#asscan - Hello Poetry

You sick twisted foolish Man child that can hardly have emotion You may haunt my mind But you can't be he cause I ice my heart You're a lost boy With no place to call home The past is a memory A ghost But because of you It's a banshee I can't live much longer in this state Because everywhere I go You follow me there Just because your father Is an abusive piece of work Doesn't mean you have to be Maybe you don't realize What it is you do to girls like me Girls like Mo Girls like Em All us mentally unstable due to rough situations But you put us through hell And never just once I loved you Past tense Maybe present Possibly future if you were to change But you destroyed my entire being Girls like us need build me ups Not abuse me down Maybe you don't recognize this form of abuse Because it isn't the kind your father exhibited But it hurts just as much If not more Abuse is still abuse You told me time after time You'd do anything to not be your father But here you are on this abusive path You asked me once if When we were married I'd let you shoot your gun in the house And you begged me to say no But I told you If you aim that gun at me Or my kids I'll ******* leave Because no way in hell would I put with that nonsense Yet here I still am Standing by while you Unknowingly abuse me

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Aug 8, 2016

Aug 8, 2016 at 10:03 AM UTC

hidingwithharley

Not Me, Not This Time

You sick twisted foolish Man child that can hardly have emotion You may haunt my mind But you can't be he cause I ice my heart You're a lost boy With no place to call home The past is a memory A ghost But because of you It's a banshee I can't live much longer in this state Because everywhere I go You follow me there Just because your father Is an abusive piece of work Doesn't mean you have to be Maybe you don't realize What it is you do to girls like me Girls like Mo Girls like Em All us mentally unstable due to rough situations But you put us through hell And never just once I loved you Past tense Maybe present Possibly future if you were to change But you destroyed my entire being Girls like us need build me ups Not abuse me down Maybe you don't recognize this form of abuse Because it isn't the kind your father exhibited But it hurts just as much If not more Abuse is still abuse You told me time after time You'd do anything to not be your father But here you are on this abusive path You asked me once if When we were married I'd let you shoot your gun in the house And you begged me to say no But I told you If you aim that gun at me Or my kids I'll ******* leave Because no way in hell would I put with that nonsense Yet here I still am Standing by while you Unknowingly abuse me

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Yessiree I did I did My fingers pressed the buttons 2 5 3 My throat became sandpaper My stomach felt That Palmer Lake queasy 5 1 4 Cancel Because I'm strong sometimes too

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Aug 8, 2016

Aug 8, 2016 at 4:28 AM UTC

hidingwithharley

I Almost Called You

Yessiree I did I did My fingers pressed the buttons 2 5 3 My throat became sandpaper My stomach felt That Palmer Lake queasy 5 1 4 Cancel Because I'm strong sometimes too

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There's a reason we all Have given you this title Congratulations, For you have been chosen As ********* of the millenia

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Aug 8, 2016

Aug 8, 2016 at 3:48 AM UTC

hidingwithharley

Asscan

There's a reason we all Have given you this title Congratulations, For you have been chosen As ********* of the millenia

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If he knew the amount of power He still holds over my fragile existence He'd rise to dictator status Because that's what he is to me I'm like a Jew in love with ****** Being sent off to the showers I suffocate on the memory of promise If he knew how often I think of him He wouldn't know what to do He'd be giddy and not the least bit afraid Because I have a monopoly on fear When it comes to that Peter Pan A boy child never to turn man If he knew the feelings I still harbor But dare not to confess He would abuse that power profusely Because knowledge is the web I'm eternally trapped in I'm not a ********* But I still adore That sadist

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Aug 8, 2016

Aug 8, 2016 at 1:23 AM UTC

hidingwithharley

If He Knew

If he knew the amount of power He still holds over my fragile existence He'd rise to dictator status Because that's what he is to me I'm like a Jew in love with ****** Being sent off to the showers I suffocate on the memory of promise If he knew how often I think of him He wouldn't know what to do He'd be giddy and not the least bit afraid Because I have a monopoly on fear When it comes to that Peter Pan A boy child never to turn man If he knew the feelings I still harbor But dare not to confess He would abuse that power profusely Because knowledge is the web I'm eternally trapped in I'm not a ********* But I still adore That sadist

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I owe a penny I hope I never owe more

