#andrew
If you cast a rod
and catch the moon,
lock the reel;
prolong the night—
some
the owl on the old tree
isn’t yet
wearing glasses,
yet tries
to hoot—
some
as long
as the reel’s locked,
the night’s—
the attire
it’ll be dark
‘till the owl,
the night-blooming jasmine, and sun—
become jaded;
‘till the owl
wears glasses;
‘till the reel’s locked
the owl
must hoot—
some.
Jul 16, 2024
Jul 16, 2024 at 9:28 AM UTC
The river is quiet
with velvety darkness.
The moon leaves her perch,
the clouds as her garment.
A trail of dreams,
lucent with meaning,
battered, not broken,
follows, careening.
He rowed through the bayou,
Searching for the stars;
But the branches of the cypresses
Had captured them in jars.
His little iron lantern,
Flick’ring kernel of light,
Won’t discern though it burns
Gold as sylvite.
You saw him there,
A statue of wax;
You took your hammer
And shattered the glass.
Though, like a bird,
He’d molted his cloak,
You remembered the password—
To which he awoke.
You did not know (for how could you?)
That I was all alone.
But still you deigned to look at me
And bind my broken bone.
My anxious wings had taken flight;
The perch bore not a trace—
You taught me how to not recoil
When human hands embrace.
You didn’t know what you had done.
You didn’t know what you had done.
You couldn’t have known what you had done.
But thank you anyway.
Oh, Jonathan—
May your heart enfold:
Can’t you see your gold?
Can’t you see you’re gold?
The constellations still evade—
I’ll climb the tree.
Keep ascending; no dismay
(This I decree!)
I’ll catch a star, I swear, some way—
On wings of chim-choo-rees.
But if I die before that day,
Will you take one home for me?
. . . . .
There in that desert,
Hot as the stars,
I played my harp
And you the guitar
And with the smell
Of creosote
On the cool wind
You shed your coat.
Wending through the branches,
Aloft in the sky,
Laughing and joking
All through the night,
You found your love,
To my great delight—
And when you pair embrace,
I can’t help but sigh.
Let me bear that spear
Thrown by your dad.
(“Don't worry or fear;
The blood’s not so bad!”)
No!—could you have been saved
Had I been there in time?—
For I’d rather brave
That dagger in your spine!
Jonathan, my dearest friend,
Won’t you lift your eyes?
Though you bleed and from there grieve,
The seed of God’s inside.
I see your fear, though not so clear,
For you take care to guard.
But you will neither raze nor pierce
Your son where you’ve been scarred.
You hardly know how much you’ve grown.
You hardly know how much you’ve grown.
You can’t imagine how you’ve grown.
But you have. You have.
Oh, Jonathan—
May your heart enfold:
Will you see your gold?
Will you see you’re gold?
. . . . .
The grass may wilt and flowers fade,
But He steadfast remains.
And though carved ice resigns to melt,
It runs into the lake.
For what are we but jars of dust?—
Made that we may bear
The image of Him who painted us,
Who deigns to hear our prayer.
We do not know where we will go.
We do not know where we will go.
We can’t begin to fathom where we’ll go.
But—know it’s not in vain.
. . . . .
When moths at last consume my clothes,
Will you remember?
Where stone-faced, dusty night arose,
Will you remember?
When light endures its final throes,
Will you remember?
Should I be lost within this grove,
Will you remember?
When street-doors shut and grinding slows,
We will remember.
Though hunters maim and shades enclose,
We will remember.
All praise to God—the veil’s deposed;
We can remember.
Because from death the Son arose,
We can remember
He will remember.
When, from my grave, the cypress grows,
You will remember.
And when you sleep 'neath mountain snow,
I will remember.
The epilogue eternal goes—
“We shall remember!”
Forevermore we shall compose,
cleansed by the ember.
Oh, Jonathan—
May your heart enfold
(And should I be told?):
Do you see your gold?
Do you see—you’re gold?
