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I often find myself lost in my head
Deep in m thoughts hoping to get ahead
When I can't be with you, I'd rather be dead
When I can't talk to you, I dream instead
Think of these words, when youre lost in thought
Think of the smiles and laughs that I brought
This isn't my final goodbye, it is made to pass the time
So here is a poem, that poorly rhymes
And hold on to the image that we've made
Please stay away from that blade
Hold on for me, cause I'll be home
I promise you, you aren't alone.
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 1:41 PM UTC
Can you feel your soul being misplaced?
Do you feel your existence being a disgrace?
Is it sad, that you've fallen from grace?
Fighting for a future you aren't ready to face
Living a life you don't even want to embrace
Coning in last in this futile race
Feeling like a toy that's out of place
Trying to remember as your retrace
Thinking you're living, buts that's not the case
Going too fast, you cant keep up the pace
Being swallowed by your very past
Hoping that having fun will always last
Do you feel it, as it leaves your soul
Capturing yourself before you feel whole
Swallowed and drowned in internal darkness
The pleasure only obtained, how it was so bliss
It was all fun in games, till I tasted Deaths Kiss
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 1:38 PM UTC
Frowning upon my reality
Looking at the old parts if me
Unable to breath, feeling as if I've drowned
Feeling the pain and suffering when I look around
Fighting for my life, has become my price
Yet you never cared to ask me twice
Ignorant to the history of my scars
Singing along as music floats off my guitar
Realizing I am the only one to blame
Ever so wishing I can reset this game
Awaiting the day, he finally let's me fly
Living onwards till the day that I die
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 1:33 PM UTC
When the body falls and lands into the dirt
Would you care to guess which one hurts?
The bullet that killed him, or the scars that bled
Ignoring your feelings in these words you read
If you were to write upon his tombstone
"The boy who always felt so alone"
Would you point and laugh, Caring not to cry?
Or try to act cool, and tell your friends a lie?
As you continue to build a persona of a facade
Which is created through media and catalogs
A kid sells his should to his very blade
Hoping to escape the images you made
But when its too late and you think you're brave
You search for this kid that's lost in the cave
The kid that's to far gone to be saved
The same kid you pushed into his grave.
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 1:29 PM UTC
My wounds go deeper then the ones on my wrist
My scars hurt more than the blood on my wrist
My tears won't fall, I'm emotionally conflicted
While inflicting this pain is my most sincere addiction
It hurts so much, I just want to cut deeper
Bleeding out, awaiting the arrival of the reaper
Scars so deep, I no longer care to smile
Wishing I could slip away for a while
To fade away, leave my troubles behind
Only if the voices in my head were as kind
Wishing for the time my body decays
That is when I live my final day
When family and friends all beg me to stay
Most importantly its when my scars fade
AWAY
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 1:16 PM UTC
In your eyes, I see that single tear
The same tear that holds all your fears
The tear you're too scared to let fall
So you keep yourself busy hoping to stall
I see in your eyes, how much they want to rain
Doubt if your whole life was just all in vain
Sealing away this unbearable pain
Holding so tight, you feel like you're insane
So you turn to the only pleasure you can gain
And you watch as your steel turns crimson strain
Finding it too much for one to cope
You feel to end it all with a rope
So are you tie and strengthen that knot
You think of sorrow, and all that it brought
Think of all the opportunities lost
And how it all came at a cost
So now that you have said goodbye to your friends
It is time that you take you life, and make it end
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 1:12 PM UTC
I've tried so hard, to live my life
Yet every time I tried, it became strife
I've dried up my own two eyes
Laying down awaiting to die
I'm stuck in telling all these lies
Writing my letter for my final goodbye
The life I lived wasn't always a bad one
But I'm fed up, I'm finally done
So keep on calling, I'll let the phone ring
Because I am busy, as the angels sing
They sing a song, as I pass the viel
Regretting the things I could never tell
My mind is clouded, stuck in a fog
Webs cover the gears and the cogs
Being eaten from the inside out
I'm still dying, yet I cannot shout
So I guess its time to face destiny
I apologize but, Death Awaits Me
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 1:04 PM UTC
Can you see me, or are you blind?
Maybe I am just an image of your mind?
I think I'm lost, waiting to be found
Stuck in these chains forever bound
Can you see me yet, or is it too late?
I should've took your hand, next time I won't hesitate
Can you see me yet, will you set me free?
I'll see my very soul, If that's the fee
Please see me, I miss the way you'd glance
I'd shine even better if you gave a second chance
Just one look, a glimpse from your eyes
Will give me the feeling of being alive
I'm willing to place it all on a single bet
Just tell me if you can see me yet?