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Jul 29, 2016

Jul 29, 2016 at 12:29 PM UTC

hidingwithharley

Hey *******

I owe a penny I hope I never owe more

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I am sitting here Almost two full years later (One week until to be exact) And I still can't get you out of my head It's late night phone calls that flood my memory Like 12:46 AM And You saying things like "Please go to sleep, it's so late, And I don't want you hurting in the morning" And "If I say something really sweet-- Well I think it's sweet, at least-- Will you go to sleep" Then "I want to be your first kiss" But B, that's just who you are You're the divide and conquer kind It's little lines like "I owe a penny" And a competitive "Well, I owe 100 pennies" That make me want to cry It's references to songs And wanting to end my self inflicted scarring When in reality You are a part of that collection It's that 11 PM call Where you "met" my mother If we could even call it that It's two days later And the first "I love you" And me almost crying as those words Tumbled from your mouth I believed it all I believed in you But then it became "You're a great girl But I don't think this will work" I waited for two weeks Before making a mistake and coming back I didn't think it was a mistake When you asked for a date Of cuddling on your uncle's couch Because you just got your license And wanted me to be first in your car It was supposed to be teriyaki and your favorite movie, Hercules And you wouldn't have cared if I sang along With every single song Because you loved the idea Of a private screening Not in a ****** way But of course, You were a sixteen year old boy You wanted *** I can't believe I actually thought about it And the simple words that Made me believe it could happen "Of course I'm upset, Silly, I didn't get to see my girl" A few days later the silence came Because you decided You couldn't date me because I attended The school of your past But you decided to date her A character of the past attending your school of the past You even convinced her to runaway with you When CPS pulled some ******** moves With your abusive father and standby mother I could've been that girl I could've loved you forever I remember December When you told me you'd found God And tried to help convert me You were the only one I'd let call me "Sammie" I've always thought it weird that You were allowed to flirt with me But it couldn't be me flirting with you Even with your migraine And my offer to give "All the pennies in the world to make it all better" I learned that's because you'd leave Three days later I waited **** near a year Before reaching out to you again With a letter drafted A total of Twenty-eight times Because of an English teacher Encouraging thanks You replied and I filled with hope Only for you to ask me to stop talking to you And your friends Even though Matt is my friend, too But before leaving again I was aware of the biggest backstabbing In all of history You were back with the friend I was defending That brought us together That made fun of your invisible genitals I cried mercilessly And ran to the bathroom Throwing my body against the wall Almost breaking my fists Then I cooled off Walked to the floor where Bailey and I were dining She on a turkey sandwich With cheese, mustard, and olives Myself on a buffet of tears When I saw a tall figure I somehow knew was you Signing out She thought I was delusional But when she turned All she could say was, "Samm...that is him" And I huffed up my chest Stuck up my head Dried my eyes And bit my lip I held it together for a Full five seconds After you walked out the door And I ran faster than I'd ever run before Faster than you'd ever run before Even with football before your shoulder And bashed a dent in that concrete wall You tried to contact me January of this year We talked for a bit because I'm stupid When it comes to the past But then I called you a ******* And you left I didn't talk to you until May afterward Before Cole broke my heart But B, **** you Please stop haunting me Please leave me alone

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Jul 29, 2016

Jul 29, 2016 at 1:51 AM UTC

hidingwithharley

Go Away, Please

I am sitting here Almost two full years later (One week until to be exact) And I still can't get you out of my head It's late night phone calls that flood my memory Like 12:46 AM And You saying things like "Please go to sleep, it's so late, And I don't want you hurting in the morning" And "If I say something really sweet-- Well I think it's sweet, at least-- Will you go to sleep" Then "I want to be your first kiss" But B, that's just who you are You're the divide and conquer kind It's little lines like "I owe a penny" And a competitive "Well, I owe 100 pennies" That make me want to cry It's references to songs And wanting to end my self inflicted scarring When in reality You are a part of that collection It's that 11 PM call Where you "met" my mother If we could even call it that It's two days later And the first "I love you" And me almost crying as those words Tumbled from your mouth I believed it all I believed in you But then it became "You're a great girl But I don't think this will work" I waited for two weeks Before making a mistake and coming back I didn't think it was a mistake When you asked for a date Of cuddling on your uncle's couch Because you just got your license And wanted me to be first in your car It was supposed to be teriyaki and your favorite movie, Hercules And you wouldn't have cared if I sang along With every single song Because you loved the idea Of a private screening Not in a ****** way But of course, You were a sixteen year old boy You wanted *** I can't believe I actually thought about it And the simple words that Made me believe it could happen "Of course I'm upset, Silly, I didn't get to see my girl" A few days later the silence came Because you decided You couldn't date me because I attended The school of your past But you decided to date her A character of the past attending your school of the past You even convinced her to runaway with you When CPS pulled some ******** moves With your abusive father and standby mother I could've been that girl I could've loved you forever I remember December When you told me you'd found God And tried to help convert me You were the only one I'd let call me "Sammie" I've always thought it weird that You were allowed to flirt with me But it couldn't be me flirting with you Even with your migraine And my offer to give "All the pennies in the world to make it all better" I learned that's because you'd leave Three days later I waited **** near a year Before reaching out to you again With a letter drafted A total of Twenty-eight times Because of an English teacher Encouraging thanks You replied and I filled with hope Only for you to ask me to stop talking to you And your friends Even though Matt is my friend, too But before leaving again I was aware of the biggest backstabbing In all of history You were back with the friend I was defending That brought us together That made fun of your invisible genitals I cried mercilessly And ran to the bathroom Throwing my body against the wall Almost breaking my fists Then I cooled off Walked to the floor where Bailey and I were dining She on a turkey sandwich With cheese, mustard, and olives Myself on a buffet of tears When I saw a tall figure I somehow knew was you Signing out She thought I was delusional But when she turned All she could say was, "Samm...that is him" And I huffed up my chest Stuck up my head Dried my eyes And bit my lip I held it together for a Full five seconds After you walked out the door And I ran faster than I'd ever run before Faster than you'd ever run before Even with football before your shoulder And bashed a dent in that concrete wall You tried to contact me January of this year We talked for a bit because I'm stupid When it comes to the past But then I called you a ******* And you left I didn't talk to you until May afterward Before Cole broke my heart But B, **** you Please stop haunting me Please leave me alone

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But why should I waste My time on abusive homophobes?

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Jul 27, 2016

Jul 27, 2016 at 2:19 AM UTC