#appear
We live in the rhythm of the city,
In the rhythm of noisy and soulless streets.
We’re like crows in this city,
As if we know all answers indeed.
As if we know all sacred secrets
And keep them under the barn lock.
Our steps are all non-casual
And our feelings are secrets to block.
We’re constantly running, we’re rushing somewhere,
Accelerating just every day.
As if we’re afraid of not making it there,
Losing all here along the way.
We live in the rhythm of the city.
It’s time for us to stop.
At least for a moment to look at us
And appear, appear for short.
Feb 26
Feb 26, 2026 at 4:31 PM UTC
Could someone please take me from here
There is a house on my wall with the lights on
I keep waiting as if someone will appear
I stand at the door, swaying with ease
Still waiting for it all to go wrong
Could someone please take me from here
It's wrapped in vines and dead leaves
Built to last, all its stubborn locks
I keep waiting as if someone will appear
Seasons pass, and I pull at my sleeves
I have longed as days have gone
Could someone please take me from here
Eyes closed, still the shape is clear
I stand where the door was drawn
I keep waiting as if someone will appear
I can never know if they will hear
This stillness of mine, a wish to belong
Could someone please take me from here
I keep waiting as if someone will appear
Jan 18
Jan 18, 2026 at 6:16 PM UTC
there's a ghost in the wall, how do I know
there are sounds of moaning that sound like hello
the walls might be haunted by an unlikely mind
from way back in history or the future aligned
it's not at all scary, it's mostly just weird
it would be so awesome if they decide to appear
there's a ghost in my wall and I'm not really mad
it's nice to have friends in he walls of your pad....
Brian Hill - 2020 # 151
Jun 3, 2020
Jun 3, 2020 at 11:09 AM UTC
I sit in the dark in solitude
How did I get here?
Know how to get out
Paralyzed by fear
Bleed good intentions
I'm running out of red
See all my weakness
Instability in my head
So pretty appear to be
I perfectly play the part
I'll feel how I look one day
Til then inhale myself apart
Apr 17, 2020
Apr 17, 2020 at 3:03 AM UTC
Imagine
What I say?
Imagine
I talk everywhere
Imagine
I find you there
listen
the time makes hear
singer
comes from near
trying
to root one tale
ending
with two hearts prepare
tying
and tell to the atmosphere
finding
the holy loves and read
clear
imagine I find your face
inner
pulsing with every pumping
fear
me to look away
hear
my soul tells and can appear
flower
will open hear
deeper
Dec 9, 2019
Dec 9, 2019 at 4:10 PM UTC
I was walking
Down a path of premeditated evergreen
Kicking at pinecones with a well-known song
When you came along
And in looking down at this discovery
Not that you fell too far for me
But there you were
Most beautiful and suddenly
There and aware
You became known to me
Nov 14, 2019
Nov 14, 2019 at 5:15 PM UTC
I am not here, I am not there
You will not find me… Not anywhere
I have not run away, I have not disappeared
I am close. I am closer then I appear
Not sure how to type what I feel
When all of these feelings just make me feel so lost and ill
This is not a rebellion. This isn’t out of frustration
You are not the enemy; I have nothing against your radiation.
In the night I have gone like the wind
But I am alive and well, this is not out of sin.
I am not gone, just hidden away for a while
You know all my locations, all my places, you know my style.
I could be anywhere, but you know where I go
I am not gone; I’m just no longer home… I’m solo
My number code now a mystery, but you know my accounts
You know and have more then what you realize. You have the amount.
You know my people, you know my spots
Although I am physically cold, my heart is burning hot
Forgive me for the pretty little lies, and for my acts and stories
My wrong, my bad, I am sorry. I greatest my apologies.
I am not fooling around with strangers, or with the fools of this earth
I am safe, and I am close by. I am not shutting you out, I’m building my own turf
Watch the black now fade away, the spikes dim and become dull
For I am independently going on this journey on my own, it’s quite the hull
I’m sick of disappointing, I’m sick of the back and forth, I want to truly know
Jesus in the desert for days, Moses on the Mountain, and Elijah with the birds sought Him alone.
Days, and weeks of isolation, alone with Him.
I want to know!!! I Need to seek and find!!! I am so sick of guess’n!!!
As far as I can tell, this is God’s leading, and if it isn’t, He can work it all out
I won’t know until I take the first step into this unfamiliar world. I promise I am safe and sound
Trying to be discerning, and wise with every step I take, as far as I can tell
I can’t hear him when many are shouting. When too many feel the need to yell.
