#anderson - Hello Poetry

I wrote a poem for my biography to a special person about Adam, I thought you would like to read it. Blue Heart You were 18, so many years in front of you. It felt like a dark eternity, you didn’t want to go. I saw it in your sunken eyes. The vacant stare and sad dark eyes. I saw when you were sitting around the table prom night. So much going around but you were too calm too collected. too inside your mind for us. I knew that blank expression from experience All too well. You screamed for help silent and loud I reached for your hand but you f e l l You were poised and calm Broken but full of love. All I wanted to do was help you. you were standing still when the world went on and it did go on, it did, without you. When you were standing there at the edge I wondered about you, all in my head. We were short lived, a friendship that was fast. You came, changed me, then you left. it came and went in a flash. I knew when no one else could guess. you put it all on me, didn’t you. but I was not cross with you. Heartbroken, yes scared, yes alone, yes mad, no Your color was blue Blue heart, blue veins Blue is the color of our planet from far far away we wore it proud it was all for you, a blue solemn silence. and the world spun fast and all the people hurried fast, real fast and no one ever smiled. You weren’t all there, in that head of yours. dark and empty you were sad but you lived like you would die tomorrow tomorrow came too soon and it was up to you. it was always up to you. Meeting you was bitter you put me through stress, anxiety and heartache you put me through shame and shock All I wanted was you by my side, and you there was not. Meeting you was sweet you gave me smiles and laughs, good music and thoughts you gave me a feeling of friendship and care. All I wanted was you by my side, but you were not there. You were poised and calm, you rubbed off on me. I was hyped and excited you called me “ADHD” You drove an old red beater with water bottles everywhere, with **** in the glove compartment. but you didn’t care. Your drove with sunglasses and the FM radio loud. You drove in silence, thinking no doubt. You loved the sun but you would hike for the shade when we were together you took me away. I didn’t think, I didn’t have nerves. We talked about the world We talked about life You had a life you thought you didn’t deserve. Whoever planted that seed had some **** nerve you wrote like me but I wrote for myself you wrote for us when there’d be nothing else. I knew when no one else could guess. you put it all on me, didn’t you. but I was not mad. Heartbroken, yes scared, yes alone, yes mad, no When you were gone I read and I read i wanted to know exactly when you felt what you felt. You called me your jav friend you called me your angel You are up there watching over me I yelled and screamed I couldn’t breathe. I shut them out, I cursed at you. I hated you I cried for you I only see you in my head Dreaming once and a while of your smile, of your eyes but they are never dark they are never sad they are never empty The vacant stare is not there. your hair is a giant mess and I freeze that moment right there. You said you were alone you said it was a secret you asked me about my darkest and you told me all your secrets I have never been in that much peace knowing I kept you there It felt like moments when it was hours and you were gone too **** soon. tomorrow came too fast and it was up to you. it was always up to you. Now I wear a band on my wrist and pray for your peace that is all I have left, but you mean so much to me. I hope you are happy, I hope your journey has ended and you found what you wanted My heart was once broken but soon if all this is true it will be mended.

