#agonist
I remember that first dose
From the gawky greeting to affecting adios
In the drunken darkness I prowled
Watching that boisterous dancing crowd
I thought you a goddess, a toothsome treat
And from the golden apple did I eat
Small bites
Became all nights
All nights blurred into days
It’s all kind of a haze
And now
I can’t take more of you
My receptors are bound by your molecules
Our relationship is a sigmoid curve
Your affinity to my nerve
An agonist, baby, is not what I need
To ween off this goddess dependency
I now just tolerate
I mean I just acclimate
But without you my heart palpitates
I am nauseous, I sweat, and I shake
An antagonist is what I seek
For I am far too weak
I mean without you I am nothing but lonely and depressed
In a dark alley needle obsessed
Jun 26, 2018
Jun 26, 2018 at 11:06 AM UTC
40 hours in
a warm mu agonist blanket
reminding you
the sunnyside sea serene
.. ...that everything everyone
will be ok
like the last time it felt right
to let someone
Feb 5, 2015
Feb 5, 2015 at 1:31 PM UTC