May 12, 2022
May 12, 2022 at 7:22 PM UTC
Eden’s Weeds (Andrew Crawford)
“seed buried somewhere six feet deep beneath dry bones
and brittle debris, lost in all of eden's weeds” Andrew Crawford
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you tripped exploring mine own eden's weeds,
more precisely, tripped me up, your poring over,
my one hundred year old poems, flawed, by
many spilled tears, aged old, for and over them,
and now, once again, je vous réponds s'il vous plait
this poem planned, title chosen, well before you
exercised my memories, disinterring by your fingers,
(surprise!} but the content you also now provided,
@ ten to midnight, your privacy invasion, a very fine
sleep deprivation excuse to compose one more time
who knows, perhaps this next one could be ”flawless”^
not likely though, flawless never found amidst the weeds
though in Eden chances are, chances are, not impossible,
for that’s the place where slow, simple songs get replayed,
celebrating lovers of life, its pleasant harmonies, go figure
over, over again, like a rolling stone, until friction finally wins,
yes ”my own chosen speed”^ is a-slowing, direction home, finally,
the mosses occluding new words and combinations, concealed,
like a moss, got no roots, birthed by shedding spores airborne,
my new old poems, plucked from air, words passing by in phrases
your phrase,
eden’s weeds,
hit my irises,
insisting it deserved,
instant cognition,
two words,
demanding special education,
accolade recognition,
perhaps if I
stick around,
for a few more poems,
I’ll learn to write
as beautiful as you.
Jun 17, 2020
Jun 17, 2020 at 12:31 AM UTC
An artist with mad composition
A confused disposition
Double the list of failed repetitions
With pencil in hand, I looked at you.
I began.
And drew
pictures of what your insides might look like. Black and green, Strokes of yellow and tangerine
Like LA skies
I saw you in a dream
Now you’re right before my eyes
And I close. with pencil in hand
I began,
And drew
pictures of possible futures if you decided to hang
And drew
pictures of me with neatly tied up hands
Behind my back
With pencil in hand I drew your eyes looking at
Me.
Piercing
Unconditionally
If the divine did lead me
Double the reason
To have you in me
Deeply.
I had a muse I can use, with pencil in hand
I began
And drew
peaceful days with you by my side
And drew wild *** parties, ****** and chicken thighs
And drew you with me
And drew pictures of what that could mean
doesn’t matter to me
So long I see you in peace
So long I have with me
A pencil in hand, some paper
And so I began
Mar 24, 2020
Mar 24, 2020 at 9:51 AM UTC
Roses are Red and Violets are Blue!
Why keep craving for that someone new
Is it his smile?
Well I smile too
Is it his eyes?
But I've got two
Its not me, No! its You!
You was Bae and I was Boo
my heart marched forward
While yours withdrew, subdued by the view of Andrew
Now my nightmares are alive
and my fears came true
Of how she left me
For a **** Tattoo
May 8, 2018
May 8, 2018 at 8:06 PM UTC
If angels were given to govern men,
neither
external nor internal controls
would be necessary
First,
control the Governed
Next,
control private interests
over
public rights
In republican government,
legislative authority necessarily
predominates,
on extraordinary occasions,
it might be
perfidiously abused
power surrendered by the people
to the administration,
unjust views of the major
interests of the minor
turned against
both parties
society itself
will be broken
many parts,
interests
class of citizen,
rights of individuals
Or
the minority
will be in danger of
the majority
the best security—
rights of every class,
will be diminished
Justice is the end of;
civil society
Dec 21, 2017
Dec 21, 2017 at 4:10 PM UTC
Have you felt the pain in my city yet ?
Winds on a surge,
Houses and minds overturned,
Life's taking an unwanted turn.
You can't be surprised,
This hurricane has no soul.
These roads leading to your path of destiny
Been cracked by too much debris on main street
The president isn't gonna do too much about it,
He's too comfortable laid back in his seat.
Chop
Another
Tree.
How can america come together in a nation wide crisis
When we can't come united to solve the real everyday problem ?
These power lines and houses been falling
Flood levels in Florida and Texas are rising
Didn't this world learn about broken hearts in New Orleans ?
Keeping your life in order
As the ones that love build on pain to peace
Only if you see through the rain, life's tears, a world's need.
Have you felt the pain in my city ?
