear my prayer
For I want the best for her
Oct 16, 2020
Oct 16, 2020 at 12:12 PM UTC
Another day another night
Under my thick skull there is a light
Roaming around my mind
Everyday day she shines
Like the lights fell from heaven
Ices starts to melt and break the depression
Another day another night
The sweet voice she used to sing
All her positive vibes and her caring
Saved me from the ocean tide
Heaven have created an Angel
Another day another night
Her coloured crown
And the soul behind the window
Never stopped amazed me
Dreamt of her around
On the night where the moonlight glows
Knocked me away from reality
Oh the times wasted to adore her beauty
Oct 9, 2020
Oct 9, 2020 at 3:52 PM UTC
Light the fire and pour the gasoline
Then let the ash follows the wind
To release the anchor of the world
That stuck on my back since forever
Light the fire and pour the gasoline
Let the memories fly to the astral realm
But my grip was never firm
And I still collecting dust ever since
Light the fire and pour the gasoline
Then put them back together with glue
Hide my feelings, and erase all the clue
Shut the noise from your heart when it's screaming
Light the fire and pour the gasoline
And use the flames to clean your sins
Or let your self be in the spiral of depression
Then fall and drown in the oceans
Oct 4, 2020
Oct 4, 2020 at 4:18 AM UTC
The dreams I had
Was set on fire by the world
Lefted only dust
Slowly fell to the dirt
The chemistry went out of hand
I need time but I ran out of sand
Been here forever I stand
In this unforgiven land
If only I can fix these legs
To get out of the deep space
Stop wondering how sweet does her lips taste
I wonder how far I can go, if I fix these legs
Whenever your name I wrote
My poems glows
But I have to bury the blooming rose
To see her happiness grows
Oct 2, 2020
Oct 2, 2020 at 2:40 PM UTC
If only I can be careless
Walk in without thinking the risks
Push my way to my surroundings
And feel innocent like a baby
If only I can be reckless
Barge in with my fist
Killing all of my guilty feelings
Before I end up hurting my buddy
If only I can be thoughtless
Acting like I didn’t do any troubles I did
Closes my eyes when the ones who cares bleeding
Shut my logics and follows the word of my feelings
But is it worth it to be that
Just so you know I have burning desires for her?
Sep 5, 2019
Sep 5, 2019 at 2:21 AM UTC
I love your flaws, curves and style
I love how sweet is your smile
I love your positive vibes
That gave me such an optimistic life
I love your beautiful mind
I love your eyes that shines
I love how your voice sounds
That carries away all the sorrows around
I love you, I will never deny it
I love you, you're the one I want to be with
Feb 1, 2020
Feb 1, 2020 at 4:15 AM UTC
It started
After I saw you for five seconds
Your beauty sticks to my memories for more than weeks
Only for a little moment
I can feel my muscles really weak
But it all ended
When I saw your curve of your lips
Goes up when you lean your head to his shoulder
There goes my hopes and bliss
Taken and swallowed by the world
Oct 24, 2019
Oct 24, 2019 at 2:20 AM UTC
Her text was the first thing
I saw in the morning
It was confusing
However I was smiling
But then I remembered
The reason why she texted me first
It was because I tried to call her
After I consumed lots of liquor
Jun 17, 2019
Jun 17, 2019 at 8:01 PM UTC
If only forgetting you are like smoking
My dreams and memories are the tobacco burning
Watch each of the tobacco leafs turning into ashes
Then put the ashes on my ashtray
Throw them away so I could see them goes away
If only to end my love for you by smoking
Using the poisonous carbon monoxide to weaken my heart’s desire to keep you with me,
**** the butterflies inside my belly
And the cancer cells will eat the remaining feelings inside me
Sometimes I wished smoking helps
But reality, every inhaler I took, my life slowly ends
Every cigarettes I burnt doesn’t lead me one step further
Most likely I slowly make myself to be dead in one spot
Mar 19, 2019
Mar 19, 2019 at 10:35 PM UTC
She took my heart when I flew in the skies
200 knots to the ground, luckily I survived
Broke my plane and I knew I cannot fly
Because I took a peek into her eyes
How amazing is this woman?
