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To write down all my fears would take a book.
My desires even more.
The big problem, however, is where they overlap.
To desire what i fear at least seems adventuresome, almost romantic.
Scary yes, but exciting. Like a roller coaster ride with a fear of falling, like i do.
Adulthood, the scary but most wonderful time of life.
Then there is the fear of what i desire.
That is a whole other beast entirely.
What if my desires are not good for others?
What if my desires steer me wrong?
What if i follow one path when another would have been better?
What if i don't achieve my desires?
What if all these existential, angsty thoughts are complicating things and themselves standing in the way?
What if?
What if indeed.
Jan 14, 2015
Jan 14, 2015 at 8:47 PM UTC