©MH
Sep 16, 2017
Sep 16, 2017 at 12:05 PM UTC
Once upon a time we had the hymnal propped by the kitchen sink so's I could learn; years later Mum would sing along with me, and now...I like never but once in a blue moon dare to sing aloud, for missing her to tears.
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCXLVII)
What's happened to--me? Rainy hours detail
Thet eye with silver's touch while green lawns fence
The minutes fog obscures by vague suspense
With softest carpets rolled out to avail,
And I'm not erm, my own in sheer betrayl;
Erst naked trees lost to mists' whitish sense
Of yonder, I could shiver, and do hence,
Cuz in a blink I'm his upon that scale.
One comment like my wont five days ere, poor
As what? now he distracts aught hours 'til through
Suggestion I am giggling, sober, tour
His deepest sorrows, and maunt say he'd woo?!
Of course, I'm better searching violets, fer
All that. Let purple wink low, saying we knew.
05Apr17b
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 12:58 AM UTC
April...my early sonnets...leaning on the windowsill as the streets were mad rivers, Mum in bed just behind me--ya, I've long been the nightowl, though how many times I'd hang out with her when I did.
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCLXVIII)
Ah, silver gloaming whose soft light is thence
More yellow than wee baby leaves' detail
Of green chartreuse as rain now waltzes, pale
Yet with that subtler voice in tow, lawns hence
Thick carpets laid out 'gainst grey racks a sense
Of pink like fragile mists haunts to avail,
These naked boughs in lingerie black's scale
Just tinges, April clothed ere nightfall, whence?
O me! The blacktop sports thin puddles fer
A touch of wet, and Friday's hallowed to
Some, good cuz dunno why, as we talk. Were
It taxes or the missiles elsewhere, who
Shall--what? I listen, laugh, want Andrew, poor
As saying is, and recall Mum: all we knew.
14Apr17c
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:20 AM UTC
Hi. waves with a happy smile
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCLXVII)
"Your Jenny." And these blank skies thinly pale,
The baby leaves 'non shiver to winds' sense
Of sheer caprice, their soft chartreuse lit thence
As if translucent while birds wing oer, hail
With voices my heart knows from June's detail,
Like summer's breath flirts 'cross green lawns more dense
And ruffled carpets, daffodils bright hence
In deepest yellows smiling to avail.
Oh, Andrew! Song of Songs talks of what fer
Effect seems mine, though we're but friends--yet ooh!
That's how she knows him, yes. Warmth's waltzing tour
With singing lightly on the air and dew
What twinkles in morn's eye is ours as twere,
Whiles I want violets as I wait for you.
14Apr17b
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:18 AM UTC
...miss Andrew. L14: Will didn't?
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCLXV)
Ya, moonlight at my feet whileas in pale
Excuse strings whine oer how I slumber thence?
The violin half shrieking, thet eye hence
Just stares down through my window to detail
My auld duvet as if on purpose, frail
White on the side I allus choose, a sense
Of what? 'non waiting in sheer silence, whence
Note how, and switch the radio off to scale.
I'm hungry now tis midnight--is that poor?
Twa sips of coffee, cold and stale ist too?--
Twelve hours 'go when twas fresh---and who cares fer
All that by now? Not me. Let Shakespeare do
Up lines none read cuz oh! we love as twere
His plays. We don't, at that. But ah, who knew?
13Apr17c
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:15 AM UTC
Shake-speares sonnets back in the day...
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCLXIV)
Oh me! I never knew sich weary hours a sense
Of being half sick owns, whilst naught does avail,
This fevered longing mine as clouds' thin veil
Shows fragile blue skies, and warm notes from hence
Akin to daffodils' gay yellows thence
Abob to vagrant winds, where ne exhale
But haunts like to a ghost in sheer betrayl,
Nor moves the baby leaves hung in suspense.
Pink mists frame naked boughs as buds now tour
Those blackened skeletons of trees I do
'Non cherish in their wanting state, rain fer
All that a moistened kiss mair fit to woo
Than ist Baroque strains I sip coffee's cure
To? Andrew, I swear oh, how I love you.
13Apr17b
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:13 AM UTC
Um, my apologies to Lindt, dunno where that flavour originated when I first tasted it.