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 12:54 PM UTC
Why, why are you doing this why are you here
If you don't even care don't stay, just disappear
How many of you can say, you'll be good after Highschool
That your life won't constantly spin just like a whirlpool
That you've studied enough to consume enough knowledge
Comprehending what you need to goto college
Can you say that you're not living a life that's just a mirage
Hiding beyond your self trying to be like camouflage
Can you say you've filled your life without all the regret
Living everyday working off an unpaid debt
Can you say you'll survive making $1200 a month
When the landlord demands for 550 up front?
How about when it comes to paying for the medical bill
5000 dollars for a check up and a simple oxycodone pill
Not only that you have another overdue car payment
Now you're looking for someplace with better employment
Can you really say you're tough enough to survive
Now let's add another, a baby boy at the age of 5
Asking why his mom or dad isn't there to give him love
Drinking away to find memories you try to get rid of
Can you really say that you're ready to live on your own
Hoping you can offer your kid a better place to call home
Do you even care where your live is going to go
Or are you going to shake this off and just follow the flow
You want things handed to you, with only minimum work.
You don't understand how it feels to move like clockwork
You smile, you laugh, you ignore what you will need
Just nodding your head, constantly you'll just agree
You're going to be an adult with no skills at all
You refuse to read, refuse to draw, you refuse to do anything in all
You are stuck in a fake life that you're used to liven
Just another lost lazy kid without a vivid vision
Your life will be over with before you even get bitten
Lost in society because you stayed in the back hidden
Then you blame education for not keeping you driven
So you live your life trying to go around the system
So what's the point in trying to fulfill and finish your education
If you can't even push yourself past your simplest limitations
So take what you want from this, do what you prefer
All I ask of you is to think of this poem and understand the words
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 12:34 PM UTC
I'm sitting here thinking of you
In my mind thoughts run though
I try to hide them, so none See's
How much I want you with me
I wrote poems for you once before
So I want to do it once more
In my past I was never that smart
But I'm willing to try for your heart
As I ache to sit with you in my arms
Hoping you'd fall for my foolish charms
Holding your hands, squeezing them tight
Never letting you go, as it feels so right
Wishing I was with you at this moment
Accepting this poem as my atonement
I come to you, wanting to belong
Promised to you I'd never do wrong
I'd rather be tortured than to cause you pain
For then my life would be anything but in vain
I know that I'm crazy, even a little bit insane
However with you, I am relaxed and yet tamed
So I write these words, for your face to smile
Because Id come to see you for a thousand miles
I'd crawl through dirt, mud, and grime
Just to see you become mine.
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 12:31 PM UTC
Rosey Rosey where are you?
Have they taken you away too?
Or did I just scare you away
Was it to much for just for you to stay?
I thought we were good, we were cute.
At least that is what others said
It was a dream that I would pursue
It was a love I'd would have bled
This is just for you, would you even care?
You threw it away, like I had spares.
Rosey Rosey what did I do?
I do what I thought was true
Was I wrong? Did I make you mad?
Did you know, you were the best I ever had.
Was I a bother? Just another problem?
What of that first date, that we had in autumn?
Do you remember? Did it mean nothing?
when you said you loved me, I guess you were bluffing.
Rosey Rosey are you there?
Or is this just a waste of air.
I held you close, I combed your hair.
Those endless nights that we just stared.
All those memories laid to waste.
Had me on a wild goose chase
Now I know, you were bad for me.
Thanks to you for setting me free.
Jun 10, 2015
Jun 10, 2015 at 1:33 AM UTC
If you were lonely, or sad inside
Right next to you is where I'd be till the day I die.
I'd walk the 286 miles, from Bakersfield to Vegas
They would all laugh, but I would be shameless.
You are a great friend, one that cannot be replaced
My time with you, would not be put to waste.
Staying up all through the night
sitting in the dark without a light
Writing this poem, just for you
Hoping you will love this too
Those weeks we spent in a hellish place
I'd exchange for just a simple taste
To hold you close, never let go
To be the string, that holds your bow
To fight for you, hold your sword and shield
With only my heart in my hands to wield
I will try my best, to not let you get hurt
I'd pick you up, and dust off the dirt
For if you fall, it will be into my hands
I'd carry you across the sands
So Rosey Rosey come out to play
I won't be the one who betrays.
You know a secert of me noone else knows
One that I do not let show
But I am glad that you now know
I feel like I don't need to hide
Everything I am inside
Rosey Rosey Come out to Play
By your side is where I stay
waiting for you outside your home
Never leaving you alone
So Rosey Rosey, come to me
I want to give you a key
One that leads into my heart
One that can't be broken apart.