So easily to be noticed when she sits
Disturbing my dreams when she sleeps
Hypnotised me when she only speaks
Cool down my hell when she breaths
Put me down from the skies when she sees
So loveable this woman
But if I give her my heart, it would be dangerous
If I kiss her lips, my saliva contains poison and she will die
If I stare at her eyes, beneath my eyes there is a selfish demon ready to eat her alive
If I hold her hands, I can't control my own power and she will cry
If I hug her, I can't contain my joy then I might crush all her bones, she looses her life
If she gave me her heart, I might end up toys around her feelings, disturbing her night
So with my Perfectly Healthy Legs, I'm walking away
To stand along beside her was my dream, now there is no reason to stay
I will rest only when I want to pray
To ask the Lord for guidance on my new journey everyday
Feb 20, 2019
Feb 20, 2019 at 2:16 PM UTC
Her eyes are created from the oceans
Her body is the missing piece of the heaven
Her hair are the important elements for aurora boeralis, the lights that shines around the northern region
Her personalities are the missing piece from the heart of an angel
Her voices are part of a wonderful miracle
Her mind is the 25 percent of the universe
The curve from her warm smile taken from the rainbow, beautiful, colorful and ineffable
And her name is the pieces from the poetry that God ever written
When all the pieces gathered
Carefully mixed together
A winsome woman was created
Aurelia was the name given to her
Feb 4, 2019
Feb 4, 2019 at 1:28 AM UTC
Behind my silence
My heart sends a prayers
To our beloved creator
So the both of you will be never seperated
Behind my silence
My eyes kept looking
For troubles coming
That will destroy your relationship together
Behind my silence
I said your name
So I could tame
My monster that only contain evil and violence
Behind my silence
I looked at your picture
To remind myself that this world
Still have the pure beauty living on this earth
Behind my silence
I said "I love you" silently
So quiet until The Lord can't hear me
Because if I said it, I might waste my own prayers
Feb 3, 2019
Feb 3, 2019 at 7:15 PM UTC
Romantic words wasn’t enough to tell my feelings for you
My poetries wasn’t enough to venting my love for you
Slow songs doesn’t sound right
When you are on my mind
Because you are too special to be described
My blood rushed faster
And my heart applied more pressure
I may have told you I am ready to let go
But the reality, I struggled trying to walk away
The harder I tried, the more my affection grows
And the more I wanted to stay
To be with you until my life passes away
I still want you to fill my heart
In the hollow part
But that would be my own selfishness
Because you already filled somebody else’s
Dec 18, 2018
Dec 18, 2018 at 2:31 PM UTC
Maybe we weren't destined to be together
Maybe it wasn't my destiny to put an engagement ring around your ring finger
It wasn't my destiny to solve your problems
It wasn't your destiny to love me
Or holding hands with me
But maybe
I was destined to protect your relationship
Putting your bonds inside my shield
Support both of you and your lovers target
With a big smile and no regrets
Then let go whenever I'm ready
Because Aurelia, my dear
I will find a heart to land safely
Dec 12, 2018
Dec 12, 2018 at 4:48 AM UTC
Putting you inside my brain systems
Are one of the best things I've ever done
I can't stop imagine
Both of us sitting at the roof under the moonlight,
Talking while drinking our favourite alcoholic beverages,
Hop in the aircraft, baby I will be the pilot and we will look down enjoying the city lights
And pressing our lips together until we could see the sunrise
Aurelia, my sweetheart
I've always hoped that those dreams comes to reality
But sadly
The real world slapped me too hard
Until I opened my eyes
Really wide
Dec 11, 2018
Dec 11, 2018 at 11:33 PM UTC
Aurelia
It's not your fault that I loved you
It's my mistake that I let myself covered in the blues
It's not your fault that I can't move on
But it's my flaws to carved your name in my bones
You're not the reason why my obsession has grown
Because my hormones plays around on their own
And again, you appeared in my dreams
Yet it's not because your action, it's my actions to let you in
Aurelia
I am so sorry
Because again I wrote you a poetry
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 12:03 AM UTC
are you collecting the old counts of how
they slaughtered your son and his power-hungry heart,
twenty three knives to the torso,
the killing blow delivered by a beloved friend?
or are those the scrolls that you wish
dust would settle over forever, relics and reliefs of
everything you see behind your closed eyelids.
a politician’s mother
must be all the more clever; her son will not
be going into battle to die with honor
but rather with deceit. give her-- you-- a laurel wreath,
the irony of the goddess nike standing
golden over the tomb of your son: emperor,
caesar. mother of summer, of boiling july,
are you not the sun? are you not the constellations
freckling burnt pale skin? are you not
the fiercest and brightest of warriors, quietly,
without warning?
Nov 4, 2017
Nov 4, 2017 at 12:24 AM UTC