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May 27, 2014

May 27, 2014 at 1:27 PM UTC

hannah-anderson-1

Blue Heart

I wrote a poem for my biography to a special person about Adam, I thought you would like to read it. Blue Heart You were 18, so many years in front of you. It felt like a dark eternity, you didn’t want to go. I saw it in your sunken eyes. The vacant stare and sad dark eyes. I saw when you were sitting around the table prom night. So much going around but you were too calm too collected. too inside your mind for us. I knew that blank expression from experience All too well. You screamed for help silent and loud I reached for your hand but you f e l l You were poised and calm Broken but full of love. All I wanted to do was help you. you were standing still when the world went on and it did go on, it did, without you. When you were standing there at the edge I wondered about you, all in my head. We were short lived, a friendship that was fast. You came, changed me, then you left. it came and went in a flash. I knew when no one else could guess. you put it all on me, didn’t you. but I was not cross with you. Heartbroken, yes scared, yes alone, yes mad, no Your color was blue Blue heart, blue veins Blue is the color of our planet from far far away we wore it proud it was all for you, a blue solemn silence. and the world spun fast and all the people hurried fast, real fast and no one ever smiled. You weren’t all there, in that head of yours. dark and empty you were sad but you lived like you would die tomorrow tomorrow came too soon and it was up to you. it was always up to you. Meeting you was bitter you put me through stress, anxiety and heartache you put me through shame and shock All I wanted was you by my side, and you there was not. Meeting you was sweet you gave me smiles and laughs, good music and thoughts you gave me a feeling of friendship and care. All I wanted was you by my side, but you were not there. You were poised and calm, you rubbed off on me. I was hyped and excited you called me “ADHD” You drove an old red beater with water bottles everywhere, with **** in the glove compartment. but you didn’t care. Your drove with sunglasses and the FM radio loud. You drove in silence, thinking no doubt. You loved the sun but you would hike for the shade when we were together you took me away. I didn’t think, I didn’t have nerves. We talked about the world We talked about life You had a life you thought you didn’t deserve. Whoever planted that seed had some **** nerve you wrote like me but I wrote for myself you wrote for us when there’d be nothing else. I knew when no one else could guess. you put it all on me, didn’t you. but I was not mad. Heartbroken, yes scared, yes alone, yes mad, no When you were gone I read and I read i wanted to know exactly when you felt what you felt. You called me your jav friend you called me your angel You are up there watching over me I yelled and screamed I couldn’t breathe. I shut them out, I cursed at you. I hated you I cried for you I only see you in my head Dreaming once and a while of your smile, of your eyes but they are never dark they are never sad they are never empty The vacant stare is not there. your hair is a giant mess and I freeze that moment right there. You said you were alone you said it was a secret you asked me about my darkest and you told me all your secrets I have never been in that much peace knowing I kept you there It felt like moments when it was hours and you were gone too **** soon. tomorrow came too fast and it was up to you. it was always up to you. Now I wear a band on my wrist and pray for your peace that is all I have left, but you mean so much to me. I hope you are happy, I hope your journey has ended and you found what you wanted My heart was once broken but soon if all this is true it will be mended.

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Captain Scarlet Had a weakness for harlots Who always wore scarlet as well. This could sound The death knell For the show Thundered Gerry. It's so deleterious I'm deadly serious Less of the hoes And more Thunderbirds Are Go. Captain Scarlet's Favourite starlet However Was no harlot Even though she always wore Scarlet as well But it was quite difficult to tell That she was not so Even if one was very clever. Unlike Bobby Shafto.

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May 9, 2014

May 9, 2014 at 2:59 PM UTC

david-alexander-jackson

Captain Scarlet's Starlet And Harlots In Scarlet

Captain Scarlet Had a weakness for harlots Who always wore scarlet as well. This could sound The death knell For the show Thundered Gerry. It's so deleterious I'm deadly serious Less of the hoes And more Thunderbirds Are Go. Captain Scarlet's Favourite starlet However Was no harlot Even though she always wore Scarlet as well But it was quite difficult to tell That she was not so Even if one was very clever. Unlike Bobby Shafto.

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Break- Break free-- I am pulling at these chains, though in return they're pulling me. I am stuck- Suffocating- I am choking- I'm stuck! How could this be? Young children running down a green pasture- Dreams so large, so real, so fierce- I was there- That was me! Look now- Look at me now-- Can you see? An adult lost at sea. Stuck, Lost, Confused- In a kingdom so large. So many others- yet still feel alone Searching for the 'free' in freedom, Though cornered into fear, All the rules choking me in, The 'free' will never be near.

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Apr 30, 2014

Apr 30, 2014 at 11:23 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Break free

Break- Break free-- I am pulling at these chains, though in return they're pulling me. I am stuck- Suffocating- I am choking- I'm stuck! How could this be? Young children running down a green pasture- Dreams so large, so real, so fierce- I was there- That was me! Look now- Look at me now-- Can you see? An adult lost at sea. Stuck, Lost, Confused- In a kingdom so large. So many others- yet still feel alone Searching for the 'free' in freedom, Though cornered into fear, All the rules choking me in, The 'free' will never be near.

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Could it have been the self concious views? The lack of choice- No room to choose? Could it have been the need for emotion? The outbursts? The commotion? Were the cogs rusting? A lack of motion The cogs of time rusting... Time not moving with the speed of light? Could it have been that one was moving faster, then other- Timing not right? Like a Cheetah and a Deer holdings hands, Could it have been tempting chance? The chance to be amazed at the beauty of this picture, Then not be surprised with the outcome- An act of nature. Mesmerized with lies that are there to charm. Cheating fate, Causing harm. Could it have been... That you left me because I was no more an object of your desire? Or- Could it had been that all along, I was playing with fire?