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=y7FeeKWVi5Q]
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCLVIII)
Lindt was the standard for good choclate, hence
Gone to the dogs as Dillon's to avail
Tastes like the thing itself, whilst in betrayl
Swiss choclatiers own powdered milk for sense?!
And our Wisconsin pride on top fr'intents--
Or what? I nibble one and t'other, frail
As private testing is, and call both pale,
Milk choclate nothing to the real stuff, whence?
Charge me with aye, a fault and swear tis poor,
I'll put on Broforce' soundtrack, thinking too--
Ha, what?! Being "friends" is--stop there as it were.
Trust in the LORD with all thine heart--and do
Not figure. I love Andrew. Rain blots fer
Effect aught blue skies, and no choclate's you.
10Apr17b
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:11 AM UTC
Wonder which of my favourite kites I am?
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCLV)
Read antique sonnets, yet don't hear them, frail
As voicing David Grey oer coffee thence
Is, lost to western beaches' surf from hence
And which I almost listen to in pale
Excuse, while Illinois' blue skies detail
These moors and wasted prairies winds pass whence
I canna say oer, whispers in a sense
Where Or'gon's ist? tore up auld trees to scale.
Our houses wink to golden light as twere,
Whiles Andrew's feel the hurr'cane damage to
Effect. Suppose I don't know what I stir
In asking, he swears I shan't know 'til through
What ist? the ache's root we unearth in tour:
All. And I love each minute lost to you.
09Apr17a
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:09 AM UTC
Kick me? Kiss me.
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCLIII)
As greyish twilight's pink clouds on the pale
East haunt lo, the first note of dawn, blue thence
Mair ghostly oh! I think "how calm tis hence--"
Like ninety-mile winds had been here, the frail
Peace breathless nor but waiting to avail.
And where the golden shafts draw fir trees' dense
Forms on dead houses' silence, know that sense
Is odd, cuz our electric'ty ne'er went stale.
Oh Andrew! My heart's on the West coast, poor
Though just friends augurs, where th'uprooted crew
Of ancient trees and battered houses that your
Eyes know too keenly mar the waking view.
And your heart grieves to note all, whiles mine fer
Just having you okay, gives thanks oer you.
08Apr17a
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:07 AM UTC
Kick me, I smile too gaily for the sparrows these days.
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCL)
Now twilight falls upon what was and thence
Sifts out more lucid notes, how silence' pale
Breath hangs oer naked trees until their frail
Stance, like to ghosts half frozen in suspense,
Waits for the darkness sans a voice, though hence
Ah, Mavis' hallowed strains aught thrill t'avail.
Me left alone and whispring in betrayl,
"Oh, Andrew--!" blue skies thicken oer that sense.
Yes, I watched orange splash stone walls left as twere
Forlorn with empty eyes that stared out through
The greyish windows as lo, clouds donned fer
Effect, ah, purple, fuschia winking too
Oer houses left in shadows none in poor
'Scuse shifted. Come, tell me when he'd not woo.
06Apr17c
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:03 AM UTC
[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pgdQf34SYSo]
I swear, I love him. *Note, the eyes (back in Edmund Spenser's days) have been known as "lamping" which L11 tries for cuz of rhyming.
(sonnet #MMMMMMCCXLVIII)
Cold blue peers thinly oer the rippling sense
Of greener carpets laid out for thet pale
Eye's scrut'ny ist? Grey, fluffy cloudbanks scale
Hours down in more uncertain light as hence
Ah, golden shafts look fragile whiles they fence
Long naked trees with thoughts of warmth's detail,
Winds trying to whisper, and the firs exhale
In hoarser notes as wont, me silent thence.
Cuz Andrew does not put his finger fer
Aught on my lips, no. Yet he does 'non too.
Are my lamps shining in betrayl as twere?
I swear, he humbles me without a clue
Or touch, and reaches for my heart, to stir
What's been long in the tomb, likeas we knew.
06Apr17a
Apr 15, 2017
Apr 15, 2017 at 1:00 AM UTC
White benches, torque wrenches
And a little love from me.
See my soul or **** it using existential creeds.
They did,
They used magic to gain what their fate had sealed
Twisted and crushed and gained eternal fields.
Flaming fiery feuds boiling deep within my soul.