Not abandoning the problem. I’m not abandoning His Call
I am looking for peace and answers. I want to be his Princess. He won’t let me fall.
I don’t hate you, there is no anger or disappointment in this heart
I swear I leave in peace and love, for I am hurting with this part
Dad, I know everything you said and did was only out of love
I know you didn’t mean to hurt and scar me, so I hid my scars with gloves
I know I disappoint, but I contain no anger. I need a moment and time
To ask and then receive, and to seek what I am trying to find
Answers
Mom, you are wonderful and beloved, I’m sorry if I made you feel so worried
I promise you; I am fine and safe and treasured and in good care. Please have no fury
I loved working alongside you and doing what I could to help
You did so much for me, and prayed like a warrior, breaking every spell
Blessing, that is what you are ♥
Rachel, it’s time for me to be trained on how to be a woman of service
I am on my knees like I’ve seen you done so many times. I’m encouraged
I’m sorry… But He has shown me his leading… So, I am just walking forward
I may not know where it takes me… But I swear it is HIM I am walking towards
Boldly
Dennae, I am praying for you and the things you struggle and ache with. I know the look
I’m going to miss your screwed-up phrases and your unintentional jokes
But I need to go on a journey with my Savior for a while to know Thy way
He will change your heart, and your desires, you keep seeking His face.
Everything will change when you pray
Amy, I am sorry, but I tried to do what I could to be there for you
I tried to be the big sister I needed to be. I did what I could so you could see Him through
I love you little one. He has an amazing job planned for you ahead.
He has not forgotten nor abandoned you. Because for you, he bled.
Remember His Love
You can come, and see, and visit! You know where you can stop by
I am not dead; I can assure you, that I am very much alive.
Take care of my baby fluff, and the fish down below
Trying to follow His leading, and not drench myself so low…
Time to grow up, time to discover and learn.
He is the greatest teacher; He will protect me from the fires that burn
Gone indeed… But to really seek and discover what is in store
Alone and Solo, I depend on Him to really speak and show. My body on the floor
Don’t be worried, scared, or frightened, for I am in good hands
I love you; I miss you. You are not locked away from my stands
From the darkness, I escape, but only to seek the light
Forgive me, my beloved family… but I need to take this step… I’ll be alright
I may have crossed the line
But I know as long as I seek Him… and Surrender to Him, He’ll make everything fine…
Till I can see you again, Beloved Family
Apr 17, 2019
Apr 17, 2019 at 11:36 AM UTC
I will dive into desolation before sundown,
If the weather gets darker, I will be lost before tasting
One who likes daylight in sweet sound of tune.
We have to look up to sky to see what's inside of it,
Temple of breath is shaken cause of the sadness,
And excuses disappear in sound of love.
I didn't realise when moment explained fact of separation,
Necessaries of love is appeared slowly with effects of sadness,
I have to lose you and me in sounds of instruments.
Feb 7, 2019
Feb 7, 2019 at 12:02 PM UTC
Your photo is a
Reminder not everything
Is as it appears
Nov 20, 2018
Nov 20, 2018 at 3:02 PM UTC
objects in the distance may be closer than they appear
how many thousands of times
these words mirrored blankly upon my eyes
only today did I-read them accurate
from the nowhere from a great void
someone stepped and lifted me from a
rubbled prone
where there were no options
asking for nothing
over and over I beseeching
now I see
in the mirror
those words
I see only them
in the heart human
the object so close
it writ upon my face
proudly
Sep 26, 2018
Sep 26, 2018 at 5:08 PM UTC
The eyes that follow.
Down the hall I deeply swallow.
Is something trying to hurt me?
What are they trying to tell me?
The eyes that follow just beyond my bedroom door.
Do I dare to follow in horror?
I feel dizzy.
Quick has something stricken me?
The phantom questions that are neither seen nor heard.
I dare to question every spoken word.
Am I among the living?
What am I seeing?
Apparitions appear to me.
They are sending a message apparently.
They infiltrated my mind, body, and soul.
I used to take refuge in my home.
Now everything seems different.
Tell me who or what sent this.
My body has been taken over.
All I hear or see my system can not recover.
The eyes that follow have not released me.
Now my feet have hit the ground fleetingly.
As I try to flee.
The eyes that follow so evenly.
I have finally made it out.
The eyes that follow will they ever find out?
Sep 16, 2018
Sep 16, 2018 at 1:53 PM UTC
Just so you don't misconstrue
I still care deeply about you
It's just self preservation that makes me push away
Still, we can be cordial, I'll be there on that day
The day when you decide to put the demons at bay.