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Apr 12, 2014

Apr 12, 2014 at 10:33 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Could it have been...

Could it have been the self concious views? The lack of choice- No room to choose? Could it have been the need for emotion? The outbursts? The commotion? Were the cogs rusting? A lack of motion The cogs of time rusting... Time not moving with the speed of light? Could it have been that one was moving faster, then other- Timing not right? Like a Cheetah and a Deer holdings hands, Could it have been tempting chance? The chance to be amazed at the beauty of this picture, Then not be surprised with the outcome- An act of nature. Mesmerized with lies that are there to charm. Cheating fate, Causing harm. Could it have been... That you left me because I was no more an object of your desire? Or- Could it had been that all along, I was playing with fire?

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Normal? What does it mean to be normal? What is normal? Normal to you, may not be normal to me. From the life of the simple, Formal, may not be normal. From the views of the formal, Simple may be looked down upon, Frowned upon. Judging one another based on normality, A life created on formalities, Complications, Discrimination. All because of our definition of normal? Definition of normal- 1. conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected. "Usual?", "Expected?", "Typical?". Hypocritical! Normal? Does it even exist? Why do we persist- to have our definitions of what normal is? And what it isn't? Normal- What is it?

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Apr 11, 2014

Apr 11, 2014 at 1:12 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Normality - What is it?

Normal? What does it mean to be normal? What is normal? Normal to you, may not be normal to me. From the life of the simple, Formal, may not be normal. From the views of the formal, Simple may be looked down upon, Frowned upon. Judging one another based on normality, A life created on formalities, Complications, Discrimination. All because of our definition of normal? Definition of normal- 1. conforming to a standard; usual, typical, or expected. "Usual?", "Expected?", "Typical?". Hypocritical! Normal? Does it even exist? Why do we persist- to have our definitions of what normal is? And what it isn't? Normal- What is it?

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We were once so close, What happened? All the secrets shared, The lies told for one another. The memories we made, Were they all for nothing? Something- Something happened between us. What was it? Best of friends, Souls searching the wonders of this world- Together. Together no more. Sad, hurt - Unsure Sure- Sure we had our times. Downs and Ups. Trial and Error. Now, Nothing. Nothingness is still Something. It's that thing you are doing now- Nothing. It's the absence that you choose, You chose- Nothing-- Through everything, There's Something- There's Nothing- There's what you chose for us to be. All lost through Nothing over Something. Souls parted, Hopes flattened- Hearts saddened. What happened?

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Apr 9, 2014

Apr 9, 2014 at 2:40 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Love Lost (what happened?)

We were once so close, What happened? All the secrets shared, The lies told for one another. The memories we made, Were they all for nothing? Something- Something happened between us. What was it? Best of friends, Souls searching the wonders of this world- Together. Together no more. Sad, hurt - Unsure Sure- Sure we had our times. Downs and Ups. Trial and Error. Now, Nothing. Nothingness is still Something. It's that thing you are doing now- Nothing. It's the absence that you choose, You chose- Nothing-- Through everything, There's Something- There's Nothing- There's what you chose for us to be. All lost through Nothing over Something. Souls parted, Hopes flattened- Hearts saddened. What happened?

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Uplift me Take me Make me Break me Take me to another world. Give me a night like a love song, Where nothing goes wrong. Where all that can be, will be. Hold me, Write to me, Sing to me, Break through my squirms of disbelief, When you touch me - Where no one else has been. Your lips on every part, Every shadow, Every groove, Hands gliding through every piece of hair. Hold me, guide me, teach me. Those eyes - That stare. Tell me, Don't stop, Tell me how you feel, While you touch me, Your body, Your soul- Free-- To love me, To show me, A language of love spoken by your eyes When you look at me, A language only I perceive. Write me poetry - with your glare, Those eyes - That stare. Taking me to that place, Ecstatic, Dramatic, Mystical, Amazing, In reality it is silent, Moments of our lives pass us by, Without a care, You make me think of nothing, Though a thousand worries there. You allow me to drift- I'm drifting. Uplift me

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Apr 8, 2014

Apr 8, 2014 at 11:39 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Uplift me