Attractive and repulsive electrons sparking it to gold.
"I am the alchemist,
Behold
led-based souls that turn to gold which I, too had foretold"
Love is not as basic as the colours of the night.
Love is warm, not quick to frighten, it mentally delights.
Feelings are strong, so is love the infinite ration.
Connections, attractions from persons of compassion.
Aug 17, 2016
Aug 17, 2016 at 2:32 PM UTC
The full moon haunts me,
it only reminds me of those nights:
The nights that I would sit by my bed,
doors locked and window drapes open.
I would hold the box cutter in one hand and the codeine in the other.
The tears would roll down my face.
The screaming downstairs never stopping.
Wait.
It stopped.
Now there is sobbing and there are sirens.
But the sirens aren't for me,
they belong to the poor woman downstairs.
She obviously didn't see the icicles outside,
with their cold warnings.
Or the man on his porch,
preaching the devil to all that entered my house.
Silly girl,
the man on the moon isn't as kind as he seems.
He loves to come out for death, and death only.
Dec 16, 2015
Dec 16, 2015 at 10:26 PM UTC
I see you at my door,
huddled against the night
in your Kermit-green jacket
and purple pants
like a refugee from a rainbow.
Patiently waiting
for my enfolding arms,
to spirit you upstairs
for flannelette passion
which makes us feel safer
than the safest ***
Feb 20, 2015
Feb 20, 2015 at 1:07 AM UTC
Walking home alone on Saturday night,
social sounds spilling around me then
fading in my slipstream,
I round the corner of my street and
an image of your face rises
to combat the cold that searches for
the marrow of my bones.
Hope flutters like a wounded bird into
the pale sky of a vision desperate
with longing.
Forgive my physical hunger.
You were right to deny it
because by morning
you had given me
a far greater nourishment.
Feb 20, 2015
Feb 20, 2015 at 1:04 AM UTC
There he is,
between the Siberian Tiger and the Maui's Dolphin,
**** Mobilis Nullius.
She does not own a cellphone.
Text for her is the letters and words
that make up a book.
If he wants to take a picture,
he'll use a camera, thanks.
She doesn't want to download, upload,
freeload, overload,
girl, you've got to carry that load
of debt to the telco company.
He watches movies in the cinema
and he doesn't want to be hooked up
to the internet
or caught in the ever-widening net of commerce.
She's happy with the ancient ways,
songlines on the landline
lines on the land
where a woman can walk away
and hear only the ringing
of bird song,
lines on the land
a man can follow to the heart
of somewhere lost
and know only peace.
Feb 20, 2015
Feb 20, 2015 at 1:00 AM UTC
I'm finally understanding why you meant so **** much.
Why I still find you in the cobwebbed corners of my mind.
You were the only one, out of all the guys in my past, that has actually liked me, for me
The others, they saw my *** and were instantly drawn in.
For you, my body was a plus, an advantage to being with me.
It was the first time I had ever been touched by a guy, and it was also the last time I was loved for more than my body.
You knew me for more than a big **** but
you still didn't want me
When I broke up with you (or did you break up with me? It happened so many times in my head, I'm not really sure how we ended)
When we broke up, you weren't just breaking up with my body, like everyone since you had, you were breaking up with my personality.
I can change my body, but my personality is permanent.
That's why you meant, mean, so much to me. You not only rejected my body, but you rejected me
I finally figured it out
Jan 3, 2015
Jan 3, 2015 at 10:59 PM UTC
The guy I love
is a video addict.
He loves to see me naked,
and almost always tell me he loves me when he can.
I believed that he was the one,
that he would be able to drag me out of the darkness.
Instead he caused it.
What the **** is love?
************ to your hot girlfriend?
******* her senseless whilst telling her she is beautiful?
Is it pouring your guts to her and telling her that all you need is her?
The girl I love is stable and shy
Quiet and remorseful.
She is everything I have wished for.
Sadly I will always go back to the guy.
I don't know what we have
or how we even got it.
We both do know that one day
We will be happily divorced
with kids
silently loving each other
because that, in the end
is what we really wanted all along.
Aug 26, 2014
Aug 26, 2014 at 12:16 AM UTC