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MY HEAD IS POUNDING AND PUSHING AND SEARCHING FOR A WAY OUT OF LOVING YOU. IM BOWING UNDER THE PRESSURE OF CARING SO MUCH AND GETTING SO LITTLE IN RETURN. PLEASE JUST PUT ME OUT OF MY MISERY ITS JUST LIKE KILLING A WOUNDED ANIMAL— SURE ITLL HURT (ME, AND I CAN HARDLY FEEL ANYMORE ANYWAY) BUT I WONT BE SUFFERING ANY LONGER.
WHEN I FIRST LOVED YOU IT WAS BECAUSE MY TEARS WERE THE CHILD OF THAT DEAFENING HUMOR OF YOURS (HOW MANY TIMES DID YOU MAKE ME LAUGH? ENOUGH TO MAKE ME FALL IN LOVE) BUT NOW I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP, DRUNK, THINKING ABOUT THE TIMES YOU MADE ME FEEL BEAUTIFUL. IM NOT, NOT ANYMORE, NOT ENOUGH, AT LEAST, BECAUSE TASTES CHANGE AND IM SORRY I CANT KEEP UP SO JUST PUT THE ************* BULLET IN MY HEAD, MY LOVE, BECAUSE NOTHING STOPS A HEAD(HEART)ACHE LIKE DEATH.
Jan 10, 2015
Jan 10, 2015 at 12:56 PM UTC
I FEEL LIKE SUCH A MESS AND I AM GETTING WORSE AND I AM NEVER HAPPY ANYMORE AND I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO COPE WITH IT ALL AND I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH FOR BEING LIKE THIS BUT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO STOP THE SUICIDAL THOUGHTS AND I DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH LONGER I CAN TAKE
-te
Jan 5, 2015
Jan 5, 2015 at 5:19 PM UTC
*OH BUT YOU'RE SO *******
OUT OF REACH AND I WILL
NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH
FOR SUCH A BEAUTIFUL ANGEL
LIKE YOU. BECAYSE THAT'S
WHAT YOU ARE TO ME,
AN ANGEL THAT LIGHTS UP
THE DARKNESS
CLOUDING MY SOUL.
AND GOD, I LOVE YOU MORE
THAN THIS ****** UP MESS
OF WORDS WILL EVER
BE ABLE TO DESCRIBE.*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 5:27 PM UTC
*IT'S THE INTOXICATING WAY
YOU DIDN'T CARE OR NEVER
WILL CARE ABOUT ME AND
MY PROBLEMS. IT'S THE WAY
YOU USED TO BREATHE MY
NAME IN THE DARKNESS
WHEN YOU THOUGHT I
COULDN'T HEAR. IT'S THE WAY
YOU DENIED BEING THE TINIEST
BIT ATTACHED TO ME EVEN
THOUGH BOTH YOU AND I
KNEW YOU WERE. BUT MOST
OF ALL, IT'S THE WAY YOU
LEFT ME, A SOBBING MESS ON
THE FLOOR, WITH YOUR NAME
AS A LAST BREATH ON MY
SWOLLEN LIPS.*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 5:24 PM UTC
*THE ROOM IS BURNING
UP IN FLAMES AND I
DON'T EVEN CARE
BECAUSE NO FIRE IS HOT
ENOUGH TO MELT THE
ICE COVERING MY
FROZEN BONES*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 5:20 PM UTC
*SOME PEOPLE COME INTO
YOUR LIFE AND LEAVE
WITHOUT MAKING A DIFFERENCE.
BUT YOU, OH YOU AND YOUR
DIMPLES SMILE LEFT AN
IMPRINT ON MY BLACKENED
SOUL. EVEN IF YOU LEAVE,
I WILL REMEMBER EACH AND
EVERY CONVERSATION WE HAD.
I WILL LOOK BACK AT THEM
AND SMILE. BECAUSE THAT'S
WHAT YOU DO BEST,
MAKING ME SMILE.
WHETHER YOU ARE HERE
OR NOT*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 5:18 PM UTC
**MAYBE IT'S BETTER FOR ME TO LEAVE
BEFORE YOU DECIDE TO**
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 5:13 PM UTC
*I DON'T WANT YOU TO EVER
LEAVE ME BUT KNOWING THAT
YOU WILL IS LIKE KNOWING
THAT THE BEATING HEART
IN MY CHEST WILL
STOP BEATING*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 5:11 PM UTC
*SOMETIMES I WONDER WHAT
WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF I HAD
SPOKEN MY MIND, WHAT
WOULD'VE HAPPENED IF YOU
DIDN'T LEAVE. BUT MOST OF ALL
I WONDER WHAT WOULD'VE
HAPPENED IF I WAS THE LAST
THING ON YOUR MIND BEFORE
YOU TOOK THAT LEAP INTO THE
NEVER ENDING DARKNESS.
WOULD YOU HAVE STAYED?*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 5:09 PM UTC
*HE GRABBED HER FACE AND
PULLED HER IN LIKE SHE WAS
HIS ONLY REMAINING SOURCE
OF LIVING, LIKE SHE WAS THE
GRAVITY KEEPING HIM ON EARTH*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 4:53 PM UTC
*IT HURTS BECAUSE
I DON'T EVEN KNOW
WHERE IT WENT WRONG,
WHEN YOU DECIDED
I WASN'T WORTH IT ANYMORE*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 4:51 PM UTC
*IT ***** BECAUSE I'M HERE
AND YOU'RE THERE AND THE
DISTANCE SEPERATING OUR
MINDS AND BODIES IS SLOWLY
TEARING ME APART*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 4:44 PM UTC
*IM SITTING ALONE IN THE DARK
AND EVERYTHING HURTS
BECAUSE EVEN MY OWN HEARTBEAT
IS WHISPERING YOUR NAME*
Dec 25, 2014
Dec 25, 2014 at 4:41 PM UTC
I FIND IT FUNNY HOW I THINK YOU WILL COME AROUND AND I CAN'T EXCEPT THE FACT YOU HAVE ******* ME OVER
EVERY TIME I THINK OF YOU I THINK OF ALL THE **** YOU SAID AND THE STUFF WE DID.
I REMEMBER THAT TIME YOU SEEMED LIKE A GOD AND NOW I KNOW YOU'RE MORE LIKE LUCIFER.
PLEASE GET OUT OF MY HEAD
I DON'T KNOW WHY I WANT YOU TO NEED ME LIKE HUMANITY NEEDS THE ATMOSPHERE.
Aug 17, 2014
Aug 17, 2014 at 9:15 AM UTC