Uplift me Take me Make me Break me Take me to another world. Give me a night like a love song, Where nothing goes wrong. Where all that can be, will be. Hold me, Write to me, Sing to me, Break through my squirms of disbelief, When you touch me - Where no one else has been. Your lips on every part, Every shadow, Every groove, Hands gliding through every piece of hair. Hold me, guide me, teach me. Those eyes - That stare. Tell me, Don't stop, Tell me how you feel, While you touch me, Your body, Your soul- Free-- To love me, To show me, A language of love spoken by your eyes When you look at me, A language only I perceive. Write me poetry - with your glare, Those eyes - That stare. Taking me to that place, Ecstatic, Dramatic, Mystical, Amazing, In reality it is silent, Moments of our lives pass us by, Without a care, You make me think of nothing, Though a thousand worries there. You allow me to drift- I'm drifting. Uplift me

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Light blue swirls, In an ocean deep. *We laugh, We desire, We weep.* Shards of grass, emerald green, Seeping through a mirage of brown. *We dare, We smile, We frown.* A sky of vivid blue, Breaking through the clouds of grey. *We hope, We bicker, We prey.* Amongst all of the above-- The nature of Love

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Apr 8, 2014

Apr 8, 2014 at 2:53 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

The Nature of love

Light blue swirls, In an ocean deep. *We laugh, We desire, We weep.* Shards of grass, emerald green, Seeping through a mirage of brown. *We dare, We smile, We frown.* A sky of vivid blue, Breaking through the clouds of grey. *We hope, We bicker, We prey.* Amongst all of the above-- The nature of Love

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Where am I? What is this? Warm, Wet, I'm swimming. Alone, Alone for so long. Not knowing right from wrong. A thought - What is this I'm thinking? Bumps and lumps and all kinds of triumphs. A race for survival - Depending on all but me. Made from love or misery? Who am I? I can hear voices, Especially one - Constantly there. She sounds so sweet. Who is she? What will my life be like? Endless possibilities - No choices. A game of chances. What will become of me? A Newborns destiny - A lottery.

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Apr 6, 2014

Apr 6, 2014 at 1:05 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Who am I?

Where am I? What is this? Warm, Wet, I'm swimming. Alone, Alone for so long. Not knowing right from wrong. A thought - What is this I'm thinking? Bumps and lumps and all kinds of triumphs. A race for survival - Depending on all but me. Made from love or misery? Who am I? I can hear voices, Especially one - Constantly there. She sounds so sweet. Who is she? What will my life be like? Endless possibilities - No choices. A game of chances. What will become of me? A Newborns destiny - A lottery.

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Courageous. I go through stages. I think about all I could do. I am Courageous. Afraid. I contemplate. I think about all that could go wrong. I am afraid. Brave. I will do all that I crave. I believe in myself. I feel brave. Fear. It creeps up, whilst fulfilments of my dreams are near. *The possible becomes impossible. I feel fear.* Fear, when brave, Then feeling afraid, All the stages, the rages - The angst of changes. When I feel Courageous.

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Apr 5, 2014

Apr 5, 2014 at 1:35 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Courageous

Courageous. I go through stages. I think about all I could do. I am Courageous. Afraid. I contemplate. I think about all that could go wrong. I am afraid. Brave. I will do all that I crave. I believe in myself. I feel brave. Fear. It creeps up, whilst fulfilments of my dreams are near. *The possible becomes impossible. I feel fear.* Fear, when brave, Then feeling afraid, All the stages, the rages - The angst of changes. When I feel Courageous.

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"I love you." Their true feelings spoken, There's something to be said, To share their feelings - they're no longer weak. As they lay there in bed. As they lay there unafraid to speak. They can't see their future without one another. A deep a relationship, they are almost there. Emotions still roar like thunder. Hopes and Dreams, they now share. Not just sleeping together, but Making love. They hide no secrets, Tell no lies. Each other - They're proud of. Arguments now lead to Compromise. It's their first time. Emotions take over. Touching, Kissing, Feeling, Passion - the wait is over. Their feelings for each other, yet again, grow. Every one gets along fine. Questions, Answers, Conversations flow. Nervous - Meeting the family for the first time. He says he wants to be more serious - She agrees. Relationship is stronger. Arguments forgiven. Would we happy with each other? What we have, is this right? Frustrated with each other. First fight. He is lost in her beauty. Many Dates passed, the first now a memory. Dates and Dinners, Drinks and Movies. Date two, Date three. The first kiss - He gave her. A memorable night. Both on their best behaviour. A romantic dinner over candlelight. No hesitation shown. Arranged first date - No-one stalled. Spoke for the first time on the phone. Nervous - Dialling their number, first call. Exciting emotions unlocked. The start of a relation. Numbers swapped. Shared a conversation. "Hello, Nice to meet you!"

