#additction
What balm is there
in being right?
Especially rightness,
righteousness
grounded in bitterness--
are you joining me in my misery?
I do not want
my happiness to come
at the expense of yours--
as if there were some
limited supply of it;
some small cupful--
snatching at the drops
that fall.
If I want compassion+mercy
extended to me
then I **** well better
extend it to others.
And so I go forward,
waving olive branches.
Will you grasp back?
Nov 8, 2016
Nov 8, 2016 at 5:24 PM UTC
I feel estranged every now and then.
I been trying for months to explain, my lack of, conviction.
Half-hearted attempts to force something pleasing.
The only thing I'm sure of these days
Is that I'm not sure about much of anything.
What was meant to last eternity
A star's sparkling mystery, always shrouded in dark
Instead it all came crashing down in the beauty of a shooting star
Wishes are no different than secrets in this sense
We all have them, and tell no one
Keep them tucked underneath our pain
A journal entry's page kept safe through memory
I want to be the Nothing's you whisper
In the ear of your lover
To dance along the strings of your heart
A romantic arrhythmia played in perfect time
Pausing for a brief moment
Of enthralled dyspnea
Some might call it foolish, but they are right...
For all the wrong reasons.
To be brave, you must be a fool
Looking at your fate with sunken eyes, stoic
Yet, you push forward, no this is not an escape
This is acceptance in its purest form
The difference between courage and a coward is distraction and denial
Why run from the inevitable?
I'm not inviting him in, but I will acknowledge the existence.
Aug 17, 2015
Aug 17, 2015 at 2:04 AM UTC
It's dark in here, pretty lonely too
I've been hurt by them, and I cry to you
To my weary knees I fall
Raise my hands, to you I call.
Forgive me Father for what I have done
For I have killed your only son
And your consuming love like a tempest in me
Sets my palms convulsing
Blesses me with repose and piety
That I pray will forever remain.
But as my silver lining brightens with the sun,
My warmth slowly fades as to the world I return
It's like I have this disease, this Unkind addiction
To almost every little thing, that procrastinates my devotion
Then slowly it fades
The voice of the angels as they pray
A cold void in my soul
Growing as I walk away
Yes it's dark in here, pretty lonely too
When I'm hurting again, I'll come back to you.
Aug 27, 2015
Aug 27, 2015 at 2:37 AM UTC