You can keep ******* around til then.
However, be warned, if you don't try then they'll always win.
I hope to see you again, the real you, someday.
Mar 11, 2018
Mar 11, 2018 at 11:59 PM UTC
lend me other rooms
leave my mind extending
willingly i take
but consciously i'm fading
Nov 17, 2017
Nov 17, 2017 at 3:03 AM UTC
someday in the night
the moon will a little bit more radiant
stars will appear many more
and you will forget that you are alone
Nov 4, 2017
Nov 4, 2017 at 6:37 PM UTC
"When you're lonely,
what do you do?"
"I take pictures
of my favorite places."
"But why do you
keep taking
pictures of the same spots?"
"Because sometimes,
I wish
you'd appear
in one of them."
Oct 18, 2017
Oct 18, 2017 at 9:24 AM UTC
An open letter to chicks like thee,
You wait until you're nearly sixty-three,
You'll end up talking like me,
You'll sound like the Dead Grandmas Society,
Fine-thinking women, very snippy,
Got no time for nasties and rudies,
"What's this?" "What's for tea?"
"A plate of good manners from me!!"
(And the Dead Grandmas Society!)
A fact of life, real scary,
When you're nearly sixty-three,
Words appear from the clouds, prithee,
You'll sound like the Dead Grandmas Society.......
Jul 20, 2016
Jul 20, 2016 at 3:53 PM UTC
Where are you
Amidst the trees?
Hiding?
No, not you
You noble valiant thing
I thought you were a king
Not a refugee
Leaping from page to page
From thought to age
Evading the tinkerer's jail
Of memory
Paid ransom by some other script
Take a rest
You've been running for infinity
But you've finally run right into the wrong time:
Yours
Pass into potential's clearing
long enough
For my swift stab
Aha!
"Penned" to paper
Shall we begin
The inked interrogation
To see what lies within, o suspect
Accused of rhyme?
Jul 4, 2016
Jul 4, 2016 at 1:44 PM UTC
When you gaze
Gaze longer,
Peels of splotchy skin aimlessly fall
Until bones crush through your naked eyes
Not at all, what you'd believe
You dream in their gilded appearance
Clearance to enter
Not cleared to touch my core
Crash!
Falling from god's sand - like grasp
Booming down to hold me below sea level
Trouble concentrating on bliss, I missed your appearance
I shriveled in pain to discover your shadow spirit
May 1, 2016
May 1, 2016 at 1:01 AM UTC
you said you can read me like a book
but you won't tell me what my pages say, or how many there are,
what my chapters are titled, if they even are titled
i want to know
who my introduction mentions,
what my author's note says,
and who helped me with the theme
but honestly, please
at least tell me about the chapter where you appear
just let me know if it ends well
Apr 2, 2016
Apr 2, 2016 at 10:12 PM UTC
who the hell are you?
how did you appear in my life,
and sweep me away with your inviting eyes
fed me pleasure and warmth
left me high and dry,
puzzled and craving more
of your attention and gaze
your laugh to be directed to me
maybe you could put your hands on my waist again
or around my neck
it feels brand new to me and i'm sorry,
that i almost back away each time
this is probably all my fault
i question if i'm the confusing one
or if he is
but i'd put money on him in a heartbeat
Mar 16, 2016
Mar 16, 2016 at 3:33 AM UTC
*we drove by saint mary's all the time.
and this was no different today,
than the last,
but I saw mary,
in the window that night,
and it was all a flash as we drove by,
as I said we did all the time,
but this time,
I saw the ****** in the night,
each and everyday I wonder,
why did I see her,
why didn't I greet her,
I wonder why she was there,
or if she was as scared,
as me,
I question myself everyday,
like did you really see,
Mother Mary?
I cannot explain what I saw,
Mary had not spoken to me,
as she just appeared to me for a moment,
as I was shocked to see her disappear so quickly,
the view of the hospital window she was in was fading,
I clutched a set of my grandmother rosary beads she gave me to fix,
in my hands there all I felt the whole car ride back,
as I kept bringing back the image of Mary,
and her outstretched hands,
the silhouette won't fade from my memory,
I constantly try to find out why,
she decided to appear to me,
we drive by saint mary's all the time,
and I look for her in the window before it fades away,
as we drive by,
and I haven't seen the room light up,
since the time she appeared to me,
but I will still wait for her every time we drive by.*
Jan 3, 2016
Jan 3, 2016 at 1:50 PM UTC