My shoulder is yours for your tears
Protecting you from all your fears
I will not allow you to fall back down
To the hole that is in the ground.
I will lend my helping hand
Pick you up to help you stand
Hoping that I can make you glad
So please cheer up, don't be sad
I promise that your smile will be real
Always stating how we feel.
So Rosey Rosey, open up
I will never let you up
I will give you all my time
So you know that you are mine.
Jun 8, 2015
Jun 8, 2015 at 11:49 PM UTC
So, I need some clarity, for I am confused
Are we worthless, worn out tools?
Used to their expense because we let them?
As if were the final sip to the bottle of gin
A stomach full of drugs, getting doped again
Unable to even realize where are my friends?
The ones who promised to be there till the end
The ones who said, "I got your back"
Surprisingly, they are leading the attack
Gave out my heart just to ripped from my hands
And teared and stolen away, lost across the sands
People saying, "Oh it gets better" or "Keep your head high"
Not knowing all the times I barely survive
So what am I?
Am I just there, standing in front of you?
Trying to tell you all these things, dropping all these clues.
Unable to tell who is who
I'm starting to feel used.....
So who am I?
Am I just the friend you call when you need something?
Hooked like a puppet attached to all these strings?
Put below you as if I was a peasant, and you were king?
All these feelings, you put behind your books
I always wondered why we couldn't work
So Why didn't it?
Simple because, you tried to force me to become something I didn't
As if being myself, was against the law, forbidden
When I gasped for air, trying to breath
Words held between my teeth
So Was it ok?
Of course in your eyes it was right
Everything is wrong, even what I write
So I need some clarity....
What are we?
May 28, 2015
May 28, 2015 at 4:21 AM UTC
The taste of cherry, that laid on her lips
The smile of happiness when she grinned
The way she danced, the sway of the hips
Just a thought lost in the wind
The rise of sun, the cast of dawn
The fall of the moon, the glisten in the stars
Beauty that seems to only be drawn
A glimpse as if smoke from a cigar
Faded into a book of time
For where it stops just for a moment
Hovering over, waiting to be climbed
Till the day she's finally chosen
The glimmer that sets, upon her hair
Hoping to catch that single glare
A woman that holds all to fair
If only she know how much I care
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 8:09 AM UTC
So many times I thought I answered
But only to see the stakes have changed
Every time I look up at him
He shoots me down to the abyss below
Where I have to crawl just to reach my goal
To find out how I can be whole
Dark and damp its cold inside
The monster that decides to hide
I fight to find, inside who I am
A Sheppard looking for his lost lambs
As if the tattoo jumped of my skin
Searching for my long lost twin
The image of me has faded away
Darkness unable to be kept at bay
Surging through me like a beam of black
My life hung up upon the plaque
The tears want to drop, I just want to cry
Why can't I find myself, WHO am I?
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 7:54 AM UTC
My head, it hurts, pieces of glass inside. The glass stained with pictures, the pictures full of purpose. As i smoked the cigarette yesterday I asked myself, an endless abyss of 'what if's' and 'have not'. The pain, it hurts, but i find purpose beneath it. A duty i have to fulfill
It's an addiction i need to feed, It's the water to life, It's the person i need to keep happy, to keep fulfilled.
And they must be happy, no matter the cost of my own
Like Autumn days and night, the warm tender kiss of the sun. The Moon, shining off its glorious radiant light even if it can not be seen
With out it, we are nothing
Without you, I am nothing
I meant to tell you since the day we met, but someone else fell into your light
Hypnotized, by the trance of love
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 7:37 AM UTC
This feeling, leaves me speechless
The thought of you on my mind
Unable to reach that first kiss
If only I could slow down time
A bliss image of what I want in my arms
This feeling of pain over powers me
At the sight of your lovely charms
Leaves me to blind to even see
As if I am your sword and shield
I'd fight for you with all my will
With only my heart in my hands to wield
Just the thought of that emotes a thrill
I may not be the one who holds you heart
But i'd protect it till my very last breath
For this feeling shall not be torn apart
Till the day I meet with Death
My lips go numb, they've become weak
My lungs gap for a widen breath
When I look at you, I cannot speak
May 26, 2015
May 26, 2015 at 7:29 AM UTC
Freedom, the beauty in the word itself. Free, to break control of that those have on you. Dictators, Leaders, Nobles, Aristocrats, all of them seem to hang our freedom in their scales. Their scales of right and wrong, contradicting what they see fit, To spread our wings and fly, is the divine goal, but how do we fly, when THEY have clipped our wings, when we allow others to put us in a cage. Under lock and key, strained from our movements. Like puppets tied to strings. They decide our actions, our movements, even our decisions to an extant. Can we be truly free, can we take the reigns back into our hands, after it has been ripped. Can we break from the cell we were put in. Only time will tell. For like a clock, we seem to always circle back, after moving forward for so long.