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Apr 4, 2014

Apr 4, 2014 at 10:58 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Backwards Love

"I love you." Their true feelings spoken, There's something to be said, To share their feelings - they're no longer weak. As they lay there in bed. As they lay there unafraid to speak. They can't see their future without one another. A deep a relationship, they are almost there. Emotions still roar like thunder. Hopes and Dreams, they now share. Not just sleeping together, but Making love. They hide no secrets, Tell no lies. Each other - They're proud of. Arguments now lead to Compromise. It's their first time. Emotions take over. Touching, Kissing, Feeling, Passion - the wait is over. Their feelings for each other, yet again, grow. Every one gets along fine. Questions, Answers, Conversations flow. Nervous - Meeting the family for the first time. He says he wants to be more serious - She agrees. Relationship is stronger. Arguments forgiven. Would we happy with each other? What we have, is this right? Frustrated with each other. First fight. He is lost in her beauty. Many Dates passed, the first now a memory. Dates and Dinners, Drinks and Movies. Date two, Date three. The first kiss - He gave her. A memorable night. Both on their best behaviour. A romantic dinner over candlelight. No hesitation shown. Arranged first date - No-one stalled. Spoke for the first time on the phone. Nervous - Dialling their number, first call. Exciting emotions unlocked. The start of a relation. Numbers swapped. Shared a conversation. "Hello, Nice to meet you!"

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Change is changing - the changes that we made. No time for abiding by Human Rights, When it means someone isn't getting paid.

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Apr 2, 2014

Apr 2, 2014 at 11:56 PM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

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Change is changing - the changes that we made. No time for abiding by Human Rights, When it means someone isn't getting paid.

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Dear Friend, Thank you for being there. When was the last time I said thank you and you knew that I meant it? When was the last time, we laughed at the rules and then we bent them? *Memories fade, as the years go by. Though with you memories seem like yesterday.* Do you remember all that we went through,everything that we had done. All the memories we made, every moment, in my heart, I've saved. **Just looking at the pictures, a moment of our youth. Those moments how I miss them, young and unafraid to speak the truth.** Maybe, Maybe, one day we will meet, and whenever that may be, I'm sure we will recapture the memories. Just like yesterday, we say, although it has been years, Since we created each others smiles and wiped away each others tears. Dear friend, I sure do miss you, I remember you for a moment at the least in my days, when we'd discuss our issues, then we'd forget them and play. How about the times we fought battles for one another, or the moments we fought each other?, and then we laughed at those times, and moved on from it all in a day. Do you remember them? My friend, how can I forget, all those years gone by and still a clear memory of how we first met. **Maybe, Maybe, one day we'll meet, and whenever that may be, we can remake our history. Maybe, Maybe, one day we'll meet, until then my old friend, I hope your safe and happy.** If I don't see you, If life has taken us to far, like the waves of the ocean, like a long lost star, Remember that I remember you, and never forget the times we shared, My friend, I will always be here, and in my heart, you will always be there.

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Apr 2, 2014

Apr 2, 2014 at 1:33 AM UTC

kaye-b-anderson

Dear Friend,

Dear Friend, Thank you for being there. When was the last time I said thank you and you knew that I meant it? When was the last time, we laughed at the rules and then we bent them? *Memories fade, as the years go by. Though with you memories seem like yesterday.* Do you remember all that we went through,everything that we had done. All the memories we made, every moment, in my heart, I've saved. **Just looking at the pictures, a moment of our youth. Those moments how I miss them, young and unafraid to speak the truth.** Maybe, Maybe, one day we will meet, and whenever that may be, I'm sure we will recapture the memories. Just like yesterday, we say, although it has been years, Since we created each others smiles and wiped away each others tears. Dear friend, I sure do miss you, I remember you for a moment at the least in my days, when we'd discuss our issues, then we'd forget them and play. How about the times we fought battles for one another, or the moments we fought each other?, and then we laughed at those times, and moved on from it all in a day. Do you remember them? My friend, how can I forget, all those years gone by and still a clear memory of how we first met. **Maybe, Maybe, one day we'll meet, and whenever that may be, we can remake our history. Maybe, Maybe, one day we'll meet, until then my old friend, I hope your safe and happy.** If I don't see you, If life has taken us to far, like the waves of the ocean, like a long lost star, Remember that I remember you, and never forget the times we shared, My friend, I will always be here, and in my heart, you will always be there.

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