I stare at my wall
And beg for your forgiveness
Though you are not here. 

I can hear your voice,
Calm and quiet,
Telling me that it'll all be okay.

That I need to calm down
And forgive myself.
 
I can feel your hands 
Caressing my sides to sooth my saddened spirit

And I can feel your arms
Wrapped around me to keep me grounded-
To keep me from losing myself.

 
I can see you doing all you need to keep me safe. 
I can hear you doing all you need to keep me calm. 
I can feel you doing all you can to keep me alive.