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 7:21 PM UTC
Society, when we speak this word what do you think? What do you perceive? Do you see it as a symbol, to which we crave for. Or just another group, telling what to do? Commanding, something we fought years for, to be free.. yet are we truly free? Free, the word used to build hope, faith, and wars. Wars useless, maybe not. We crave for it. Look for it even, Why? Because Wars are fights, fights between two or more parties thinking their stand point is correct. Perception, a word used through ones mind to try and persuade others that they are correct. Correction, no one wants to be wrong. We instead make lies, and stretch truths, to makes us look smart. Think of this, cause this is how I see Society, This is how others see society, so tell me...Which stand point will you accept now?
May 18, 2015
May 18, 2015 at 11:35 AM UTC
Happiness, What creates it? what is happiness? for some, happiness is money, wealth. Others, happiness is life itself. Others find it fulfilling a purpose. Purpose? Is there really such a thing? a slave to be bound to a singular entity, for eternity to come. Are we all slaves? feeding the machine that is called life, is there reason behind it? I know my purpose, to bring happiness to people. Solipsism, the idea, that the world. only a picture, of a subconscious artist slaving away at his canvas The artist, his world. the one he creates, The one he sees. the one where he exists. And if there is even, even the slightest amount of truth. Behind the Artists mind. You Are The Most Beautiful Thing I Could Perceive.
May 16, 2015
May 16, 2015 at 11:29 AM UTC
Understand that your emotioms are real,
Say what's on your mind, How you feel
Don't let Anger drive you to Fear
For your illness, as a cure
We are not perfect, never meant to be
For your future, only you can see
Don't give in, have faith, have hope
Its cheesy yes, but find ways to cope
Take the noble strength, use Its power
Never hide, never coware
Try hard, do your best...
And I promise out of them all, you will
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May 13, 2015
May 13, 2015 at 10:26 AM UTC
The beauty that stands tall,
Towering over, standing above all
Don't be a toysoilder, a lock with out key
Spread your wings, fly be free
Take control of your destiny,
Be the best you know you can be
Your not a mess up, not a mistake
Grab the chains, pull till they break
Because life is what you can make
Don't allow others to take the reigns
Don't give in to the undying pain
Don't let your tears create rain
For you shall never live in vain.
May 13, 2015
May 13, 2015 at 10:26 AM UTC
For so long I've been in chains
Unable to break free
Drowning in the rain
Of the sorrow and the pain
Wishing to be set loose
But tied to these reigns
Fitted for the noose
When they think this is a game
Life plays a role
In all of our hearts
To weak to let go
I'm fading in the dark
Losing sight of this
I'm falling in a hole
Can't see infront of me
To afraid to go back home
Can't look back, and I won't turn around
Gotta keep going, gotta stand my ground
Don't let them see the tears you shed
Looking away just turn your head
To afraid to face the dark
But it's everywhere you can't avoid
The emotions you feel turn to marks
Everyone seems like a mindless droid
Feeling alone unable to stand
Put your fist up so you can defend
Giving your all just for tonight
Making one more chance to
Fight for your life
Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 1:03 PM UTC
I am not here to make you look good.
Not here to be your shadow
I won't stand by and let you hurt me
All CAUSE your afraid of the truth
Unable to grasp that reality
Isn't made just for you
I'm a human Being But you ignore that
You let me sit in dark without a care
Not even a glimpse in my direction
I stood up for You, Thought I was cool
Realized it was useless Cause I was just your tool
I am not lying just for you, I'm not going to lie to you
I see no reason to make fib, To turn into all the rest
Because I don't need your approval
I'm not here to impress
Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 12:14 PM UTC
The feeling of nothing, like void of pitch black
Sick and Tired of being stabbed in the back
Trusted others and got pain in return
Feeling so stupid, but yet can't seem to learn
Sick and Tired of being Burned
Wishing to take back all the mistakes
Unable To step on to the breaks
So focus On trying to go back
Sick and Tired of all the Attacks
So Sick and Tired of fighting back
Not knowing how long you can last
Sick and Tired of Being Numb
Just waiting for the day to be done
Sick and Tired is the way we feel
Just waiting for our wounds to heal
Just wanting to be left be
Just wanting...to...feel...Free
Mar 24, 2015
Mar 24, 2015 at 10:43 AM UTC